I think there is something fundamentally wrong with me.
I have had no intention to ever buy BioShock.
I'd heard the crazy cats behind the System Shock games were making something new, apparently underwater and investigated further. I couldn't find much information on the internet or in magazines save for the fact that it was being developed.
BioShock therefore descended via bathysphere into the deepest recesses of my mind and lay forgotten.
Until of course, one of my friends (Pentagram6 from the forums. You may have come across him. If you havenít, you aren't missing out on much) decided he liked the look of the game and once the first trailer hit (the admittedly kickass drill through the stomach one) the bathysphere resurfaced and BioShock was in the forefront of my gaming news, purely because my friend was bombarding me with cool new info about the game.
Yet for some reason, I wasn't as excited for it as everyone else seemed to be and I maintained that I would not be buying the game.
I'll admit my reason: From the trailers and footage Iíd seen, i thought the game was going to be shit scary and i didn't want any part of it.
There, Iím a wuss. Enjoy.
Fast-forward to a couple of weeks ago. I downloaded the demo purely out of curiosity, played it and found it to be mind blowing to look at, fairly fun to play and not as scary as i first thought.
I finished the demo and have had no desire to play it since.
So, a couple of videos and a demo later and I still have no desire to buy and play the game. The only part of me telling me to get it is the part of me that's responding to the peer pressure of "ZOMG! It is teh awesomez gamez. Buy it nowz!".
I see the internet exploding in a mess of Rapture-based orgasms, people hailing it as the best game evar and people hunting down elusive copies that broke the release date and i want no part in it.
So i sat at my 360 this morning and hit the demo menu. I paused over the hefty BioShock demo and contemplated deletion. That's when it hit me, there is something fundamentally wrong with me as a gamer.
The game has everything to make it an awesome game. I can see it too which is the most infuriating aspect of it all yet i do not want.
I lingered over the delete button for a bit longer before finally pressing B and booting up the demo with the hope that a second play through might change my mind.
I suck at life.
Commence the bashing!