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A consuming power: The demon and the borderlands
kauza | 12:35 PM on 10.23.2009 21 comments




You’ve been telling yourself to stay away from that latest gameplay video even as you’re clicking through the post and staring at the screen as the video buffers. The rise in your hype level is palpable as the sound thunders from your speakers, and you sit in your orthopedic chair wondering why you can’t just play the game now, why it can’t be here when you want it. You immediately regret your decision to watch the video.

Finally, the day of the game’s release comes, and you purchase it on your lunch break knowing full well that you cannot play until the evening. You tear the game free from its packaging and stare at it like it’s the first videogame you have ever owned. A sense of pride washes over you even as you set the game down and return to work, where you waste the company’s money for your remaining four paid hours.

That night, you forget to eat dinner. An hour of play turns into six, and you groan quietly as you finally look toward the clock and realize that work starts in a short five hours. You resolve to sell some items and quit. Two hours later, you finally turn your console off and stumble into bed.

That night, you dream that you’re playing. You wake up disappointed and consider calling in sick to work. Your conscience gets the better of you. The level of your uselessness at work approaches the caliber of Peter Gibbons, and you realize a startling fact: you are consumed, and you’re helpless to stop it.




We have all been there to some extent. Games have a definite power to draw us in and refuse to let go, consuming our time despite our efforts to fight against it. But is it simply the high quality of a game that leads to the consuming of our lives, or is it something beyond that. To me, not all high-quality games possess this. Instead, there are a variety of independent qualities that affect whether a game can suck us in or not, and they act in rather different ways upon us, even if the result is the same.

There are two recent games that have consumed me in very different ways: Demon’s Souls and Borderlands.

Demon’s Souls, as many have said, is not an easy game. You may disagree about the level to which it is difficult, but it is, without a doubt, a game that will kill you often. It’s the sort of game that is liable to make you go crazy if you don’t take a break from it fairly often.

So how is it that, despite my desire to take frequent breaks, I can never force the game from my mind?

You may have read other blogs about this game discussing the strategizing that goes on in your head even after you’ve put the game down for the night. Well, all of these blogs are 100% accurate. Demon’s Souls is the sort of game that requires your complete attention; in fact, perhaps it is more correct to call this a demanding game than a difficult one, though I do believe that both apply. However you decide to categorize it, one thing is completely clear: if you are not constantly thinking, you will die. This is not a game that allows you to turn your brain off and have some mindless fun. It will punish your lack of attention with ample doses of frustration.

But once your brain is switched on, it is extremely difficult to switch it off, even after your PS3’s light has dimmed. It consumes your thoughts, and even as you have vowed to stop playing for the night, you will invariably come back to it, sometimes far sooner than you have planned. Somehow, it manages to be the only game that I’ve ever experience that you find extremely difficult to put down even as you’re consistently threatening to give up on it completely.

So, what is the source of the game’s consuming power? It’s not the difficulty itself, but rather how the difficulty interacts with you. Some games (Brutal Legend on brutal difficulty, for instance) offer a brand of difficulty that doesn’t do much in the way of sparking your mental powers. It’s a difficulty that is made so artificially. The game was programmed with one difficulty in mind – a normal difficulty – and both the easy and brutal difficulties do not represent the true experience of the game, the one that the game itself suggests is the true difficulty.

Therefore, the difficulty leads most often to frustration. The game is made to feel more difficult than it needs to be, and you wonder why you chose that difficulty at all. It seems like mindless self-violence inflicted upon you simply because you thought that a tougher setting might be enjoyable. A slider that make you die more easily and your enemies die more difficultly is not difficulty.

Demon’s Souls is difficult because you, as an in-game character, are rather easy to kill. One solid thrust of a spear is quite enough to kill you in many instances, and these thrusts often come out of the shadows when you least expect them, leading to more deaths than you might be willing to admit.

But in this case, it is the only game experience. You aren’t able to make the game easier, giving yourself more health and your enemies less. There’s no easy way out. If you are dying too much, and you want to find a way out, it is up to you and you alone to find a way to progress.



But the main quality here that will lead to you being consumed – the one that so many reviews have mentioned – is that when you die, you know that it is your fault. Sure, the camera has occasionally led me to get killed, and the hit detection has been a little shaky a few times, but in the majority of cases, I have died because I did something stupid. “Hey, is that gigantic dragon asleep? Let’s find out!”

While other games make you frustrated at the game, Demon’s Souls makes you frustrated at yourself, and it is this frustration that keeps you moving forward. After all, we all want to believe that we can achieve difficult things if all of the required tools are presented to us. Indeed, Demon’s Souls does this. There is no challenge in this game that is insurmountable if your actions are chosen very carefully and executed flawlessly. If you fail, it is because something went awry either in your planning or execution. Perhaps you didn’t realize that a room would have three magic users rather than two, and you were killed. Next time, you know that you must plan ahead to tackle all three casters at once.

