About a million years ago (or so I hoped) I wrote a blog for the cblog recaps covering someone who was out for that day and in the body of the blog I used the space to vent a little. My close buddy had gotten married and decided to move away to be with his wife and kid. How far away you ask? All the way on the other side of the country far away, far enough that seeing him would need to cost lots of cash and time taken out ahead of time.
Since that blog we have reached "time has come" street and "today" avenue. My friend left this morning and will not be coming back realistically for at least another couple years. He said two and a half. Originally I was under the impression that he would be gone after one more semester for his wife but no it's going to be a lot longer before he returns, as he said permanently. It's kind of created a bit of chaos, suddenly his friends and family, myself included have to deal with one less person to hang with/live with/etc. We threw an impromptu party for my friend in honor of leaving and it was pretty awkward. Awkward on the count of him not telling most of us how long he'd be gone for or even that he was married and leaving in the first place. That's my friend though, just lays news on you like that.
Again since that original blog post, from which not a whole lot of time has passed, I have come to terms with the melancholy feeling this is all giving me. Which is good. On the one hand I won't have to make excuses for dealing with this, and I've gotten pretty good at meeting new people and making new friends. I would say that I'm fairly comfortable with the sudden change. Thankfully it doesn't look like I'll have much of a challenge going forward from this point losing a friend. But on the other hand I'm lying if I say that I'm 100%. I am definitely not over it there is still some resonating feeling of sadness. Just the thought "gone for two and a half years" depresses me. And from there I realize this is was being old feels like. I've lost friends before. Some much in the same way, permanently because of moving away and others just because we've grown apart over time. But this time I feel like I'm on the edge of before and after, and a whole lot is going to change from here.
Sounds dramatic, I know sorry but writing about your problems usually does. One other thing about this is that it was fun to be out with some old friends when we took our departing friend for one last hurrah. Kind of makes me want to reconnect with some of them, just to have some connections grounded in "the old days" and high school with the loss of my one good friend that I've not stopped chilling with since high school. But again that sort of feels like this idea of trying to hold on to the old days. It was great to see them and shit I won't lie I was really butthurt one of them wasn't single at the time else I'd be starting something. I can't just look backwards all the time. I won't be hanging out with anyone else I knew in High School and that's fine. It might actually be an important change that will better me later on. I don't know yet, but it's pretty cool to have a place to right all of this out. Thanks for that ladies and gents.
Now I'll just leave this video here, it's been on my mind a lot. I'm including it mainly for the music and because I want to keep living life, enjoying myself and skating.
I did think of one thing to make myself feel a little better, since no one officially put themselves down to hosting last of us and even though I was intending on making this friday a "single player only" kinda night I guess I could come through and host.
And now on to games.
Welcome to the Playstation side of Friday Night Fights! Every Friday, members of the community get together online to play games and all you need to join is a user account. Down below, you'll find a list of games that we'll play tonight along with the times they'll start, the people that you should hit up for invites, and any other information that you may need.
If you want to play, leave a comment with the games from the schedule you want to play and your PSN name. You should also send a PSN friend request to the host and mention your username here in the message so they know you're one of the cool people and not just some random friend request.
If your favorite game isn't on the schedule, host it yourself! You just need to give us the game, start time, and your PSN name so people know what, when and who. It's also wise to list DLC requirements, game or server names, and anything else people might need to join just so you don't need to message it to everyone individually. Last minute additions in the comments here are fine, but games can also be added earlier in the week by visiting the forums and finding the thread with the coming Friday's date. Adding a game there ensures it's on the blog from the moment it goes up.
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