Just your normal psycho gamer from next door. I play alot of games and alot of generes, as long as it's fun and keeps my attention I'll play it. My top two favorite generes are RPG'S and Fighters. I don't take sides in console wars and find gender divides utter crap.
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Rebel 1 FIGHT! This past year was amazing time for the fighters with releases like Super Street Fighter 4, Tekken 6, Marvel vs Capcom 2 HD and the amazing announcement of Marvel vs Capcom 3. With many releases one game stood out above the rest in this gamers opinion and that was BlazBlue Calamity Trigger, the spiritual successor to Guilty Gear. Arc System Works put a lot of heart and soul into this game, just by playing that you can sense it. Even though it did have a small roster of characters it quickly made up for that with each characters fighting style and personality and it's simple yet deep combat system. You can easily mash buttons and pull of some really crazy stuff and if you learn the system you can pull off even more crazy and cool looking combos. Another element that BlazBlue has is one of the most well written and interesting story lines for a fighting game and when playing the story each characters branching paths each story unfolds in interesting and surprising ways. To me the story mode is an anime but you get to play out the fight scenes. Just watching the characters talk to each other you can tell that these characters are bursting with personality, to the lovable and somewhat dumb Taokaka to the serious and sophisticated Rachel Alucard. Though there is one thing that makes Blazblue shine above all the rest of the fighters and that is the music that pulses through the game. Blazblue has one of the most fantastic soundtracks for any fighter that has been released, come with me and I'll show you just what I am talking about.
To prepare for this blog I have been listening to Calamity Triggers soundtrack all last week and it was hard to pick only four songs to use in this blog but I did and to start us off is Queen of Rose the theme of Rachel Alucard.
Now if you have played that game you know that Rachel carries herself with high class and can sometime look down with people because of it, even though it is funny at times. She is the overseer so to speak of this story, just a mere spectator and she has come to terms with that. Her theme starts off with a very classical arrangement of music it really sets the tone that she is somewhat mature and takes herself seriously. Then you start to hear the beginnings of a guitar solo and then it comes a short and very fast solo then the classical style begins to mix in with the solo. Slowly the solo disappears and it flows nicely back into the classical arrangement then ends with the music from the beginning of the piece. Daisuke Ishiwatari did an amazing job mixing classical with rock.
The next theme is the ever lovable Taokaka the Kaka clans guardian of the village. Tao is in all words dumber then a box of rocks but she is in all words endearing as well. Playful, forgetful and a bottomless pit for a stomach she is so fun you can't help but like her. Her theme fits extremely well with her, it's fun bouncy and playful, I really can't help but smile every time I hear this theme. Compared to the serious tones of Queen of Rose, Catus Carnival is the other end of the spectrum, lighthearted and fun is the best way to describe it and to me sounds like a theme to an awesome amusement park. One thing I noticed is that this theme lacks the rock that most of the themes have in this game and for that it makes it different from the rest
It's Bang Fucking Shishigami and that is all you need to know.
Now this has to be one of the greatest pieces of video game music I have every heard, Awakening The Chaos the infamous V-13 theme. This theme was a must on for this blog, I have never heard anything like this before ever. The arrangement of the music is near prefect and even if you have never played Blazblue just hearing this theme will make you know that this fight is going to be hard and epic.It starts off with some eerie and calmly chanting now as the chanting is going on you can hear some music building up in the back and when it comes you greeted with a very fast guitar solo and some pounding of the drums then chanting kicks back in and the mix of the two is amazing, it just flows so well. Then goes back to just the guitar and drums for bit then back to mix with the chanting but then you hear it. Then all of a sudden it stops and you hear the orchestral that sounds radically different from what you were just hearing, just for a bit the entire piece was turned on its head. Then all of sudden it's back to the fast paced rock and chanting and not a trace of the soft orchestral music is heard in the slightest. To me this theme tops everyone else's theme in every possible way and is one of the most amazing pieces on the soundtrack.
