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Why Mother's Day makes me a sad panda (NVGR... but very kwaselow related)
 by kwaselow on 05.11.2008      26 comments




I've never truly been a fan of Mother's Day. after all, it's a fake holiday created by greeting card companies to make money. However, this year's Mother's Day has an extra reason for my displeasure: it is the first Mother's Day since my mother's death.

Sometime in the late morning or early afternoon of March 27th, my mother passed away unexpectedly. I missed the call from my uncle which would have informed me, so I didn't know about her death until 8:30 that night. I was the last person in my family to know.

It happened during my school's spring break, and I did not take any time off from school. All of my teachers were informed before school started on the first day after break. My physics teacher told me I shouldn't have come to school that day.

My mother and I never had a great relationship. Since this is my first Mother's Day without a mother, I want to take this time to apologize to my mother for the way I treated her. I moved out of her house about 6 months before her death, and during those 6 months, I treated her horribly. She died at a time when I was trying to get her out of my life, and I'll never be able to forgive myself. I'm sorry, mom.

There are 26 comments about this post:
michiyoyoshiku's Destructoid Blog
not to be an asshole but She might have died of a broken heart.
Raspinudo's Destructoid Blog
You can't beat yourself up. She would have wanted you to move on with your life and live happily in her memory, not to grieve but to remember the good times in between all the bad.
tazarthayoot's Destructoid Blog
you are an asshole michi, i hope you fucking die in a fire.

My mother passed of cancer back in 2006, so I know exactly where you're at man. I'm sure she understands as well. Happy Mother's day to you and your mom, Kwaselow.
aimlesssoybeanplant's Destructoid Blog
I know exactly what your feeling man, my mother died when I was only 10 years old after a long battle with cancer, and it still affects me to this day.

Just try to remember the good times and don't start regretting what you should or should not have done.

And Michi, go die in a fire.
power-glove's Destructoid Blog
Michi, that was completely uncalled for.

Kwas, there is no need to beat yourself up over this. I am sure that your mother would not what you to think like that. To you and everyone else here, happy Mother's Day.
Professor Pew's Destructoid Blog
Wasn't it created by some Abigail someone in the Civil War?

Anyway, there are no normal families so don't beat yourself up over any troubles in the past. We've all felt like we've been shitty teenage sons at some point, or maybe we will. Even if your relationship with her wasn't the best, I'm sure she loved you and still does. It sucks you never got the chance to make things right at the last moment, but life's not a movie :(

If anything, you can make it up to her by being a good person in general, or being a good father if you ever want kids. Never forget the past, but never dwell on it or let it control you either.
Y0j1mb0's Destructoid Blog
Professor Pew's words are true.
The GHost's Destructoid Blog
Condolences man, I think that everyone other than Michi have pretty much said what I would say.
MrSadistic's Destructoid Blog
I'm sorry about your loss. When growing up, I never really got to know my grandparents as they passed away when I was just a kid. I know your mom still loves you and is looking down on you and thinks you're an awesome dube.
Scary Womanizing Pig Mask's Destructoid Blog
So sorry to hear this :( I don't know what I can say to make you feel better. You're awesome, and don't let this get you down!
Justice's Destructoid Blog
Dude ignoring Michi, but I get what you mean, I'm in the same boat tbh, except mothers day in the UK is in late March. God speed dude, and thanks for being brave enough to share this with us.
Justice's Destructoid Blog
ignore*
taumpytears's Destructoid Blog
Michi needs to fuck off

I think that you mother loves you and she would prefer that you move forward and try your best not to let her death or your past mistakes keep you down. Learn from them.
Elitechief27's Destructoid Blog
I give you my condolences, and too michi, GTFO
Gynecologist Cobra's Destructoid Blog
Michi, you're a fucking cunt. Completely uncalled for.


But seriously, I'm sorry for your loss. :(
Marioland's Destructoid Blog
I'm sorry for your loss man, I am pretty sure that your mother never stopped to love you and never will. No matter what, go on.

Moreover, DToiders, Mother's day isn't the only day we say to our mothers how much we love them. They don't wait for any son's day to give birth to us and take care for us. Mother's day is good for giving flowers or dedicate the day to our mothers, but it's the everyday acts of appreciation that makes them happy and ready to do more for us.

Happy mother's day
michiyoyoshiku's Destructoid Blog
I'd apologize but the responses to what I said were even more uncalled for.

If you wanna beef I'm not hard to find.
Hamza CTZ Aziz's Destructoid Blog
Oh dang Kwaselow, sorry for your lose man. :(
MaxVest's Destructoid Blog
@kwaselow: What Pew said. If it's any consolation, mothers still love you even when you don't treat them well. There's always a bond there that nothing can break, even if you want it to.

@michiyoyoshiku: I disagree, the responses were pretty appropriate. It's hard to imagine what kind of a person would have thought posting that was a good idea.
Clockwork's Destructoid Blog
Kwaselow, I'm really sorry bud. It was hard to read this. Best wishes.
liam2015's Destructoid Blog
@michi
You dumb fucking cunt, just STFU.

I'd have to say I completely agree with what Pew said. That type of relationship is typical, but you shouldn't regret anything you did in the past. I'm sure your mother loved you nontheless, and she still loves you now.
Samit Sarkar's Destructoid Blog
First off, michiyoyoshiku, you apparently have no sympathy for people at all — either that, or you’re just unbelievably tactless. What you said was uncalled for, imprudent, and flat-out mean.

Kwaselow, I’m really sorry to hear this. Now, of course, it makes sense why you were away from Dtoid for a while, and I’m sad that it was for something like this as opposed to lighter circumstances (or at least, something of your choosing). Like Professor Pew said, I’m sure your mother cared for you until the very end, and though you weren’t able to make things right before she passed, you can always make up for it going forward. Keep your chin up, buddy...
kacie360's Destructoid Blog
Actually, I heard on the news today that some random lady started the holiday.

She made some statue or something in honor of her mom, and then it got popular, and then it was declared a national holiday.

And THEN it was too commercialized and she got arrested for protesting about how commercialized it was.



It might not be true though, I haven't checked wikipedia.
kacie360's Destructoid Blog
and I agree with all previous sentiments.

Sorry, man.
Mxyzptlk's Destructoid Blog
Yup, Mother's Day was started long before there were greeting card companies. Really sorry for your loss man, but don't blame yourself for not getting a chance to reconcile. Moms never stop loving their kids, even when they fight. You can't help it that things happened the way they did. Remember the good times, and don't dwell on the bad.
PetiePal's Destructoid Blog
Hang in there bud. I'm sure your mother knows you love her now. If you really want to honor her memory live your life in a way that would make her proud.

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Name: Adam Eliot Kwaselow
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