Considering that I've always been a huge fan of the Silent Hill series of videogames (and of videogames in general, but I don't really need to tell you that in order for anyone to infer it... I frequent vg blogs sites often enough to comment on them, hah) I'm very happy to see that those that play these games can gain a greater appreciation for the messages that they are trying to convey in the actions and imagery that they present. A deeper understanding of our own little hidden demons, insecurities and innate flaws as human beings, so to speak. While it is true that my absolute favorite game of the series is SH2 and that I haven't really experienced Shattered Memories as much as I should (sadly, I do not own a Wii), I can still get an idea of what these characters represent... of how Harry, as emotionally unstable and "fragile" as he is, offers the best and most "down to earth" perspective that one can possibly get in Silent Hill.
I also completely relate to you on getting to know people and the gender-based pressures that we all have in regards to what it is to be a man or a woman within society as a greater whole. I'm sure it varies from culture to culture, but there are innate pressures that we are all subjected to just for being either a man or a woman... and according to society, I apparently really really suck at being a man. It's always been a point of contention within me... diving my thoughts, emotions, desires and insecurities and in a way leaving me without a greater sense of personality.
I know who I am and what my greater desires are and what they represent and in a way, where I want to go... but I've never felt secure or confident enough to really strive for what I want to achieve. I try to be as considerate, gentle and good-natured as possible, but apparently according to the gender that I was born with and the society that I live in, these are all bad things... or weird things... or they simply do not belong and force me to be separate from the rest of the people that I wish to meet or that I want to become friends/lovers/acquaintances with. Just yesterday, for example, I was at a concert... which I went to alone, naturally, as I have no one to share any of the things that I enjoy with. So I was near the front of the crowd, where the barrier separates the crowd from the bands when a very nice looking girl comes up and tries to get up front as well because she can't see anything, being so short. I told her I'd gladly help her get to the front of the crowd somehow... once the music started and people just started going crazy (you know how those mosh pits can get) we eventually made our way to the front of the crowd though diligent pushing, shoving and just generally finding our way through. In the middle of all of this, I asked her what her name was and I thought that I was being as pleasant as a person can possibly be in that situation... but once the concert ended, she didn't even so much as glance at my direction and just left. No good-byes, no thanks, nothing. She just took her stuff and said her goodbyes to others that we had met on our way to the front and simply left, not even giving me decency to say thanks. It left me feeling quite hollow and insignificant in a way. But then again, this is something that I have come to expect from everyone that I meet.
Perhaps they perceive my lack of confidence, perhaps I'm just too nice to be a man, maybe I'm just the portrait of creepiness and insecurity, I don't know. All I know is that by being who I am and who I want to be, I apparently reject all the notions of being the person I'm supposed to be and am left to my own vices. I can't meet anyone as a friend, or don't have the best of luck in relationships and my love life is laughable, at best. Still, I don't feel that I will fall in line with the rest of the people and fall into the cookie cutter mold of what societal pressures force a lot of people to do. It's just my hope to experience things as best as I can. I really wish I could meet new and better people, I really wish I could. I guess this is just the type of thing that takes a lot of time and effort with no discernible remuneration at first.
Anyway, I've gone on long enough. I just really wanted to say that you hit the nail right on the head with this blog, ViF. Amazing write up :)
However, to defend the SH movie, Christophe Gans and Roger Acary are both big Silent Hill fans and it was not that they couldn't see a man scared but more that the way they thought of Harrys actions throughout the story fit better to a girl in their opinion, in fact, the character that is scared the most would be Sean Bean's character, who IS a man and is the person who suffers the most throughout the story since he doesn't know what's going on but is left scared and alone in the real world.
(note to self : start reading more of these amazing community blogs and don't ever comment on Youtube)
As small children, we all get comfort, but there is usually some point in a young boy's life when that comfort is withheld, or even replaced with derision or anger. I'm sure every boy has felt the sting and confusion of being called a "sissy" or a "crybaby" while a girl who experiences the same event gets a hug instead. It's really incredibly cruel, if you think about it, but pretty much everyone believes that this is the way it should be. I've never actually heard a reason beyond "because boys are supposed to be tough". More than simply inspiring toughness, however, I think society ends up producing a lot of men who are intrinsically alone, perhaps in a way that most women will never understand.
That's what makes "Wicked and Weak" so goddamn chilling. He can't answer because there is no answer. He has returned from no war. He has no scars to bear. His wallet isn't flooded, and he possesses no terrific amount of charm. No words he can concoct will succeed, and if he fights back physically, he goes to jail for the rest of his life. He is merely a kind, unassuming guy- and that makes him utterly destitute when it comes to social currency.
(I paid for this college education, I gotta use it somewhere.)
Fucking awesome blog, man.
Fantastic article by the way. As a SH fan from the very beginning, and as a guy, i totally understand where you're coming from.
To those who haven't played this game yet: please try to be sincere and roleplay yourselves when you play it, both in the tests and during the game proper... the ending will be worth it.
I got the "good parent" ending (love lost) on my first try, and I got teary-eyed and was deeply moved and totally terrified because of it... and all that without any of the "scares" and gore of previous Silent Hills.
***** SPOILERS AHEAD ******
In the "good" ending you get if you act like a caring father, Cheryl sees Harry's ghost entering the therapist's office and she is finally able to stop blaming herself for his death and just lets him go, as he says "i will always be with you" and then freezes and turns into dust. In the video, Harry is seen leaving the house because he's divorcing Dahlia (no cheating, no alcohol, no weakness) but he conforts Cheryl by telling her that even if mom and dad don't love each other anymore, they will always love her. Sadly, as indicated by the shirt he is wearing, he died on a car accident later that same day.
