In this life, there is no knowing
Now that Vagabond Dog's Always Sometimes Monsters is available on Steam, you can stop waiting to feel terrible about yourself and start actually doing it. Always Sometimes Monsters looks as if it'll lay the guilt on thick; it's just a matter of if you still care enough to be emotionally affected by it.
All's fair in love and war. We're on a mission for the former, so we'll endure the latter.