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I just don't understand

I'll apologize in advance for the following:

*Yes. It's another one of those "I need a friend" blogs. I'm sorry for that.
*I'm complaining a lot. I can see that, and I apologize for that.
*If I sound like a crybaby or a ranter, I apologize for that.
*I apologize if this, to anyone, is an awful blog. I don't even care if this goes onto Failtoid. I'm being brave for once and still posting.
*I know people go through much worse than me, but if this blog makes it sound like that I'm the most lonely person on this site, then I apologize for that too.
*If I did ANYTHING wrong to anyone in the past, then I'm sorry for that too (I just put this here just in case)

If anyone has something rude to say to me after reading what I apologized for, then please just save your breathe, time, and energy, and just don't read anything further down.

So let's get to the point. I'm trying to be a part of the community here, but this is too much for someone like me. I'm only 16 after all. Seriously, what exactly do I need to do? Keep trying? Ugh....I guess I'll just keep trying to have SOME kind of notice....I'm just gonna take a stupid guess here, but maybe I'm just too young and I should just come back in my twenties or thirties? Maybe this is a community "mostly for adults" or something. After all, people like my friends and myself, who are all teens, can't seem to get any new friends so far. I seriously don't know.

I mean, no matter what we do, we can't win in these kinds of situations. I tried doing everything many others have kept telling me:

*Don't be afraid to blog.
*Comment in many blogs.
*Try the chat.

and many other things similar above, to no avail however. Tried the chats, met many trolls and jerks that put me down even further (to the point that I find it a reason for me to make this blog here). Tried commenting, which didn't really do anything. Tried the forums, same thing. Tried blogging, not much of an effect either. Tried PMing people. Never had ONE reply. Not even a simple "alright" or something (and I sent a lot of PMs).

After a few weeks, my friends who also tried to become a part of the community for months all emailed me, saying stuff like "This is the worst community ever" or "Every single person here is wrong as fuck" and finally "They don't care about the newbies, only the popular folks". After that, they gave up on this place and started going to other communities in hopes of better treatment. I'm sick of hearing those complaints, and I'm damn sick of giving up (which is explained further below). Besides, I really want to prove my friends wrong that deep down, this is a great place filled with very nice and caring (although unique) people who would love to be your friend if you give them the chance. I want to prove to them that this truly is the best video game community that many people keep bragging to me about. I been on here since....May of 2012, I think. I know it's pretty early to complain about the lack of friends, but what else can I do? Sit here and expect someone to magically appear right on in the PMs asking me "Wanna be buds?" Of course that will never happen (and if it will, then that'll take many years), so I rather make a stand here and now, say enough is enough, stop being scared, make this blog, post it, pray for nice comments, and see what happens.

I read this blog some time ago. Does this mean that I need to go to conventions? Once again, I'm only 16, and I live too far away. In Gulfport, Mississippi to be exact, which is called by many people "poor city with nothing special ever happening there", and I agree somewhat because it's so boring here! There aren't many gamers who like a variety of games here such as myself. The only people here are a couple of my cousins, my brother Josh William Jasper (who loves to freaking steal, so I can't play with him), and a few people that was in my school and neighborhood before (they moved now. They hated Gulfport).

I, of course, went to other unique video game community websites and tried those places out before coming here in the first place. I tried 1up: there was a bug that kept deleting my profile information, so no one knew about me! Also, I seen many forum posts that 1up was pretty much "dead". I tried IGN: a ton of people there are so immature! I lurked Siliconera for a while because a friend of mine wanted me to join him: I seen behaviors from them that made them look very unforgiving and uncaring towards others when they do one mistake that makes them angry, so I was afraid to actually join. After seeing one last huge argument, I never went back there again. I went to Gamespot; same thing as IGN, except not as many. I went to a bunch of places, and seen a ton of crap going around in those communities that made me not want to go there ever again. I'm sorry if it seemed like I trashed talked a bunch of sites, but I wasted over 3 years just to find an acceptable video game community. I know there are occasional trolls here and there, and no video game website is perfect, but I still have limits on how much I can tolerate. That's when I found this place and joined. I find the people caring, wonderful, nice, and unique, and I still do,but after everything I did to try to make at least one friend in here, I'm still like a ghost around here. I just....don't understand. I'm not giving up though. Once again, I'm sick of doing that, but I just don't know what to do anymore.