The idea of “next time” is absolutely central to the game ability to suck you in. Whenever you die, you immediately begin to think of what you can do differently next time, and, before you know it, you are consumed by your desire to plan and act out your next brilliant strategy. So, you plan, you execute, and you succeed. The feeling is inimitable – the great feeling of accomplishment, one that, in a demanding game such as this one, is intoxicating. So you play again until the next time you fail, and you begin strategizing once again in your head. It is an endless cycle, and one that does, without a doubt, consume you.

So, what’s the one unifying quality that makes Demon’s Souls so engrossing? Accomplishment. It a brand of accomplishment that isn’t gained by unlocking achievements, beating games on artificially difficult settings, or winning an online game of Madden (though human to human interaction does provide a very interesting concept of difficulty). This is true difficulty, the kind that is incredibly rewarding. Perhaps the fact that it is so rare in games is what makes Demon’s Souls such a consuming experience. We can only hope that we begin to see it more.



Borderlands is a very, very different game. It isn’t the sort of game that you would call difficult, especially not in the same manner that Demon’s Souls is. Yet there’s no doubt that it has a similar power to consume your thoughts and free time. I have already had far too many nights where I have told myself that I was ready to quit, only to continue playing for hours and hours.

For the very few of you who might not know, Borderlands tosses you into a world of loot, guns, ammo, and plenty of badasses to hunt down and kill, all seen from a first-person perspective. It has been considered Diablo with guns, and while this title is only partially accurate, it serves at least as a decent introduction, and it does prepare players to be consumed in a similar way to what Diablo did to us so many years ago.

But accomplishment isn’t what gave Diablo its consuming power, nor is it what gives Borderlands its own power. It would be easy to suggest that it is pursuit of loot that makes it so hard to put the game down, but I think that’s selling the game short. After all, while I enjoyed Sacred 2, I never felt as consumed by the game as I do by Borderlands. Something else more powerful is in play here.

I think the source of Borderlands’ consuming power is progression. Now, all games have progression to some extent – you progress through a story, through tiers of fighters, and so on. What Borderlands does differently is give you many, many things to progress through all at once. You have a main story to progress through, a variety of side missions, character statistics, weapon proficiency levels, a large set of specific challenges, skill trees…the list goes on and on. There’s just so damn much to progress through that you always have something on your mind that you want to do next.



Again, the idea of “next time” reappears, but it’s very different in this game. Rather than thinking ahead to next time in order to plan out a new strategy, your thoughts of the future will be how you can next progress. Maybe you’re ever-so-close to that next level, and you want to hit it before you go to bed for the night. You get your level, but now you see a chest off in the distance, so you decide to run over to it quickly before you go to bed. You find an amazing sniper rifle, but your skill level is a little low, so you decide to pop off some enemies before bed to get your skill up. Before long, hours have passed and you still have so much left that you want to do.

So, Borderlands succeeds in being an engrossing game because it always gives you something to focus on to allow yourself to progress. You’re never at a loss for meaningful things to do, at least up until that nasty level cap. But while it lasts, Borderlands will grab you, and it won’t let go.

So, these are obviously two very different games, and they go about grabbing hold of the player in very different ways. But the one thing that connects them is that they put the thought into the player’s head of “what’s next.” All games should do this, whether it’s with an incredibly engrossing story, a fantastic character progression system, a rewarding sense of difficulty, or any other quality at all that contributes to this feeling.

Any developer needs to approach the creation of a game with this idea in mind. It can’t just be something as simple as “Well, this waypoint will tell players where to go next!” That’s not at all what I mean. It needs to be a desire created in the player to know what’s next, and that desire needs to be strong enough to compel a player to either continue playing or to constantly thinking about playing next. It is what makes a game great, and what makes it memorable.



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Magnalon's Destructoid Blog
I'll be buying Borderlands, but I don't expect to be playing it much. Uncharted 2 is REALLY taking up all my free time at the moment.

By the time I buy it, I really hope they raise that level cap. I'm a "one main" kinda guy, and with only four different class types, I doubt I'll like more than one anyways.
Magnalon's Destructoid Blog
Also, Demon's Souls = GOTY.
kauza's Destructoid Blog
@Magnalon: I don't know man, you might be surprised. I have no doubts that Uncharted 2 is a better game, but Borderlands might grab you pretty hard.

