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Wow Dex, that was intense to read, I don't know what else to say man.
But, to answer the somewhat rhetorical question in the title of your blog: I hope it has zombies in it, and I hope it was played with friends :)
But, to answer the somewhat rhetorical question in the title of your blog: I hope it has zombies in it, and I hope it was played with friends :)
This post is incredible. As for the last game I'll ever play? I suppose Portal would be a good choice, because it would be ironic. Seeing as how I would no longer be...yeah. Or Duke Nukem Forever. Because I would like to be immortal.
I want it to be something survival horror-ish and a tad obscure, but most likely, it'll be something I hate...like Okami. Then people will think they didn't understand me at all because they found out that was the last game I played (and yet notoriously disliked) and decide to champion it because 'hey, that's what he probably would have wanted'. So Okami will have some kind of unneccessary resurgence, while people say 'it's the one the best games ever made and it's all because of Stevil'.
Oh...joy. :)
Oh...joy. :)
Wow. This is deep. It takes guts to share such an intimate and tragic tale Dexter. Thank you for doing so.
From a purely selfish perspective I hope that the last game I ever play is yet to be made, and I get to spend many more years with my loved ones, especially my girlfriend and daughter.
If I were to realise the onset of my death, though, then the last game I would play would probably be Boom Blox or Lego Star Wars with my girlfriend. Not my favourite game, but the one we enjoyed most together.
From a purely selfish perspective I hope that the last game I ever play is yet to be made, and I get to spend many more years with my loved ones, especially my girlfriend and daughter.
If I were to realise the onset of my death, though, then the last game I would play would probably be Boom Blox or Lego Star Wars with my girlfriend. Not my favourite game, but the one we enjoyed most together.
I never have been able to rap my head around someones motivation to take their own life. I mean I have had it pretty bad at times but I've never thought of taking it that far.
Sorry for the loss of your friend Dexter and I hope your able to find some peace or feel a little bit closer to him by playing Mass Effect.
Going back to the question though, I hope the last game I play is any 2D fighter with a group of friends at my house.
Sorry for the loss of your friend Dexter and I hope your able to find some peace or feel a little bit closer to him by playing Mass Effect.
Going back to the question though, I hope the last game I play is any 2D fighter with a group of friends at my house.
I'm gonna finish ME now as well, it's been long enough and I have a couple friends who really want to discuss it with me. I'm sorry to hear about your friend, I've lost 4 friends to suicide so I can definitely relate with you on that.
Fascinating. Just a shame it was inspired by such tragedy. For me i guess it'll be Street Fighter, hopefully Street Fighter 45 or something.
What a sad story. It must have been hard to write. It's also hard for me to write a comment. Thank you for sharing this with us, it really makes me think about a lot of things. I hope he will always be remembered by you.
Wow. I appreciate that you shared this with us, man.
I think about that sometimes, what our e-footprint says about us. Its very strange how we have all this information about us, but no coherent record of who we are. Not necessarily.
I think about that sometimes, what our e-footprint says about us. Its very strange how we have all this information about us, but no coherent record of who we are. Not necessarily.
It's cool that you felt able to share with the community and your article does make an interesting point about how videogames have infiltrated culture. The idea of: "This is the last (book/movie/song/etc) that I'll experience before I die" is a fairly well known idea but I'd never thought about videogames in that context and I'd never thought about it for myself. If I could choose anything, I'd like it to be this terrible soccer game for the NES. I don't remember the name but it was the first videogame I ever played. My parents got it for me when I was four or five. I'm a sucker for symmetry.
Just for the record, I did read the blog. I'm just not good with downbeat comments.
Awkward humour a-go-go!
Awkward humour a-go-go!
Great yet tragic read. Its interesting to think that our record of accomplishments in gaming actually may stay with us a while after we die. If you wanted you could even compare how he played Mass Effect and his preferences (favorite weapons, teammates) to learn the difference between your playthrough and his.
