“He who makes a beast of himself gets rid of the pain of being a man." - Samuel Johnson
I recently decided to make a definitive change in my life: stop being a pussy and start facing my fears head on. When there is that anxious feeling in my chest freezing me up and pulling me down, I plow ahead - leaving my comfort zone behind, determined to overcome myself and the unknown ahead of me.
The situation could present itself at any moment, and I must not hesitate to take on the challenge. Walk across the room and start a conversation with that pretty girl. Fear is the mind-killer. And I want to be fearless.
The newest demon to stand in my path is Amnesia: The Dark Descent.
Everything I've read about this game says the same thing: this game is fucking *scary*. Probably the scariest game ever created. I've always been a big wuss when it came to anything in the horror genre - as a kid I would hide behind the couch while my parents watched Tales From the Crypt. That show wasn't even god damn scary for Christ's sake. I am just that pathetic. Once my imagination starts spinning, I get overwhelmed. So you might understand how formidable of a task it will be for me to play through this game. It is the entire purpose of this blog - to document my struggle to survive this game while trying not to cry like a little girl and hurtle myself through the nearest window.
I don't even really like writing. Actually, I hate writing. But by starting up this blog, I feel I will be held accountable to stay on course and wildly plunge ahead into the darkness of this god-forsaken game. And I figure a few words of encouragement (and ridicule) from the Destructoid Community would do wonders for me as well! If anyone else has been putting this game off and would like to join me on my crusade, that would be seriously awesome.
As a word of warning, there will most definitely be spoilers of the game in this blog. And plenty of cursing as I try to describe the breathless horror I will be experiencing and the pants I will guaranteed to be shitting. I've played the first 30 minutes so far, seen no monsters whatsoever, and I'm already seriously creeped out. The sound design in this game is unreal... I'm already dreading the next time I start the game back up. Hopefully by writing this blog and getting a little support, I can find a way to man up and take this son of a bitch down.
Tomorrow I'm turning the lights off.... and putting the headphones on. I will experience this game the way it was meant to be played. I may never sleep again.
If I don't post a follow-up within the next few days, I'm probably dead.