I know this is the Internet and you shouldn't take crap so seriously, but that's who I am. I act serious on the Internet, and I take things seriously on the Internet. I'm a serious guy and I take things personally. It's who I am. Anyway, what am I doing wrong, or what should I be doing now in order to fully be part of the community Internet-wise? Please help me, someone.

Thanks for reading, and good night.
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About Solar20XXone of us since 4:50 AM on 06.04.2012

Here's some of my favorite video games and video game series.

Street Fighter
Advance Wars (definitely)
Marvel VS Capcom
Sonic the Hedgehog (only Advance series, Rush series, and Adventure series)
Guilty Gear
Disgaea (only played 3 and 4 so far)
Ghost and Goblins
Rock Band
Guitar Hero
Rayman (excluding Raving Rabbits. Never played those)
Castlevania (Handhelds)
Patapon (definitely)
LocoRoco (definitely)
The King of Fighters
Samurai Shodown
Last Blade
Capcom VS SNK
Soul Calibur
Virtua Fighter (only played 2 and 3 so far)
Shikigami No Shiro
Shin Megami Tensei (I actually love these more then the Persona series)
Vocaloid (definitely)
Ratchet and Clank
Fire Emblem
Project DIVA (definitely)
Pop 'n Music (definitely)
DJMax (definitely)
Jak and Daxter
Mortal Kombat
Killer Instinct
Dynasty Warriors
Warriors Orochi

The games I completed:

NES (3)
Super Mario Bros.
The Legend of Zelda

SNES (8)
Super Mario World
Super Mario Bros.
Super Mario Bros. 2
Super Mario Bros. 3
Super Mario Bros. The Lost Levels
Acro Bat
Super Metroid
Final Fantasy V (NEW)

Neo Geo (26)
The King of Fighters 94
The King of Fighters 95
The King of Fighters 96
The King of Fighters 97
The King of Fighters 98
The King of Fighters 99
The King of Fighters 2000
The King of Fighters 2001
The King of Fighters 2002
The King of Fighters 2003
Samurai Shodown
Samurai Shodown 2
Samurai Shodown 3
Samurai Shodown 4
Samurai Shodown 5
Samurai Shodown 5 Special
Metal Slug
Metal Slug 2
Metal Slug 3
Metal Slug 4
Metal Slug 5
Last Blade
Last Blade 2
World Heroes
World Heroes 2
Magician Lord

Genesis (14)
Sonic the Hedgehog
Sonic the Hedgehog 2
Sonic the Hedgehog 3
Sonic and Knuckles
Golden Axe
Golden Axe 2
Golden Axe 3
Altered Beast
Street of Rage
Street of Rage 2
Street of Rage 3
Vectorman 2
Phamtasy Star 4 (NEW)

N64 (4)
Pokemon Stadium
Pokemon Stadium 2
Kirby 64: The Crystal Shards
Super Mario 64

GC (8)
Zelda: The Wind Waker
Sonic Adventure DX: Director's Cut
Sonic Adventure 2 Battle
Super Mario Sunshine
Pokemon Colosseum
Dragon Ball Z Budokai
Dragon Ball Z Budokai 2
Megaman Battle Network Transmission

PS1 (10)
Spyro the Dragon
Spyro 2 Ripto's Rage!
Spyro: Year of the Dragon
Crash Bandicoot
Crash 2 Cortex Strikes Back
Crash Bandicoot Warped
Crash Team Racing
Crash Bash
Cacom VS SNK
Final Fantasy Origins

PS2 (12)
Dragon Ball Z Budokai 3
Dragon Ball Z Tenkaichi
Capcom VS SNK 2
Marvel VS Capcom 2
Disgaea Hour of Darkness
Disgaea 2 Cursed Memories
Tekken Tag Tournament
Tekken 3
Tekken 4
Capcom VS SNK 2
Persona 3
Shadow the Hedgehog