******* END SPOILERS *****
I consider myself to be a good dad. I've been with my wife for 10 years (and looking forward to many more) and we have a 4 year-old girl... like all girls her age, I'm her hero and I'm constantly reminded that she loves me a lot. My parents are still happily married after 40 years, and they're been a great support during a couple of tough times, they're also the best grandparents ever (as told by mittle miss Earendil).
The thing that TERRIFIES me the most in this world is the prospect of not being there for my daughter, specially if she ever loses me at an early age. I have friends that lost one or both parents when we were at high school, or they lived through a divorce. Some of them came all right, but some turned pretty f***ed up, and it was never easy for any of them... hell, my best friend's parents just divorced last year, and he's 31... If it was so hard for a mature, independent guy like him, I don't want to think how it can mess up a 7 year old. I've had such a positive example with my parents and have always had a "complete" family, so it saddens me to know that so many people miss on that experience due to sickness, violence, bad choices or just bad luck because life can be a real b**ch sometimes.
The nicest possible ending to this game left me unable to say anything for a good ten minutes, while tears rolled down my face as I started remembering all the litle details inside the game and connecting all the dots. It struck something very strong inside of me, and I went running and hugged my daughter for a while because I was starting to feel a little panicky (I don't suffer panic attacks, but I know the symptoms very well). Not even Valkyria Chronicles managed to do that to me and that game is pretty evil (I only got a little teary eyed when I read Rosie's epilogue), and im both amazed and happy that a game can trigger such a powerful emotional response.
God, that was a long comment...
My sexuality and manliness has been put into doubt many times both in school and real life. I live in a counrty that the perception of sexes and their role are still deeply traditional, no matter how progressive it looks on the surface. I lived my father being at the very place of Harry. My mother is a strong woman and my father due to his inability to fully work (he used to fix televisions and electric stuff but now those things are almost unfixable, he has diabetes and arthritis)became emasculated by any mean possible.
And that makes not only him but my brother and I still get that feeling from our dominant parent.
So, I feel you and I feel Harry and I kind of got depressed when that game was talking about almost all the males in my family. After reading your post I felt less alone. I salute you for your courage and don't get closed to your own self. Go meet new people, you WILL find those who can understand you.
After all, friends can be chosen, right?
I'd love to go back and play the game again, if I just didn't have to put up with those awful disorienting chase sequences...
Then again I think that's probably a common theme through most human folklore/culture - with men being idealised into 'supermen' in order to emphasise the things people believe most express 'masculinity'. I mean look at games like Half-life or Doom or Fear, all those games focus on main male characters who say little or nothing yet somehow are able to defeat endless hordes of bad guys that supposedly average men were killed by - stoic superheroes who seemingly fear nothing nor doubt themselves ever. Or in film, what about Die Hard? or Rambo? or any schwarzenegger film? All feature superhuman men who defeat dozens of 'average' male goons to get the girl and save the day ...ok, so maybe kindergarten cop doesn't exactly fit that bill but you get my point. I think you definitely have a point about the over-depiction of men as emotionless sex machines, and games companies should make more realistic character portrayals in future.
I'd also like to say that I think what that guy said to you was out of line, but you get a lot of people like that online - especially on youtube, lol. Some guys are just dicks for no reason other than cause they are! But I don't see how looking forward to that Catherine game makes you either of the things that guy said.
Anyway, once again really good blog!
I think you've touched on something in this article. This idea of masculinity in our culture--it has some positive aspects to it, but it seems that it just as frequently leads to completely irresponsible behavior. Someone could get into a lot of fights and sleep with a lot of women, and instead of considering the cost of the senseless violence or the women he got pregnant and abandoned, we're supposed to hold him up as a great example of how to live your life. Even worse are extreme attitudes that even women that are raped count towards their attacker's "score."
Of all the virtues a person should be expected to live up to, I'd say masculinity should be way down the list, but all too often it takes priority over literally everything else.
I cannot recommend this material enough. I have never read anything that felt like it was written specifically for me. I read the entire book in three days on my Blackberry. I could not put it down. And I'm going to read it again and again. I promise every single one of you that there will be something in this book that changes how you view yourself and how you view the world. There's a lot of things in this book that I found to be uncomfortable truths. Which honestly is the one thing that I think we need to deal with the most. Getting comfortable with being uncomfortable, it's the only thing that can result in change.
Cheers.
This is, ultimately, about a father and his daughter and their relationship. The original game really revolves around that connection and says a lot about a father's love for his child and the lengths he'd be willing to go to find them.
I am really close to my father and the ending of SH:SM was heartbreaking and sob worthy to me based on my pre-existing connection to my father and I understood perfectly towards the end of the game, the devastation of loosing someone. (GDI tearing up just thinking about it...)
So the game's message isn't just an overview of a man fighting to survive, finding strength to face darkness, it's a comment upon our relationship to our father figures in our lives and how it effects us all.
I agree with a lot of your points, except the one I stated, obviously. You don't /have/ to be a man to fully understand this game -- you have to have a connection to a father to fully 'get it' and the emotional impact.
When I played I ended up with what I think the "Good" ending is. Maybe I got it because I'm nice in life. When I think of Harry, I don't really think of a weak man. I know the game is designed that way, but he does have to brave some crazy things to progress. Unless you want to just chuck it up to Cheryl's desire for him to be strong in the end. Maybe it just depends on how you play the game. Then again I can see that with James a little with how Maria yells at him.
You literally just convinced me to go pick up Shattered Dimensions. I haven't even gotten around to any other Silent Hill games yet! I'm gonna have to pick up the first two also, since I have a PS2...
Agh. My gaming library is already full as it is...oh well, i'll be busy for a while!

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