So I recently played through Axiom Verge 2 and really enjoyed it. However, it really made me realize a depressing reality about my gaming hobby. That being said, out of the ashes I feel I've found inspiration to start blogging. This first blog is mostly just a personal story to set up future blogs. I'm mostly doing this for myself but I thought I'd make it public anyway just in case someone out there is bored enough to read through my senseless ramblings. Who knows, maybe it'll strike a conversation that'll lead to more gaming reccomendations or stories of their own. I dunno...
First of all, a bit of background about my experience with Axiom Verge 1 and 2. Last year my fiance and I were quarantined at home for 2 weeks at one point. Like many people had to deal with at the time but I digress. Having finished up my most recent long ass RPG (Trails of Cold Steel 2 for anyone that's curious) I was looking for something a bit quicker that I could easily finish in a day or two. I did a quick google search for good Metroidvanias since those tend to fit that particular bill nicely. Of the ones I hadn't played already, Axiom Verge seemed like as good a game as any to kill an entire day with. I mean, I suddenly had all the free time in the world so...long story short, I finished the game in basically one sitting and rather enjoyed it. It came close to replicating that Super Metroid feel while still having an identity of it's own.
Fast forward a good 8 months or so. Nintendo had their indie show case Direct. Within which they announced that Axiom Verge 2 would be dropping later that same day. So I excitedly purchased the game immediately and finished up my current project so I could indulge in the sequel to a game I remembered rather fondly playing during an otherwise depressing period of time. It got it's hooks into me quickly but after a good hour or two of hacking enemies away with a pick axe it dawned on me, did the first game use a melee weapon as it's primary method of attacking? I was dumbfounded by the fact that even though I had played the first game less than a year prior, I couldn't even remember something that fundamental about it. So of course I looked into it and sure enough, you use a gun primarily in the first game.
This may not seem like that big of a deal but for me it was kind of the tipping point that made me realise that I just don't have the same connection with games I play nowadays compared with games I played when I was younger. I suspected this for years because I have very vivid memories of the games I loved as a kid and I remember them like I just played them yesterday but games I played a month or so ago? I barely remember them at all. Or at least, I remember them being "good" or "meh" but I'd be hard pressed to say why. I don't know if games these days just aren't as memorable or if I'm just losing my mind. Or both. Maybe it's because I played those games during my formative years that they've dug their way deep into my psyche and are now a major part of my identity. Maybe it's just the nostalgia talking but I do long to have a connection like what I had with the games of yesteryear that I love so much. Unfortunately, I fear it is just no longer possible with my rigid adult brain.
So it is because of this that I decided to start blogging. I feel that if I reflect back on the games I play now while they're still fresh in my mind I won't forget them so easily and brush them aside like a chewed piece of gum that lost it's flavor. I thought maybe it'll help me indulge deeper with my lifelong hobby and maybe I can establish connections similar to those I had when I was a kid. I'll probably do small write ups of each game I play. My intention isn't really to write full on professional style reviews of the games, but just my experiences with them. My personal stories, you might say. Minor spoilers for Axiom Verge 2: I suppose it's only fitting that a game where the protagonist arguably loses her identity helped me realise that I was starting to lose mine. End spoilers.
I dunno, what do you think? Do you remember games from 20 years ago better than games from last year? Or am I just suffering from early onset alzheimers? Either way you made it to the end of my ramblings so thanks for stopping by!