Earlier this year BlazBlue Continumm Shift was released and with that added new characters and even more amazing music. With Continumm Shift some of the previous themes have gotten vocals put to them and are just as amazing but for this musing I wanted to share the amazing music from the game that started it all. These four songs are just the tip of the iceberg that is the Blazblue soundtrack and each theme is just as amazing as the last, even if you don't want to play Blazblue I highly urge everyone to go out and listen to it's amazing music and experience for yourself.
I will start off with saying that I did not go to a traditional middle school, from 4th grade to 8th grade I went to a catholic school but for the sake of this blog I will call my school from 7th to 8th grade middle school.
It would be around the sixth time my family moved and I would go to new a school. I for one was happy since I didn't have many friends at my last school due to everyone thinking I was weird. New school, new people and I was thinking I could finally make some good friends but I would soon find out that that wasn't the case. The new school I was going to attend was Holy Family Catholic School in Whitefish Bay Wisconsin, I was a bit nervous standing around on the first day of school looking at all these people that I did not know. Some people said hi to me and asked who I was and other stuff like that since no one knew who I was. For those of you who don't know most Catholic schools don't have classes over 30 students and all the kids grew up with each other so everyone knew everyone. I walked into my new class room and was introduced to everyone and stuff like that. I did talk to some people and everything seemed to be going well but that wasn't until everyone found out I played video games. From that point on everyone in my class that I was weird for playing video games.
I never hid the fact I played video games, it was part of who I was and I was proud to wear the title of gamer but to them it was so strange to see. I tried making friends with them but it didn't seem to work since I was that weird chick that played video games. I played on the sports team but that didn't help at all since I was mostly a bench warmer and at lunch I sat with the eighth graders at the time since it seemed they didn't find me hobby strange at all. Everyday after I did my homework and told my mom that my school day I was fine, I walked into my room, turned on the Nintendo 64 and went into my own little world. My brother's dad just give him an Nintendo 64 and both of us played it but I played it a lot more then he did. Playing the Nintendo 64 was really my only way to escape from the crap that was school well besides talking about how much I hated school with my parents but that can only go so far.
Well seventh grade ended and eighth grade came along, I was still going to school with the same people that didn't want anything to do with me. It was the same thing all over again, go to school, go home, play video games. This year wasn't to bad compared to seventh since I started going to church and the youth group there was full of game and I finally found some friends that didn't find me weird for playing them. Sadly when I wasn't at youth group or talking with my parents how much I hated school I was playing video games. Mainly one game in particular The Legend of Zelda Ocarina Of Time.
I know I have played this game over 100 times and I enjoy everything about it no matter how many times I replay it. In all honesty this game is what made me proud to be a gamer and turned me into the gamer I am today. No matter how bad a day I was having at school, no matter how much the other kids made fun of me, I knew that waiting for me at home was the land of Hyrule waiting for me to discover all it's secrets and discover it's beautiful lands. It was something I always looked forward to since when I journeyed to Hyrule all the insults and stupid names I was called seemed to not exist anymore, here in that land I wasn't the weird girl who played video games and most importantly I wasn't an outcast since that is how I really felt.
I did play other video games but Ocarina Time holds a special place in my heart because it helped me get through middle school. I did have more troubles growing up and for me talking about my feelings is really hard but for me video games will always be there to let me escape from it all. Talking about it only went so far for me but sitting in front of my TV playing video games for a while always made me feel better and not so alone in everything. Though middle school was extremely bad for me I honestly feel that video games helped me a lot during those two years I was in school.
I have decided that I put this blog off for far to long and that now is the time to write it. With the upcoming release of Persona 3 PSP I feel I wanted to share with you the Destructoid community my journey through Persona 3 FES, When Persona 3 was released I did not have a PS2 at the time but I really wanted to play it. The one factor that caught my attention was the fact that to summon their Personas they had to shot themeselves in the head needless to say I had to play this game. Well I finally got around to buying a PS2 but everywhere I went they only had Persona 3 FES in stock so I ended up buying that instead of the orignal. I had no idea what lay ahead of me since prior to this I had never played a Atlus game let alone a Persona game. I powered up my PS2 and popped the disc and was ready to take my first steps into the world of Persona 3.