Great read. Nice to read something that reminds me that people are still actual human beings out there on the internet.
Oh, my game would be Final Fantasy III(VI, whatever).
Oh, my game would be Final Fantasy III(VI, whatever).
Thanks for baring your soul for this one, Dexter. My thoughts are with you.
As for the last game I ever play, I like RichardBlaine's idea of going back to the beginning for symmetry. Microsoft Adventure (text-based fantasy game).
As for the last game I ever play, I like RichardBlaine's idea of going back to the beginning for symmetry. Microsoft Adventure (text-based fantasy game).
I would like my last game to be Zombies Ate My Neighbors on the super nintendo.
A guy I work with died just before Christmas. We didn't talk much, but we worked together a lot. He was into World of Warcraft. He was twenty seven!
A guy I work with died just before Christmas. We didn't talk much, but we worked together a lot. He was into World of Warcraft. He was twenty seven!
Sorry to hear about your friend Dex. I lost my mom to suicide last year. It's can drive you a little mad, I know. There are definitely times when I can swear I hear her voice over my shoulder or when I was working in the grocery store we used to shop at there were nights when I expected to see her walking through the aisles bargain hunting and laughing. Dammit now I'm gonna cry aren't I?
Let's see the last game I ever play. Probably Halo 3. Not because I particularly like Halo 3 but because it's the one game that's ever been able to bring me and my brothers together and just provide countless hours of mindless fun. That game has provided some incredibly disctint lulz moments in my family. Keep split screen alive devs.
Let's see the last game I ever play. Probably Halo 3. Not because I particularly like Halo 3 but because it's the one game that's ever been able to bring me and my brothers together and just provide countless hours of mindless fun. That game has provided some incredibly disctint lulz moments in my family. Keep split screen alive devs.
Had a friend back in high school that took his life and it was a hard thing to take. You never see it coming because the signs just don't raise eyebrows sometimes. At least, til you go back and add it all up, but that's tormenting yourself.
Its hard because while you might have felt sorrow or rage in your life prior, this time there's just no one to direct it at. They're gone, as it to spite everyone that cared with a permanent "You didn't love/care about me." That's why its unforgivable. Its such a pathetic way to go out.
When my friend took his life, I still had things I had borrowed from him. His parents told me I could keep the stuff, but I just couldn't bear to look at it. He was never ahle to beat Ninja Gaiden and I helped him with that and we'd play lots and lots of Mario Bros via. SMB3 on the SNES version. Non-stop for hours.
I've not really played classic-style Mario Bros since then, just never feels right. Nor have I touched Ninja Gaiden. I probably could now, but I'd remember too quickly. And that was 14 years ago, just after we had returned from spring break, 44 days from graduation, too.
Its hard because while you might have felt sorrow or rage in your life prior, this time there's just no one to direct it at. They're gone, as it to spite everyone that cared with a permanent "You didn't love/care about me." That's why its unforgivable. Its such a pathetic way to go out.
When my friend took his life, I still had things I had borrowed from him. His parents told me I could keep the stuff, but I just couldn't bear to look at it. He was never ahle to beat Ninja Gaiden and I helped him with that and we'd play lots and lots of Mario Bros via. SMB3 on the SNES version. Non-stop for hours.
I've not really played classic-style Mario Bros since then, just never feels right. Nor have I touched Ninja Gaiden. I probably could now, but I'd remember too quickly. And that was 14 years ago, just after we had returned from spring break, 44 days from graduation, too.
wonderful blog... though so sad.
I guess if I had to choose a last game to show on my gamercard it would be something restful and pretty like "Flower"... though the reality is that it will likely be an online multiplayer FPS game.
I guess if I had to choose a last game to show on my gamercard it would be something restful and pretty like "Flower"... though the reality is that it will likely be an online multiplayer FPS game.
Wow, really sorry to hear about your friend. That must have been hard to come to terms with.
I want WiiFit to claim my life.
