[Promoted from our community blogs, game designer Luc Bernard shares his story. Luc’s also currently looking for a new gig, so please get in touch. Follow him on Instagram and Twitter]
I am mostly grateful about the life I have lived. The people I’ve met, and have been able to consider as friends during one point.
Why am I going public with this?
Mostly because I just want people to know that really I am grateful for the support I’ve gotten over the years of my work, and that if it wasn’t for them, I wouldn’t of been able to live my dream.
My family has never believed in me. Still, to this day, they think I’m just a crazy person but strangers believed in me, bought my creations and allowed me to continue to make worlds. So, I feel like maybe I owe more to strangers than I do to anyone who got close to me.
What I create is probably the things I cherish the most. Friends, lovers, they all come and go, it’s just life. But what you create will always be there, and will continue to touch people even after you’re gone.
In the past weeks I’ve changed
It wasn’t the cancer, since I had it for a while. At one point I started being really scared, and was acting very silly and out of control.
Someone sent me this:
That made me snap out of it. When I look at it and thought: “Who am I to pity myself?”
Yes, the only members of my family that liked me passed away, and my ex wife who was also a close friend died in a car accident. But, I’m alive, so I must do something more with my life.
I know a lot of people, but I can’t open myself up to anyone. I did that over the past months, but I also lost that friend. I don’t know exactly what happened. I’m still trying to figure that out. I am thankful for the time I did spend getting to know that person and open up. I think in all honesty that person probably thinks that I’m crazy (haha).
For anyone who feels lonely out there
Just find a purpose with your life. Do what you want to do. I’m the best example that anything is possible. If you’re sad and feel like you don’t fit in, just find yourself a place in the world, and try to make your mark. Anytime you feel alone, just go ahead and create something. Never waste your time doing nothing and self pitying.
I am going to be ok. I have decided I want to focus on things that could bring a difference into others lives. I want to finish up Imagination Is The Only Escape, for example, since that title is very close to me. Afterwards, I’ll try to be more connected with the rest of the human population.
What you should do
Just do what you want to do, even if that’s dressing up like a cat if you feel like it, don’t be scared to open up to others, get hurt, love someone truly, and never have a regret. Care for others even if they don’t care for you.
I once saw a tattoo that said “love me when I deserve it less because that’s when I need it most“, and since I saw that quote it just changed my outlook.
I hope it does the same to you.