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My life is pretty terrible but not as bad as it could be. I'm a programmer and currently I'm trying to put together some small games as a step to making the bigger, cooler ones.

I tend to stick to shooter games or Rock Band but I play a lot of RPGs too. Outside of video games I play Magic: The Gathering and have over the years tried my hand at lots of tabletop RPGs.
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I should have done this sooner but I'm lazy and have been recovering from various illnesses slowly. This would have been done later had something not happened today to make me do it. You see, PAX was the best week of my life. It was supposed to be one week of good to outweigh two of the worst years you could imagine and it certainly was that and more. When I got back into my house, I didn't miss anyone because well, we're all on the internet and speak to each other anyway.

PAX was also meant to help get my university course back up and running and provide me a bit extra push to get me the one and only thing I have ever really wanted, a job programming games. It did that a lot and I was all ready to sort things out but today I was given the choice between a year out from uni, which I could in no way afford, and changing to a lower degree, which would mean me getting a job programming games would be so much harder as to be near impossible. The room I am in has to be payed for and I can't do that with option 1 and option 2 reads quit to me because it's a useless option. Option 3 is I do my final year and do the placement I didn't manage to secure afterwards but that will be one of the most hard fought for things I try to get that isn't PAX and I don't much believe in that much good happening all at once.

I'm not going to go into it but the past two years have been rough. The first was pretty bad and after seeing the fun people had at PAX last year I decided last October I had to go. As the second year picked up a little I got happier and then around february it all sort of fell apart and got so bad over summer that PAX was one of the very few reasons I didn't kill myself. If I have any reason to just keep on now, it's you lot.

While there I managed to accomplish a number of my own mini life goals. I played Rock Band with some people from Harmonix, and we ruled. I also full on death screeched Black Dahlia Murder and we came off to some clapping. I also played Rock Band with Necros. I had a great talk with Nick Chester and a lot of other editors. I had Niero wish me luck on my game portfolio. I spent at least part of a night with Knives and Mandi and alcohol. I wore a full suit and top hat and didn't feel stupid. Best of all though, I got Niero to wear my stupid cardboard helmet that everyone signed and then wore the full size one.

A phrase I often heard was "I love you Bunny, you're such an awesome guy" and I still don't quite understand how so many people could like me so much. I have massive trust issues like you would not believe but for some reason with you guys I just don't care. I'm sitting here crying as I write this because I could never wish for a nicer bunch of people to even consider knowing me. My life would not be anything like it is without this site and it hurts so much that because of my life here continuing to go downhill it may mean I can't come on as much and spend time with the people here.

I'm completely losing it now and need to stop crying so I'm just going to leave you with this picture

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Bunny, it was wonderful meeting you! I hope things turn around quickly for you, and just promise to check in to let us know you're ok!
It was nice meeting you, man. And good luck with your pursuit. I initially went into programming to eventually find something in videogames but somehow I lost my way and ended up on the business app side of things. It's aweful, the work environment is so stiff, I feel like I'm going to suffocate!...whoa...sorry about that...cheers!
You're such a nice guy, Bunny. Thank you for helping me film Mikey's video (which should get put up on front page soon, I think!) and walking me through his art portfolio with amazing commentary.

Your dtoid helmet was incredible, and putting on your tophat was ingenious.

It was amazing drinking with you and all of dtoid. I can't wait to do it again, and I hope you're able to be there when it happens.

I wish you the best of luck, man.
<3
It was great meeting/hanging out with you at PAX - good luck getting school off the ground and finished. It'll be a great feeling to get everything moving the way you want it to be.

Take care, Bunny! We <3 YOU!
I wish you the best of luck Bunny you're so awesome it was a pleasure to meet you at PAX!
Bunny I'm glad we got the chance to hangout :). Keep pressing on and eventually everything you want out of life will be achieved.
Hey, if you can't make it out to the East Coast PAX in Boston, I'll be sure to see you in Seattle a bit less than a year from now. Until then, hang in there.
I really hope things go well with you bunny, It was fucking great to meet you person, hang out, and of course, drink :).

I really hope I get to see you next year again, but meanwhile, we should play rock band online :D, considering that's mostly what us 2 play anyway :P.
Tophat > All.
Twas a pleasure meeting you and all mate! ^_^ Best wishes, and give a brother a shout if you ever end up in Canada! =D
I love you.
Dude, your hat was amazing. I got to see you quite a bit at PAX and it was always a delight. You kick ass. Keep on programming and keep on working on your projects. It will pay off.
Weird, you side bar is showing up as Tecnophile's.

I hope to meet you eventually. Every time I've talked to you in IRC you've always been awesome.

All I've got to say is:

(provided the bbcode doesn't fail.) Hang in there meng, you've got this.
Lewis, my fellow Stor(e)y, I had an amazing fucking time getting to know you at PAX and can't thank you enough for the fun/serious/hilarious conversations that we had throughout the whole weekend...on top of completely making fools of ourselves (along with Andy and Kai) at a gay bar.
People tend to believe that they can only come out of their shell on the internet, but I would disagree and say that the group of dtoiders at PAX this year really knew how to be ourselves around each other.
I am sorry you're going through a rough time but it sounds at this point you know where rock bottom is, and if you haven't hit it yet, you're expecting. The interesting thing about rock bottom is that it can only get better from there.
I wish you the best of luck and I love you, I REALLY LOVE YOU! Talk to you on irc, skype and all the other means of communication.
<3
It was really cool getting to see you dude, dont be a stranger <3
Eeeeeeeemooooo...
Bunny!
I'm gutted that I never got to go to PAX and meet everyone, but it'll happen at PAX 10 if not sooner at a NARP.

So basically you're fucked, one day I'll be in the same room as you.

I WILL MAKE YOU HIGH FIVE ME GOD DAMN IT!
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It was great to meet you - Good luck bunnyrabbit! Like senisan said though, keep an open mind to more traditional business. My day job is regular programming, and that allows me to enjoy my game coding because I can do it around my schedule and just make what I want. In the games industry I would be following a game design document signed off by executives, and working around someone elses schedule that may sacrifice quality for a quick return on investment.
We love you, Bunny :D
We super <3 you, Bunny! Definitely some good advice from Senisan and MOO I think...whenever you become a pro at something you sacrifice a lot of the freedom you used to have as a hobby.

May be cold comfort, but something to remember nonetheless.

Also, we love you something fierce.
As rough as it gets you never seem too dramatic so as long as you don't scarf ALL my s'mores poptarts you can always crash on my couch :)

('sides I still need somebody to play through the endless set list 2)
I started crying at the last paragraph :'( I Miss you, buddy <3
Hey Bunny, just getting around to reading this now. It was great meeting you, but I'm sorry to hear things have been so rough for you as of late. Hope things get better for you man, although I have to say I don't think I signed your cardboard hat.

<3

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