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, then into IE, then through a hoop on fire)
It's weird. I've been a gamer all my life. I picked up a controller at the age of 2 to play Dragon Warrior on the NES, and since then, I haven't stopped gaming. It's always been a major part of my life, and has helped to define me as a person. I'm always interested in talking with other people about the state of the industry, art direction in games, or even just how a game is. I have a reputation among my peers as the person to go to if you want to know about a certain game or genre.
Then why is it that I feel so burnt out on gaming?
I woke up today, started playing a bit, and realized something. I'm just not having fun anymore. But why? I played a bit of the games in my collection, trying to find that spark, but to no avail. Why is it that suddenly I couldn't care less about something that I've held so close to me all of my life? It's frightening.
I suppose this could have to do with how I've played the last few months. Late during the month of May, I started to take my infatuation with the fighting genre, or rather Street Fighter, somewhat seriously. I began to practice more than most of my peers, and started to enter local tournaments. I was more competitive than almost anyone else around me. And now, I couldn't care less. I have a 66% win rate, and the 414th highest arcade score in the world in SF4, but it doesn't mean anything anymore. I used to idolize top U.S. players such as Justin Wong, Mike Ross, Arturo Sanchez, Alex Valle, Combofiend, and more, but all of a sudden, it just doesn't appeal to me anymore. A wave of apathy has washed over me, and I find myself unwilling to get back up.
Is it due to my own previous tenacity with which I used to play, or is it a lack of titles coming out that genuinely interest me? The last game that came out that had me genuinely excited was Street Fighter 4, and I hate the damn game. Perhaps playing something I hate so much in such excess has caused me to become jaded (You don't get it, I seriously fucking hate this game). I would't be surprised. But then again, who knows? This might just be the flavor of the day.
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