The first thing that I love about the game was the music, I listen to the music all the time, I am actually listening to it right now while writing this blog. Walking around Gekkoukan High and listening to the up beat pop song playing was amazing and the opening to the game has to be one of my favorite openings ever. All the music just fits so perfectly in the game, hearing the battle theme for the first time just really got me excited to battle these shadows. Even each locations music just fit so well, from Paulownia Mall to the dorm every just blended so well. I mean I could really picture the music from Paulownia playing in the mall by my house. Just hearing certain songs when I am not playing the game, I can remember what was happening and what I was doing in the game.
I will admit I am a RPG freak and have a bad habit of playing more the one at time but something about P3 made it different then other RPG's I had play. Thinking about it was all the characters that inhabit Port Island, everyone was so fleshed out and so different from each other. I really felt a connection with the members of SEES and I wanted to see how this journey was going to end. I did do a fangirl freak out when first seeing Akihiko since I have a huge thing for bishounens. Also laughing a bit on the inside seeing how much more mature Ken is to Junpei. While playing as Toya, this is what I named the him the first time around and during my second play through named him Minato, I wanted him to be the nice guy and try to be friends with everyone. Honestly I feel like I did accomplish that during my first playthrough and I was very happy about that.
I really had such a great time with the social links and learning about the minor characters in Persona 3. On my first playthrough I missed a lot but the ones I did complete were all interesting and sometimes sad in there own way. The one social link I felt really sad about was the girl at the shrine, seeing as she really didn't understand why her parents had to get a divorce and the fact that her parents were complete asses about it but in the end it was bittersweet. In my first playthrough I had Yuko as my girlfriend, she had a very sweet personality and the event in her link where very cute. Since I already had Yuko as my girlfriend since I maxed out the link I didn't try to max out any other of the girl links since I thought if I got caught it would reverse the link I had with Yuko but I found later that wasn't the case. I learned that once you max out a link it can't broken and in order to get all the girls just work on one at a time so they all don't get mad at you and the link reversed. I still find that funny that you can have like six girlfriends at a time.
This blog can get really long but I am going to now just start writing about major plot points and other huge experiences I had in the game. I think the above paragraphs give you the general idea about how I feel about the game but from this point on I will be talking about how I felt during certain parts in the game.
Tartarus, Nyx, and The End.
Upon watching the school transform into Tartarus I was in awe and really could not wait to start exploring. A lot of times it really did overwhelm me and made me nervous at other times because I knew I only had a certain amount of time to reach the top. Some things along the way made me scared that I wouldn't be able to accomplish that and that was mainly the floor bosses. Some of those shadows were a huge pain in the ass. I encountered one boss and stopped playing the game because I was so frustrated that I couldn't beat them. I eventually did and felt a great sense of accomplishment by doing that. When the final month came around the final floor had opened I was ready to conquer it all. Going through all the floors trying to level up my team and defeating the shadow boss to get to the final area made in anxious to no end. All the floors in Tartarus I had conquered had all lead up to this point, it was almost time to face Nyx and save the world. Each time I defeated a boss I felt that much closer and much that much more excited about reaching the top.
I reached the top and now all I could do was wait until Nyx arrived and prepare to kick it's ass. During the final battle and having to encounter Takaya and Jin made me upset, I just wanted these two get out of my way, I had the entire world to save. I kicked their asses but after listening to them after I did, I felt sorry for them. Forced into using a persona because some people fucked up and they wanted it cleaned up. I made my way to the top and was prepared to face Nyx and save the world. I must say seeing the face of Ryoji was indeed a bit sad knowing I had to kill Nyx and in doing so killing him in order to save the world. I went into battle and was nervous so many thing were running through my head. Knowing that the people in the world wanted to die because they couldn't handle the world anymore and now Nyx was here to being that to them but it was up to my friends and I to stop that and show the world death is not the answer.