PS3 (36)
Final Fantasy 7
Arcana Heart 3
Persona 4 Arena
Blazblue Calamity Trigger
Blazblue Continuum Shift
Blazblue Continuum Shift Extend
Street Fighter 3 Third Strike
Super Street Fighter 4 Arcade Edition
Tekken 5 HD
Tekken 6
Disgaea 4
Persona 3 FES
Final Fantasy 13
Final Fantasy 13-2
Virtua Fighter 5
The Fancy Pants Adventure
Modnation Racers
Infamous 2
Mortal Kombat 9
DC Universe Online
The King of Fighters XIII
Playstation All-Stars Battle Royal
Tekken Tag Tournament 2
SoulCalibur 4 (NEW)
SoulCalibur 5 (NEW)
Dynasty Warriors 7 (NEW)
Dynasty Warriors 8 (NEW)
Warriors Orochi 3 (NEW)
AquaPazza (NEW)
Chaos Code (NEW)
Hot Shots Golf: Out of Bounds (NEW)
Hot Shots Golf: World Invitational (NEW)

PC (25)
Touhou 6 Embodiment of Scarlet Devil
Touhou 7 Perfect Cherry Blossom
Touhou 7.5 Immaterial and Missing Power
Touhou 8 Imperishable Night
Touhou 9 Phantasmagoria of Flower View
Touhou 9.5 Shoot the Bullet
Touhou 10 Mountain of Faith
Touhou 10.5 Scarlet Weather Rhapsody
Touhou 11 Subterrainean Animism
Touhou 12 Unidentified Fantastic Object
Touhou 12.3 Hisoutensoku
Touhou 12.5 Double Spoiler
Touhou 12.8 Great Fairy Wars
Touhou 13 Ten Desires
Touhou 13.5 Hopeless Masquerade (NEW)
Touhou 14 Double Dealing Character (NEW)
Melty Blood
Melty Blood React
Melty Blood Act Cadenza
Melty Blood Actress Again
Guilty Gear Isuka
Sonic CD
Sonic R
Sonic Heroes

GBC (14)
Pokemon Yellow
Pokemon Blue
Pokemon Red
Pokemon Gold
Pokemon Silver
Pokemon Crystal
Tom & Jerry
Hamtaro Ham Hams Unite
The Powerpuff Girls: Bad Mojo Jojo
The Powerpuff Girls: Paint the Townsville Green
The Powerpuff Girls: Battle HIM
Dragon Tales
Kirby Tilt N' Tumble

GBA (27)
Pokemon Ruby
Pokemon Sapphire
Pokemon Emerald
Pokemon Fire Red
Pokemon Pinball
Fire Emblem
Fire Emblem Sacred Stones
Advance Wars
Advance Wars 2 Black Hole Rising
Yoshi Island
Dragon Ball Z Super Sonic Warriors
Tekken Advance
Street Fighter Alpha 3 Upper
Golden Sun
Megaman Zero
Megaman Zero 4
Megaman Battle Network 2
Megaman Battle Network 3
Megaman Battle Network 4
Megaman Battle Network 5
Megaman Battle Network 6
Sonic Advance
Sonic Advance 2
Sonic Advance 3
Sonic Battle
Kirby Nightmare in Dream Land
Kirby Amazing Mirror

