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Cblogs of 06/27/13 + Shadeisms


Since my final exam last Monday Iíve finally had some time to play the good old video games again for the first time in at least a month. Mostly Iíve been spending time with Hotline Miami and The Book of Unwritten Tales: The Critter Chronicles. Meanwhile Iíve been looking for a decent job for this summer, but Iím not having much luck so far. I donít want a shitty call-center job or whatever but itís starting to seem like thatís the only thing people will readily let me do. Itís kind of getting me down right now.

Another thing thatís been on my mind recently; Iíve started to notice over the past few months that Iím not engaging in the big discussions anymore, either here on Dtoid or elsewhere. Weíve had a lot recently, not all of them equally valid but there we go, but I donít think Iíve participated in any of them anymore. Even when I was reading Elsaís blog this week I felt like I had to leave a comment, but I didnít know what to say for the longest time. I used to. I used to be able to do this shit. I used to have my opinion up and ready to go. I used to love getting into these things, figuring out what point to make and how to make it. But for some reason I donít have the energy anymore. Whenever something pops up Iím simply like ďFuck it, they can have their discussion.Ē

All of the discussions nowadays are starting to feel like I should be holding one very specific opinion, and if I donít not only am I wrong, Iím demonstrably being a bad person for thinking differently. And it works both ways. Iím not allowed to have problems with Dragonís Crown Sorceress because that would be censorship and Iím just being a ďwhite knightĒ (<- by the way, I HATE that term something fierce) who doesnít know art. On the flipside, Iím not allowed to think that ďdongleĒ-jokes are harmless because that makes me a privileged bigot (<- by the way, I HATE that term too). My views usually arenít even extreme, I make damn sure that I think before I say and that I wonít regret my words five minutes down the line, and I wouldnít be studying to be a judge if I was radical about anything. Yet the sense keeps crawling up on me that Ďmiddlingí isnít good enough. Thatís it either full agreement or bust. That the best thing I could possibly do is reply to a Ďcorrectí opinion with ď^This, a thousand times thisĒ and be done with it. And in a way in the middle is the worst place to be, because youíre getting it from both sides. †

- Protip: Do not Google ďgetting it from both sidesĒ.

We have grown this culture of conformity, where disagreement is shouted down by name-calling, bile, anger, and hostility. Itís starting to wear me out, if it hasnít already, to the point that I really donít care about these discussions anymore. I remember having a very good conversation about US guns laws with Tekbunny, and one on freedom of speech with Tristrix. Now Iím sure they donít remember that, but I do because they were important to me. They stand as examples where I got some people to talk calmly to me about issues that are pretty damn Ďhot-buttoní, that didnít end with agreement but with respect towards othersí points of view. That feels like a long time ago now, though.

Maybe itís simply because weíve been seeing so many these discussions, but I also think one reason I donít want to do that shit anymore is that I donít have very thick skin. Never have. Nanbu actually called me out on it a good while ago, and she was right. In fact, Iím a wuss. Iím massively insecure, Iím the most sheltered person youíll ever (internet-)meet, and I canít handle conflict. Thatís why I want to be a judge rather than a lawyer. Lawyers take a side and fight staunchly for it. But Iím not strong enough for that. I need my time to make up my own mind, and I need time to write it down so that I donít step on anyoneís toes. I want to see people leave my courtroom not necessarily agreeing with what I just said (because hey, somebody has still got to lose) but at least being at peace with it. That takes time and care. But the internet doesnít work like that. Itís starting to seem like the internet wonít allow me to have an opinion unless itís already common consensus. And when on Tristrixí blog yesterday I tried to make a passing comment about Samantha Allenís claim that she ďdidnít fire [Allistair]Ē coming off as disingenuous, it got deleted within minutes because apparently that topic was off-limits now, even if the post specifically promised not to pursue it further and expressed concurrence with everything else in the thread. That seems like a small thing to get bothered by (it is!), but those kinds of things pile up and get to me sometimes. My opinion wasnít allowed even phrased as carefully as I could, and I feel like thatís happening more and more often lately, although I guess usually not quite as explicitly.

I donít enter discussion anymore because for all I know someone could take my words and decide Iím the bad guy. I canít deal with that. I try every day to be as thoughtful, reasonable, understanding, and a lot of similar words which Iím not sure are synonyms or have nuances that make them different, as I can be. I study my ass off to be able to do that for a living. And if thatís not good enough for internet discussion, it can go fuck itself.

(I never know with these Ėisms.; maybe this shouldíve been a blog instead. Whatever. Hereís a little insight into what makes me tick and I hope itís appreciated. Reading back all of it seems disjointed and Iím not really sure what the point of any of it is. Iím not really sure of anything right about now. I feel ďoffĒ somehow and I donít know why. Maybe Iíve just been alone too much over the past month; exams tend to do that. Hopefully playing New Super Luigi U later today will cheer me up.) †

* - It's been no secret that Manchild has been having troubles in his personal life. That's why I'm so glad to see that Animal Crossing of all things is starting to make a difference.

* - A very interesting blog here on how Super Meat Boy might be the best example we've got of a game that teaches skill.

M - Our Musing is still going strong. Arkhon starting gaming with his dad and his dad's coworkers.

A - Adrian Leigh Gordon believes that The Last of Us represents a stagnation in video games. Do games really have to be like movies to tell a good story?

A - Kenneth, meanwhile, is on the other side of the fence. He thinks The Last of Us was particularly good in not portraying good vs. evil, but fleshed-out characters.

A - SuperCrow compares the new consoles to pro wrestlers. I know NOTHING of pro wrestling,so I'll leave you to figure out if he's right.

A - RenegadePanda sexes up his gaming life. Sliding that disc into the console just feels so good!

- When Iím down, I always watch old British comedy shows. Have some.

E - KingSigy interviewed Cassie Chui and Stuttering Craig at SGC.

T - Here are some of Glowbear's thoughts on Dear Esther. That game's a strange one.

T - Game & Wario is WEIRD.

R - This is a full-on review of The Last of Us, and Youthfuls really liked it.

T - Wally G has some ideas for what a sequel to The Last of Us could be.

R - A review for InFamous 2, and he liked it!

T - More thoughts on The Last of Us and its storytelling.

T - Frontpage contributer Joshua Derocher is trying to get into Bioshock. Sounds familiar.

F - "I'm sorry for calling you nazis but some of you are still jerks." That is NOT how apologies work.

F - This sounds way too much like an ad for my tastes. I'm not against kickstarter plugging per se, but you need to do better than this.

Well, British comedy shows AND Whose Line.


- ShadeOfLight
May you always find water and shade

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