As a lot of you know I was dealing with a very traumatic experience. It's been over a year now, since that little incident that turned my life upside down transpired. I want to forget it ever happened, but at the same time I realize I cannot. The only way I can keep it from every happening again is to keep it with me, to use it, to make it apart of me. Like the saying goes "whatever doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger". It took me awhile to agree with that. I won't lie. Many nights I lay in bed wondering why me, why me. I know I'm not a saint, but I'm not a bad person either. So I couldn't justify why this had happened to me. I don't wish it had happened to anyone else, I just wish it hadn't happened at all.

In my weakened state I was frustrated, angry, sad, depressed, and left wondering. Trying to rationalize why this might have happened. What could have been the reason why this had to happen. I have always been able to keep a smile on my face and a song in my heart because I try to live by one important principle. EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. Whenever something happens, good or bad, I like to find the reason behind it. Like when I almost broke my ankle playing football. That had to happen so I would not be able to take the stairs and be forced to ride the elevator, and thus meet Daniella. A very friendly exchange student from Germany. Sadly it only lasted for a few months because the family she was staying with found out and told her she had to break it off and focus back on school because her grades were slipping. See I was able to justify why I got hurt with meeting a really cool girl who I would have otherwise never met, and why she had to leave me, because she wasn't able to focus on school and a boyfriend. I've been able to do this for almost everything that has happened in my life, at least up until this point.

Even though I tried to rationalize it, and see the bigger picture I got no where. I was left to deal with, but at least not alone. My friends and the D-Toid community were behind me. Helping me get through this hard time. Even my family was surprising supportive. Everyone who knew me knew how much of an impact this had on me, and the possible toll it could take. But with so many cool people in my corner backing me up I was able to muster up the strength I needed to overcome this minor setback. Now here we are a year later. This are not the same as they once were. I know I can't get back all that I've lost, but I have finally come to terms with it. I have a lot to look forward to, so no more dwelling on the past for me.

But for all of you reading this, if you can take one thing from my story I hope it is this. Always pay full attention when doing anything and read all your options. The last thing any of you want to do is delete all your game saves when you are trying to delete your Xbox profile off the harddrive because you recovered it at a friends house. I cannot stress this enough, because all it takes is one press of a button and years of work can be wiped in a matter of seconds, from everything plugged in at the time. Memory cards, USB drives, all wiped without so much as a confirmation screen, no message popping up asking if you are sure, it just gets right to it. Personally I think this is something that should be addressed. Mainly because you could find all your saves wiped all because someone else wasn't paying attention to what they were doing, or maybe a child got their hands on your xbox and was playing around, not completely sure what they were doing. But with no way to recover your saves it sucks ass, especially when you were half way through an rpg, or planning on transferring a character from one game to the sequel. But even though I lost A LOT I can take comfort in knowing my game saves are not tied to my achievements and Gamer Score. Because that's one blow I doubt I would ever be able to recover from, no matter who was trying to cheer me up.