DS (57)
Pokemon Diamond
Pokemon Pearl
Pokemon Emerald
Pokemon White
Pokemon Black 2
Dragon Quest 4 Chapters of the Chosen
Dragon Quest 5 Hands of the Heavenly Bride
Dragon Quest 6 Realms of Revelation
Dragon Quest Monsters Joker
Dragon Quest 9 Sentinels of the Starry Skies
Bleach Blade of Fate
Bleach Dark Souls
Kingdom Hearts Re:Coded
Pokemon Trozei
Pokemon Mystery Dungeon Blue
Pokemon Mystery Dungeon Explorers of Time
Pokemon Mystery Dungeon Explorers of the Sky
Pokemon Ranger
Pokemon Ranger Shadows of Almia
Luminous Arc
Luminous Arc 2
Final Fantasy A2 Tactics
Shin Megami Tensei Strange Journey
Shin Megami Tensei Devil Survivor 2
Megaman Zero (Megaman Zero Collection)
Megaman Zero 2 (Megaman Zero Collection)
Megaman Zero 3 (Megaman Zero Collection)
Megaman Zero 4 (Megaman Zero Collection)
Megaman ZX
Megaman ZX Advent
Megaman Starforce
Megaman Starforce 2
Megaman Starforce 3 Black Joker
Lunar Knights
Metal Slug 7
Zelda Phantom Hourglass
Zelda Spirit Tracks
Knights in the Nightmare
Yoshi Touch and Go
Yoshi Island 2
Super Mario 64 DS
New Super Mario Bros.
Cave Story
Sonic Rush
Sonic Rush Adventure
Sonic Chronicles The Dark Brotherhood
Star Fox DS
Fire Emblem Shadow Dragon
Advance Wars Dual Strike
Advance Wars Days of Ruin
Kirby Canvas Curse
Castlevania: Order of Ecclesia
Castlevania: Dawn of Sorrow
Castlevania: Portrait of Ruin
Radiant Historia
The World Ends With You
Luminous Arc 3

PSP (58)
Castlevania Dracula X Chronicles
Castlevania Rondo of Blood
Castlevania Symphony of the Night
Persona 2 Innocnet Sin
Persona 3 Portable
Final Fantasy Dissidia
Disgaea Afternoon of Darkness
Disgaea 2 Dark Hero Days
Prinny Can I really Be the Hero?
Prinny Dawn of Oeration Panties Dood!
Phantom Brave
Tactics Ogre Let Us Cling Together
Final Fantasy Tactics War of the Lions
Yggdra Union
Knights in the Nightmare
What Did I Do to Deserve This, My Lord?
What Did I Do to Deserve This, My Lord? 2
No Heroes Allowed!
Cladun: This is An RPG
Cladun: This is An RPG X2
Fate/ Unlimited Codes
Fate/ Extra
Street Fighter Alpha 3 Max
Street Fighter 2
Street Fighter 2 Champion
Street Fighter 2 Hyper Fighting
Ghost And Goblins
Super Ghosts and Goblins
Goblins and Ghouls
Final Fight
Street Fighter
Samurai Shodown 6
Metal Slug 6
Metal Slug XX
LittleBigPlanet PSP
Lumines 2
Every Extend Extra
Tekken 6
Blazblue Calamity Trigger
Blazblue Continuum Shift 2
Guilty Gear XX Access Core +
LocoRoco 2
Patapon 2
Patapon 3
Wipeout Pulse
Wipeout Pure
Project Diva
Kingdom Hearts Birth By Sleep
Final Fantasy Anniversery Edition
Final Fantasy II Anniversary Edition
Final Fantasy III
Final Fantasy IV
Final Fantasy IV Intrelude
Final Fantasy IV The After Years
Dissidia Final Fantasy Duodecim

3DS (13)
Kid Icarus Uprising
Shin Megami Tensei Devil Survivor Overclocked
Super Mario 3D Land
Zelda Ocarina of Time
Mutant Mudds
Dead or Alive Dimensions
Super Street Fighter 4
Pokemon Rumble Blast
Code of Princess
Samurai Warriors: Chronicles (NEW)
Tetris Axis (NEW)
Kingdom Hearts Dream Drop Distance (NEW)

PSVita (14)
Ultimate Marvel VS Capcom 3
Blazblue Continuum Shift Extend
Rayman Origins
Disgaea 3 Absence of Detention
Persona 4 Golden
Lumines Electric Symphony
Street Fighter X Tekken
Aqua Kitty
DJMAX: Technika Tune (NEW)
Cytus Lambda (NEW)
Chaos Rings (NEW)
Ragnarok Odyssey (NEW)
Hot Shots Golf: World Invitational (NEW)
Spelunky (NEW)

Total So Far: 292 Games Completed (22 NEW GAMES COMPLETED!)
Updated: 12/2/2013