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[NVGR] My Past Resignations


Hopefully you got the title reference before clicking into this entry. I love me some Dave Grohl.

I always work under the assumption that no one reads this blog. Everything I write is stuff that I am personally interested in, and putting it into large chunks of words makes it easier for me to reach an understanding of those interesting things. That anyone does read these words is merely a happy coincidence, and one that I genuinely appreciate.

So, when I see a comment like this one on yesterday's entry, I take a step back:

Whoa. Not only did this fellow read that entry, he read my "about me" sidebar. While I did cover my bases by updating that thing a few weeks ago, suddenly I find myself conflicted. Originally, I started writing these things to see if I could keep a daily (well, once per weekends) blog going for any amount of time, and while my results were not entirely what I had hoped for, they were promising.

I don't think it comes as a shock to anyone that writing - and more importantly, writing frequently and in large quantities - is difficult, especially if it's merely a hobby as it is for myself.* The concept of doing stuff on a deadline, however, is something that is prevalent in all facets of most of our lives. Most obviously, this is something that will be a part of your career, whatever that line of work may be.

* - I did try an English/writing/whatever it would've turned into major in college for a semester or two, but it wasn't for me. I have a hard time allowing a hobby to turn into a career, which is why I don't have a degree that lets people know I am good at writing words. For similar reasons, I don't have a degree in making music (my other passion).

My self-imposed deadlines were mostly to keep me sharp during what I was hoping would be a brief job hunt, that hasn't gone as well as I'd like. I'm not worried about it - I haven't slowed down, and I will find something eventually. In the meantime, however, I refuse to let myself turn into mush.

I've been making sure that I'm frequently challenging myself while I'm unemployed, so that when I get my next gig, I'll be prepared to jump right in. This blog is one of those things, and teaching myself how to play a guitar (with aid from Youtube, admittedly) has been my big challenge for the past nine or ten months (I wasn't going in blind, but my ability was remedial before I bought my electric from a then-co-worker). Overall, I'd say it has been going well. Maybe I'll upload a video for your amusement one of these days (then again, maybe not).

Don't take this for anything beyond its face value, but self-improvement is one of those things I never stop thinking about. There are few challenges I look at and think to myself, "I will never be able to do that." Sure, I'll never play for a Major League Baseball team, but I can still work on my hitting so I can reliably hit the ball where I want to hit it. I'll never sell out an arena with my music, but that doesn't mean I can't improve as a musician.

Even in video games (oh no, the video game tangent), I always have room to improve. I may never win tournaments at Street Fighter, but I certainly have not come remotely close to my limit in that game. My only major phobia is a colossal fear of heights, so about a year ago I decided that before I am 30 years old, I will go skydiving. I like the idea of facing a (debilitating at times) fear head-on. Maybe now that I put it in writing, I'll actually do it, too.

So what does all of that have to do with this?

While I'm sure it was not meant to be taken that way, I see this comment as a challenge. In an attempt to improve myself further, I will once again attempt to update this here space daily, with one small qualifier. Currently, I am involved in some all-day activities on Fridays with a few friends, so I can't reasonably keep a normal amount of sleep in my life while also updating six times a week, so I will cut that to five times. Every Monday through Thursday, expect daily updates. Friday, expect nothing. Saturday and Sunday, expect one update (don't know which day yet, and it might change!)

This might last a day, or maybe a week. Maybe it'll last for years, I have no idea. All I know is that it's Beyamor's fault. I hope you're happy.

(As a side note, a call for content would be awesome. If you've been reading this blog regularly, -- first of all, thanks -- you know what kinds of things I feel comfortable writing about, so if you can think of anything you'd like to see me talk about, help me! Coming up with daily prompts (which I usually think up that same day) can be difficult if I run out of them. I have enough for at least a little while, but any help is good help. This entry excluded, I like to stay as close to video games as possible, given that this is a video game website after all, but I may venture outside of that realm, as well. This is a lot of commitment for like a handful of regular readers! And really, Shenmue's non-ending still makes me angry.)
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About Alakaiserone of us since 1:32 PM on 03.15.2010

The name's Tom. I used to work as an industry guy, and am currently on the hunt for my next paying gig. In the meantime, I'm working on a bunch of different projects that don't help me pay my bills. I write a lot. I'm a musician, although certainly not of the professional variety. I like trying new things and meeting new people. I'm still somewhat new around Destructoid, so sorry in advance if I don't know something I probably should.

About my blog:

I update daily (not really, but I like to pretend). Generally, my updates get pretty long-winded, but hopefully not to the point where they're unreadable. I'll wax poetic about whatever's on my mind, like current events in my life, things that are happening in the video games I like, or whatever happens to pop in my head that day. With a few exceptions, I write my entries the same day I publish them, so they're pretty fresh content-wise. It also might help explain the occasional typos. I do my best to avoid any errors, though.

About my work:

I worked at Harmonix Music Systems as a tester on a year's worth of DLC, The Beatles: Rock Band, Lego Rock Band, and Rock Band Network. Feel free to ask me questions about it, but remember: I'm still under NDA. Also, if you know of a job opening, please tell me about it. I'm flexible.

About my contact info:

Want to collaborate with me on something, big or small, related to the site or not? I'd love to. I like working on any project that I'm even remotely capable of working on, and would love to help you in whatever way I can. Feel free to PM me here, or otherwise send me an email at alakaiser(at)gmail(period)com. Even if you don't want to work with me on something, I'd love to just chat. I'm a pretty friendly guy!

What happened to that thing you did? You know, that one thing?:

I wrote an article that ended up getting promoted to the front page of the site, which is pretty damn cool. It removes it from my cblog archive, though, so I'm throwing a link in this here sidebar for the sake of an archive (and in case I lose the link myself).

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