I think I've said it multiple times now: I never followed the person cult when it comes to games or the game industry (well, to be honest, I followed almost no person cult at all - I never had Star posters or anything like that hanging in my room and even now I only have a very few artists I have the utmost respect for, but nothing compared to the usual fanboying happening). Over last year though, it just so happened I did invest some time into looking a few people up. No, that's not right, let me correct that. I was linked stuff, from where I clicked my way on through other stuff of these people. Like a Twitter account or other articles or anything like that. The result of this time spent? Let me put it like this: if I had a loaded gun, I wouldn't know if I should shoot these people or myself. Be prepared, this is nothing than subjective bitching. If you don't want to read all that, feel free to skip to the last paragraphs. This is basically the antithesis of my .hack//G.U. entry - no games, just bullshit and drama.
The first one was Anthony Burch, most of him will most likely know him as the guy behind Borderlands and the oldies around here will also remember him from the Frontpage. How he ever survived here I don't know, but by god did that man make me cringe. He is the kind of guy you could accuse of being sexist just by the fault of being a male and he would get down on his knees and apologize like the worst cliché Japan guy, whose son just spilled soda on a Yakuza boss. I think the moment that tipped me over the edge here was how he complained over games that are just about killing for loot. Coming from the guy behind Borderlands this sure is rich. I also loved how he went public with his divorce (by god, as if this wasn't fucking stupid to begin with - WHY would you do that?) and offered people the means to send him anonymous messages, then complained over getting trolled through this very function. Basically this guy is like a kid that puts his hand on the hot stove plate over and over again and you just want to smack him so he learns his lesson. But hey, thank god he finally resorted to basically stealing his punchlines from jokes he finds and does online, maybe he will steal a good one one day by accident.
And than there was Leigh Alexander. I'll cut this short: I've never seen the word "toxic" so fitting for a person ever. I saw her threaten multiple people, IN PUBLIC, to basically ruin their careers forever if they don't play to her rules. She insulted the people behind charities. She insulted people working hard jobs. She advocated doxxing. Seriously, fuck her. That's all there is to her. Just fuck her. She is one of the worst people I ever had the good grace of reading about and here in Germany we cover World War II for easily two to three years in school.
Looking forward to the day she has to work a real job again and someone forwards this to the potentital employer.
Adam Sessler was a name I didn't hear a lot of until this whole Gamergate thing started. When he stated he watched hacking happen live, something I'd expect out of a Hollywood movie about digital terrorists, it raised my eyebrows to say the least. While I didn't invest too much time or effort in GG (because, after all, I don't have any stake in it) he has proven proven time and time again to be just a fucking cunt over it. Oh, and he himself ALSO advocated doxxing. It's on tape. For everyone to watch on YouTube, enjoy (funnily enough I only found the small clip first, then people said it was taken out of context - so I wasted about two minutes of my life to find out that no, it really wasn't taken out of a lot of context). While GamerGate might have brought out the worst in A LOT of people, he actually stated this in 2013 already. Thank god now I know that calling someone a faggọt is enough to justify spreading someone's personal data. I wish this guy nothing but burning diarrhea and arms too short to wipe.
Of course you aren't...
And then there was a whole other bunch of people I only dabbled in for a really short time before I decided: nope, not gonna dig deeper here, I got stuff to do, I got games to play. Granted, I shouldn't be surprised. Being the cynic I am I just assume you're a cunt until proven otherwise for the most part. I tend to prepare for the worst possible outcome rather than for the best possible outcome. But the last ~year or so has just proven to me: I'll stick with what I have done so far now. Just stay away from the individuals. There is nothing to be gained here, only disappointment in the human race as a whole and the wish to do horrible things to horrible people. I think Sessler was the last one I had a bit of a look into and it was the final straw where I decided I'll just resist the urge.
The thing here was: apparently, everybody else knew this shit already besides me. Peoples' reactions can pretty much be summed with "Yeah, how is this news?". I would be surprised that these people have a large enough following to pay for their lifes, but as I said: cynic, no hope in humanity, fuck all this shit. I guess part of me was still a wee lad in this regard. You see, I grew up with games, like many of my generation. Back then, for me as a kid, the videogames industry was this secret monolith that produced all these awesome things. The journalists back then, at least the german ones, were people with passion. Fuck, Boris Schneider-Johne, who works now at Microsoft (no, not for X-Box - at least not anymore), translated one of my all time favorite games: Monkey Island 2. I guess because I never really took a deeper look at the people, I never realized that, yes, there are cunts in this field too.
This golden door was brought to you by the Forumers. Now please, fuck off.
Destructoid in this regard is still very much bearable for me though. I do still think that Jonathan Holmes isn't fit for the EiC position and that he not only approved the posts of "the Badger", but also, at least according the Badger, asked for them is just further proof of me to that (how fucking stupid OR desperate for clicks can you be? Or was it just both at the same time?). Which basically lead me to a simple decision: I simply won't give his articles any clicks anymore. And because of certain things he said on his Twitter account, and some generalizations towards the forum crowd, the same goes for the videos of Bill Zoeker. The reasons might be petty, but it's the only thing to show consequence in this regard. And there were other people elsewhere where I just scratched the surface before I turned back and just decided I won't waste any more time on getting me in a bad mood. To drop to more names here: Ben Kuchera and Jonathan McIntosh might as well fight for the pole position when it comes to being a huge fucking idiot. But I guess that was public knowledge a long time now too.
I still think there are quite a few people I find totally okay. Both here on Destructoid and elsewhere. But from now on I guess I'll stick to the path I had before: just don't follow the people. In some very rare instances ignorance can be certainly a bliss and I don't think my life would be any worse if I would not know that there is Ms. Alexander out there, validating every women-hating asshole in his opinion. And if you yourself have some of those illusions left that I had a while back, do yourself a favor and stay away from researching these people. You might now think: "But Jim, this way I see who I want to support and who not". This might be true, but I found a neat red line here, which might also apply for you. I didn't read any of these people's articles to begin with. Ever since I started being a bit more of an active reader when it comes to games and game related news, I stuck with the people whose style I liked. Which was Kotaku before they started to pander more and more to demographic I'm no part of, later then Destructoid and Gametrailers. Fuck, I don't even know who does the reviews for GT. And I don't care. They're good reviews without any bullshit on the side. I'm happy with them.
The thirst has never been more real.
Bottom line: being the nostalgic I am, I miss the old times. I just miss the times before Twatter, where everybody was just a name in the list of employees. No personalities, but at least also no fucking assholes. Guess I finally AM getting old.
Don't worry people, next time it'll be something happy again, I swear.