In related news, Uncharted 2 should be here very soon! YES! The bad news is that my Internet at home is sort of borked, so I won't be able to play online for a little while. But still, add me up on PSN and I'll see ya when I see ya.
stevenxonward's Destructoid Blog
I'm having a blast with Borderlands. I just got to level 10 last night. I wish I had more time to play it. I'll devote my weekend to it.
Char Aznable's Destructoid Blog
Yeah, you hit the nail on the head with the "one more level/weapon/quest" progression in Borderlands. I find myself losing hours out of my night because I'm so focused on getting to the next "thing," whatever that is at the time that has my attention. Last night, I suddenly realized it was 2am by the time I finished a quest, so I had to get my ass to bed.
mix's Destructoid Blog
I had planned on getting Borderlands for X-mas from my GF as I had Demons Souls AND Uncahrted 2 to play but after seeing it for $39 I had to pick it up and the game sucks you in and playing with a buddy makes this game stupid fun.

Having to juggle between 3 awesome games kinda sucks but it must be done!
grafkhun's Destructoid Blog
I disagree, not all games need to hook the player in. I've enjoyed plenty of games while my mind was on autopilot. I don't need to be sucked in to enjoy it, and the game most certainly doesn't have to consume my mind to be great.

I haven't played either of these yet, so I can't say what I feel about them, but I do think they are great examples of what you're trying to say. I just personally disagree with you at the end about the nessecity for all games to have this engrossing factor.
Holyetheline's Destructoid Blog
If anyone wants to Xbox live it up over Borderlands with me this weekend go ahead and add my gamertag: Affinitia. I will gladly play with all who are looking for a good time. =)
Takeshi's Destructoid Blog
My head exploded Kauza. It truly did. Borderlands is finally here!
Great blog man! Like always.
kauza's Destructoid Blog
@grafkhun: But at the very least, wouldn't you agree that this "consuming" quality will always add to your enjoyment of a game? While not every great game will have this, every game will be made greater by having it--that's my take, at least.

@Holyetheline: I'dd add you up! I'm hoping to play through with every character, and it never hurts to have more XBL friends! Feel free to join in any time you see me on.
Benson's Destructoid Blog
I think the part of Borderlands that makes me keep playing it the most is shooting people in the head.....which sounds kind of psychotic....
Blue Odeyssey's Destructoid Blog
I agree Borderlands has that quality about it that keeps you occupied even when you are'nt actually doing anything, it never lets you stop and think, there is always an objective and as you have stated I believe this is key to encouraging the player to continue. Good article and interesting read, also nice to see someone using modern examples for a change.
Holyetheline's Destructoid Blog
Kauza I look forward to Borderlands with you, I'm also going to level up all 4 characters. Right now I have a Level 17 Hunter and Level 9 Siren. I haven't had much time to play it yet but I'm totally going to be using my weekend to catch up!
20 Sided Death's Destructoid Blog
Oh, Kauza, those first 4 paragraphs describe last night perfectly. I've been playing borderlands, messing around with each class just for kicks, and it has been consuming me. I really enjoyed this blog.
walkyourpath's Destructoid Blog
Another great post - get your Internet back! My falcon deals flame damage now. Booyah.
Arkhon's Destructoid Blog
The use of the word "engrossing", when applied to any video game, makes me laugh. The way you describe your experience with Borderlands is the way I experience almost every single game I play (except some really bad flash games and most arcade games, which I don't really play so much as pass the time with).
Wedge's Destructoid Blog
I hate you people because I'm waiting on a broken PS3 to get fixed and a PC version of Borderlands to unlock =/.
Arkhon's Destructoid Blog
@Wedge:

Yeah, well I hate all you people more because it's looking like I won't be able to get a new game until Thanksgiving if I'm lucky. Job market sucks here.
TurboHyperFighting's Destructoid Blog
Benson: ME TOO!!!

Nice write up about Demon's Souls. While I hope it gets it's due acclaim, I'm also afraid it'll be overshadowed by some other really good games. It's my GOTY no matter what anyone says. I LOVE THIS GAME!

Borderlands r0x0rz my s0x0rz as well!
Elsa's Destructoid Blog
Haven't played Borderlands much as yet... but it will be a game my husband and I will try playing through in splitscreen as a nice relaxing couch-buddy game! We're only level 1 so far but will be playing for awhile tonight! :)
wanderingpixel's Destructoid Blog
Siren FTW! Great game, great blog.


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A consuming power: The demon and the borderlands
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How Destructoid single-handedly changed my mother’s opinion of gaming
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Times Games Forgot: The Dark Ages
The Sins and Successes of In-game Collectibles
The Lock is Broken
When Music Surpasses the Game
Truckasaurus Rex and the Humor of Games
I Want to Cry (storytelling related, but not part of the series)

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Borderlands
Demon's Souls
Uncharted 2
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