Well, I haven’t made a blog post in a long while. I suppose I should make one for the anniversary and the birthday and all.

First and foremost…
Happy (late) Birthday Niero and Happy Anniversary Destructoid!

This blog post will be about an inferno that has begun in my life...


Since I was a kid I’ve been playing games. My earliest recollection of gaming is playing the first Mario on the NES. Gaming from that point on became apart of me. My life changed with each experience I lived vicariously through the characters on the screen.

I remember as a kid playing Runescape and meeting and connecting with people online. I shared with and cared more for those people then my own school yard “friends”. Some of those friends online are, sadly, not with us anymore.

New logo sucks...


I’ve always been rejected. In the school yard and in public, when people saw me playing games or even when I brought up games, they pushed me aside or laughed at me. The only time I felt accepted was either online or on the console.

As time went on I became more introverted as a gamer because people always rejected me. No one understood what I felt when I played games. I remember one time I broke down in class (grade 6 or 7). I just started crying and crying and crying. Why? Because the night before Aeries died.

No one understood me when I told them. They just pushed me aside.

SUCKED


Ever since then, I always kept my mouth shut. I eventually found sanctuary in the cyber cafes and through the eyes of a CT or T in Counter-Strike. I even found a best friend, “draycott”, my names sake. Long story short, after a 2 day long session, I never saw him again. I learned a lot from him and his father.

After that I never truly felt like a gamer. Coming from a family that is not well off, we could not afford the luxury of having the current console that was out or upgrading a store bought computer.

That is when I decided to keep up with gaming. I won’t be able to play the games due to financial reasons however; I can at least keep up with the news. So I did that. Thank god for N4G.

Through N4G I found Destructoid. I can not remember which particular article that was written, all I know is that I liked it. I liked the vibe I was getting. Around this time, I had spent all my saved up money for an iPod. “What is a Podcast?” I asked myself one day. Eventually, I had the voices of the Podtoid crew talking about games while on the way to work, school, or where ever.

My ride


Then IT happened...
IT happened about 6 months ago...
IT is the fire in my belly exploding...
IT is the passion I had for gaming coming to fruition...

I had this urge to play games again. I felt it like hot embers underneath my feet. My heart was racing and begged to be moved by the digital characters. Destructoid struck the match…

So in due time, my brother bought me a 360. He always, subconsciously, fueled my passion for gaming. Whether it was him buying the NES, the Genesis, or the computer, he always expected me to play games on it. I think I should tell him one day how much of a nerd he created. The other thing that happened, I met the women that completed me. She also fueled my passion for gaming. Her also being a gamer, she understands fully how crushing Aeries’ death was.

Why am I writing this?
Because of that spark that ignited my passion for gaming again…
Destructoid instigated an inferno…
Thank you...

God speed...
draycott