I want WiiFit to claim my life.
wow that was deep. freaky in a way but deep. I would watch out for any Zombie games cuz you don't want to see your friend come back as a zombie >.>; joke aside, sad that his life ended but we all have to go sooner or later. Main point is that we do the most out of life while were still here.
If I had to pick a game I guess it would be FF14 since I know this game will be consuming most of my time.
If I had to pick a game I guess it would be FF14 since I know this game will be consuming most of my time.
sorry to hear about your friend.
the last game i will play?, well that would be the game of real life of course.
the last game i will play?, well that would be the game of real life of course.
That really was something to think about, Dexter. For as much as I've thought about death, I've never thought about it in conjunction with the gaming aspect of my life.
I was just debating whether I wanted to play GTA IV or No More Heroes 2. I think I'll seize the day and play the latter.
I was just debating whether I wanted to play GTA IV or No More Heroes 2. I think I'll seize the day and play the latter.
Sorry to hear about your friend Dexter.
My choice is a pretty odd one. I would like it to be the first game I properly owned, Bugs Bunny: Lost in Time. For nostalgia's sake.
My choice is a pretty odd one. I would like it to be the first game I properly owned, Bugs Bunny: Lost in Time. For nostalgia's sake.
Most of the people who knew someone who commited suicide think "what if"... Is useless, most of the time even the closest friends they didnt even see something close to that happening. The main issue is that you are left looking for an answer, and there is no clear answer, there is not even a hint sometimes.
Great read Dexter, and an overall depressing one too because I realize I will never be able to leave an impact on anyone's life in a major way, and once I die I will be forgotten within the next day.
Fuck.
Fuck.
I feel bad for you Dexter!
I guess i have been "blessed" wo/any major deaths around me.
I can't even imagine, sorry.
I guess my last game would be Resident Evil 5. Just because i never stop playing.
Specifically <333 the Co-Op. (( That's where the real lulz are had. ))
@ Xzyliac
My thoughts & prayers go out to you as well!
No one should be without any of their beloved parents! <33333.
I guess i have been "blessed" wo/any major deaths around me.
I can't even imagine, sorry.
I guess my last game would be Resident Evil 5. Just because i never stop playing.
Specifically <333 the Co-Op. (( That's where the real lulz are had. ))
@ Xzyliac
My thoughts & prayers go out to you as well!
No one should be without any of their beloved parents! <33333.
This is a great addition to the cblogs.
Also, as long as WoW isn't the last game I play, my soul can rest in peace.
Also, as long as WoW isn't the last game I play, my soul can rest in peace.
This was not what I expected when I first read the title. I was thinking it would be along the lines of the last game you would ever get caught playing. Still it was a touching cblog.
I kind of hope the last game I play is something that will leave people confused. Maybe a Disney game or something like DOAX2. I just imagine there would be some interesting conversations about it. However it will probably be some RPG.
I kind of hope the last game I play is something that will leave people confused. Maybe a Disney game or something like DOAX2. I just imagine there would be some interesting conversations about it. However it will probably be some RPG.
Sorry to hear about your friend. I can't say I know what it's like to loose a friend, but I'm sure it is very difficult. Hang in there.
And there is a good chance the last game I'll play before I die will be Ocarina Of Time, since it's my favorite game of all time and I play it a lot. Let's just hope I don't die on the one day I decide to play Muscle March or something like that.
And there is a good chance the last game I'll play before I die will be Ocarina Of Time, since it's my favorite game of all time and I play it a lot. Let's just hope I don't die on the one day I decide to play Muscle March or something like that.
Sorry for your loss death is hard to cope with.
Majora's Mask will be my last game. I didn't care that it was shorter than the others, it took a new step in the Zelda universe that Nintendo should try and do again with a Majora's Mask 2 or something. If anything I just want to die happy knowing that I will be remembered like you remember your friend.
