This is what is known as a "make or break" point for most fasts. For a majority, the need for food, caffeine or some kind of nourishing item really starts to take hold and the true battle begins. For me, I cannot help but look at my other games like a cockney orphan with his face pressed against the glass of a bakery. The bread that I am envying is Anarchy Reigns.
I am a huge fan of brawlers. I am enthralled by a chaotic fight with other players or against the game itself. Fist of the North Star, Dynasty Warriors and Ninety-Nine Nights were all games that I fell in love with just from the screen shots alone. It'll be released relatively soon and I cannot wait for it. The only problem is that I have to.
I have questioned the "why" about this whole thing. It's not like I'm denying myself anything I really need. It's just playing one game for a month, why is it so difficult? Older gamers remembered days where they only had one game to play for months on end and they found enjoyment out of it, even if the game was crappy. But that was yesteryear and times have certainly changed.
This was the thought that flew though my head before classes started today. How often do we take for granted the things that we currently have? It's like what I mentioned in my first post: I have a lot to be thankful for. I guess it's reached a point to where I'm thankful to even have the decision to play one game for a month rather than being stuck with a crappy arcade port until next Christmas.
But is it a futile effort to do this? Not really. This process is forcing me to take my own faith a little bit deeper than I would like, but that is the entire notion of a fast. It may sound strange, but I've been looking for a level of peace within all of this. Not necessarily a zen type of thing, but rather a stillness that I've wanted. I want to enjoy sitting down and doing nothing. I'm so used to using games to fill the silence, that I forgot how incredibly fulfilling the silence can be.
I am however still counting down the days until I can power bomb someone while wearing a pimp hat.
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