I did it. After weeks of anticipation, yearning, despair, temptation and wanking off, I slept with the attractive gamergirl I work with.

And my wife knows about it.

How the fuck did I get here? Last night I sat on Dtoid instead of working and told the world of my plight, my tempation. I wanted to cheat on my wife with this beautiful coworker of mine who also happens to kick my ass in Halo 3, unlike my wife, who BTW still sucks at Halo 3.

Yes, the whole being good at Halo 3 and being hot thing definitely did it for me. Call me a freak, call me crazy, but that shit is hot. It certainly helped.

I also wanted it because I needed to connect on a physical level with someone. My wife and I are totally in love, but our sex life just isn't the same after having kids. We have made up for the lack of sex by just loving each other and being satisfied with that. But my libido has picked up again recently. The only problem with this is that I dont want to sleep with my wife, I want to sleep with everyone else.

Now normally I can control myself, but this coworker of mine is something else. She practically oozes sex appeal. It's like she's giving off pheremones or some shit. I can't stay away from her. I don't want to spend the rest of my life with her, but I want to sleep with her everynight. She just has it like that.

So to compound my problems, I discovered shortly after Halo 3 came out that she was actually an avid gamer. So we did the whole friend request thing and played some Halo 3. To my surprise, she was pretty good. When I checked the Carnage Report, I knew this girl had to be mine.

I was her most killed opponent.

That was it, right there, right then. She had me under her spell.

So like I told you guys last night, she invited me to spend the night at her place last week, knowing I was married. I "accidently" let slip that my wife and the kids were at their grandmothers house for the night. Bad idea. She invited me but I made an excuse and declined.

Ever since then, I have been losing my mind over her. So I blogged about it last night.

So anyway, Tristero commented and gave me some advice last night. He told me to tell the truth. Be truthful with my wife, and at least let her know about this before I do anything dumb. I decided to take his advice.

Now any guy should know, this is a dangerous and delicate path to walk. I went into this with extreme caution. I told my wife how I felt about everything. How I felt about her, us, our sex life, and my coworker.

What I heard next was the most unfucking-believable shit ever.

My wife was bored with me too. Turns out all the times she coaxed me into having sex were either half-hearted attempts to rekindle the magic or just her needing my cock so she could imagine someone else.

Talk about a reality check. Hearing that shit really hurt at first. But we talked about it, and I worked up the balls to suggest sleeping with other people. This sounds simpler than it was, but in the end, it worked out well. We have agreed to try sleeping with other people for a little while.

So my girlfriend has invited a guy she has been talking to and apparently fantasizing about on myspace. That shit is kind of creepy, but what can I do? I got to hang out with my coworker for about 3 hours today before work.

We did indeed smoke some herb and play Halo 3. We also had amazing sex twice. And we kissed and touched like a newly married couple the whole time. It felt good, and I was happy.

Then I left. The car ride home was murder. All types of conflicting emotions and shit. But when I saw my wife, all I wanted to do was ravage her, which I did. We enjoyed sex together for the 1st time in a while.

As I sit here listening to the Beatles on my PSP, I can't help but wonder if I am doing irreparable damage to our relationship in the long run, or if this makes me a bad person. I don't know what the fuck is going on. I know I love my wife more than ever, but thats about it. The rest is all a daze.

I don't know how this is going to work, or what will happen, but I'm enjoying it for now. Hopefully, my wife will feel the same way after she meets this man monday.

Of course, I'm still a caveman. My wife has no idea that attractive gamergirl is working alone with me next week. It's gonna be an awesome night.

My wife still sucks at Halo 3.