Wait – I don’t love you like they love you.
The editorials on Destructoid's front page
are the sort of thing I come here for, which makes now as good a time as any for me to finally make proper use of this account. My problem is that the topic discussed is the very way I was trying to avoid introducing myself: discussing my dislikes.
I had wanted to connect with the DTOID community on similarities, not differences. So even before Jim Sterling's latest article
, this particular issue had me rewriting and fretting over my introduction post for weeks. Then while considering the reason I play games, it all made sense.
Disliking the Portal games is going to end up with me being lynched to the tune of 'Still Alive'.
As a teen, someone pointed out to me all of my favorite entertainment involved violence of some kind. At the time I was angry in the way that teenagers are when confronted with the truth, but now I look on that pronouncement as freeing.
I’ll never know why it took me so long to realize this when my username references one of my favorite game characters
, but...I’m a fightaholic. Simply put: the only puzzles I want to solve result in delivering the most spectacular violence possible, to stride through a game as a vengeful god.
Which is why this and Asura's Wrath were the only demos I played at PAX.
This doesn’t discount any of the other aspects of gaming – story, soundtrack, controls, replayability, etc. This simply underlines why I play what I play. I’ve felt myself growing distant from gaming in recent times, however, because of the accolades certain games got that I couldn’t connect with.
Again, it was Destructoid that helped me figure out ‘what’ wasn’t the connection I needed, but ‘who’. A while back I came across a community journal attached to the username fulldamage
. I had known someone with that handle years ago, so I was compelled to reach out and see if this was the same person.
I soon discovered that i'd made a horrible mistake
of course it was him and he was still rad! We started talking again, met up at PAX, and had a great time catching up and hanging out.He – and a Destructoid meet-up I got drunk off my face at – pushed me to de-lurk.
Alcohol's convinced me of worse decisions.
Which circuitously leads to my dilemma (and subsequent solution) of taking arms against this sea of troubles, and by opposing, end them. Let us connect through what we love. In my case, that would count as the attack button.
Pleased to meet you, Destructoid Community! My name is heiyu, and I ♥ FIGHT
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