Through their podcast and on my behalf, Destructoid editors, Jim Sterling, Max Scoville, Tara Long and JOHNATHAN HOLMES* recently asked the UK's Official Playstation Magazine to give me the job I interviewed (poorly) for.

If it weren’t for them, the site and these C-Blogs, I never would have started writing in the first place. I’m not sure the collective handsome of Podtoid know just how much that public act of kindness meant to me; an albeit rather tight lipped member of this community. What they did could have helped change my life.

Taking the audio they'd recorded, I attached it to this video I made and emailed the Editor who had witnessed me lose half my bodyweight in anxiety sweats. (Spoiler warning: I hope you're not expecting a happy ending.)

Unfortunately, like a game show contestant that got to the final round and gambled everything, I walked away with nothing but that amazing consolation prize. I didn’t get the job.

However, since this bad news, instead of pacing round the house in just a dressing gown feeling sorry for myself and watching reruns of Scrubs I’ve seen twice that day already, I've done nothing but scribble words into a notepad. The kind words of encouragement and support from people inside and outside this community have given me real hope for the future.

So thank you Destructoid. Just the thought of you leaves me blushing.