Majora's Mask will be my last game. I didn't care that it was shorter than the others, it took a new step in the Zelda universe that Nintendo should try and do again with a Majora's Mask 2 or something. If anything I just want to die happy knowing that I will be remembered like you remember your friend.
yeah, very sorry to hear about your friend. and forgive my presumptuousness here, but from what you describe of your friend it sounds like his decision was not made without some serious thought, and in such cases intervention from friends and family doesn't always do much to sway them; the problem usually goes much deeper. so just saying, i'd try not to place any blame on yourself, probably not much you could have done. And try to remember, having someone wake up every morning and leading a life that, to them, isn't worth living, can be just as horrible as their decision to end it.
And, in contrast to what stevil thinks of the game, I'd recommend you put Okami at the top of your "to play" list, it's very solid and has some conventions that are novel enough to justify a playthrough in and of themselves.
off the top of my head, I'd probably want Shadow of the Colossus to be my last game; any game that puts me into that sort of placid, floaty mood would be a good choice imo (e.g., Braid, flower, or RapeLay)
And, in contrast to what stevil thinks of the game, I'd recommend you put Okami at the top of your "to play" list, it's very solid and has some conventions that are novel enough to justify a playthrough in and of themselves.
off the top of my head, I'd probably want Shadow of the Colossus to be my last game; any game that puts me into that sort of placid, floaty mood would be a good choice imo (e.g., Braid, flower, or RapeLay)
This is one of the most touching c-blogs I have read and I am sorry for the loss Dexter. Though I have never lost a friend I have had the experience of one of my friends trying to commit suicide and I know the disbelief that you feel. I know this is not the most manly thing to put on here but I cried at this blog, it reminds me too much of my friend.
Sorry for your loss. I have nothing witty or funny to say. Just sorry for your loss. You too Xzyliac.
Hey there, it's a touching story I can relate to... A friend of mine died in a car accident two nights after we played World of Warcraft together for the first time, along with two other friends. I've wondered for a while if we'd have played longer if he was still there. Anyway, to answer your question, when is all said and done and I'm un/lucky enough to know I will die soon, I'd probably not even feel like playing a video game. Touching stuff to think about.
Fallout 2. I don't care if it's not on Xbox, but it will be it.
@Holyetheline
Good God, or you have a shitload of friends or you're a terrible friend.
@Holyetheline
Good God, or you have a shitload of friends or you're a terrible friend.
Seeing the online records of someone who has died is something I don't think I'll ever get use to, nor would I want to.
This was a very though provoking article, thank you for writing it.
This was a very though provoking article, thank you for writing it.
Sorry for your loss. To answer your question seriously, I'd like to be playing the ending of Bioshock 1.
Super Mario Advance 2. Because it's the first game I ever loved. On my Gmaercard, I would have to say ME3. If I never beat it, my life will have been in vain.
The last game I ever want to play... man, that's a tough one. If I had the choice, probably Metal Gear Solid 3.
Woah. This might be one of the greatest CBlogs I've ever read on the site. Heartfelt, sincere and posing a really good question.
While I'll probably die with a Persona game as my last-played (those games are frikkin' LOOOOONG), I'd really like to finish it the way it started: with Pokemon Crystal. It was the first game I ever owned and it has a very sentimental value for me as it really shaped me into what I am now and who I am now.
While I'll probably die with a Persona game as my last-played (those games are frikkin' LOOOOONG), I'd really like to finish it the way it started: with Pokemon Crystal. It was the first game I ever owned and it has a very sentimental value for me as it really shaped me into what I am now and who I am now.
This c-blog was something special. Strange, since recently, for some random reason, I was considering the same question. ._. I'd hope it would be a game that had a great sentimental value to me. Devil May Cry 3 and Fatal Frame 3 come to mind. Even if their sequels or prequels are better games technically speaking, nothing compares to those two simply because of the memories of friends that come along with them, you know?
I apologize for your loss.
I apologize for your loss.
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