I kicked Nyx's ass and saved the world but then I was thrown off guard when it wasn't over. Nyx was still there and ready to destory everything, I was in tears thinking it was the end and all the trials we have been through were for nothing. Until I saw Toya stand up and enter Nyx and was going to try to stop Nyx no matter what. I teard up a bit as I saw Toya shed a single tear as he was flying towards the heart. I was so nervous since I had no idea what to do, I was low on health, couldn't attack Nyx and couldn't use any items. Then all the friends I had made and the members of SEES were their to back me up and not let Nyx take over the world. Hearing their voices made me personally tear up and I was ready to seal away Nyx with the help of my friends. I sealed away Nyx and saved the world, I watched and cry as I saw Toya emerge alive from his battle and ready to begin a normal life with his friends.
Then the final cutscene showed and I was filled with sadness, after the final battle everyone forgot each other and didn't remember anything except for Aigi. I felt her pain as she knew what had happened but no one else did. I sat their wonder what was going to happen, then Agis took me to the roof top and we waited for everyone. Then I remember everyone agreed to meet somewhere after the battle was over to remember everything that had happened and be reunited one more time. As Mitsuru spoke and she said that he father died of a illness, I was sad that she didn't remember but then she remember and everyone else did to in the middle of a school assembly. Seeing Mitsuru jump off the stage was the greatest thing ever and I smiled and felt extremely happy. Everyone went to the roof and everyone was there to see what we had saved even though nobody else remembered. I was honestly sad and in tears knowing that Toya would never be able to see what he had saved since he gave up his life to save everyone so they can all live.
Shinji and Chidori's Death
Upon first meeting Shinji I really didn't know how to react to him. He was a very interesting character no doubt, one reason I think that is because he never gave out to much information about him or his personal life. He was just a badss and would kick some ass if need be. Then I found out that during a operation he lost control of his power and killed Ken's mom in the process, I was a bit in shock. I had a bad feeling about it when Ken found out and started to act all weird. Then a night of an operation happened and neither Shinji nor Ken could be found that bad feeling I had went from bad terrible, I knew something was going to happen and was afraid to find out. After the operation was complete it was time to see what was going on between Shinji and Ken and by that time I was extremely nervous and scared. Ken started to say that it was now time to avenge his mom and kill Shinji for what he did, I kept saying no over and over in my head. Shinji couldn't help it and then I realized that is why Shinji was the way he is, he accidently killed her and felt horrible about it but Ken wasn't by it all.
Now Takaya showed up and all I was thinking was, oh crap not these douche bag. Next Takaya starts talking about death and how he was going to kill both of them right there and now. I was on the edge of my couch not knowing what was going to happen. The Takaya pulls out a gun and shot a oncoming Shinji who was trying to stop him, I was in shock and couldn't believe what I just saw but then things went from bad to worse. Takaya pulled the gun on Ken and was about to shoot him but then Shinji takes the bullet for him. I was dropped the controlled from my hand and stared at the tv in shock and sadness. Shinji just saved Ken's life and the cost of his and told him to live his life out and this is who thing should be. Shinji was dead, gone, not coming back at all, I couldn't believe it. This character who I knew very little about and now will never got to know him. After that I saved my game and turned it off, I had to think about this and started to tear up because I really wanted to get to know this character but now I couldn't. I never felt like that before in a game and had to sit and think about what just happened since I felt like a friend of mine just died.
After the death of Shinji I went through the game with a bit of sadness and really didn't want anything like that to happy again but I was in for a ride all over again. I must say the relationship development of Junpei and Chidori really made me think. The interaction was so interesting with Junpei being a goofball and falling for Chidori who is somewhat defensive and cold. When Chidori didn't want Junpei to see her anymore I really wanted to know why since she opened up to him so much and Junpei really matured because of her. The fight with Chidori came and I really did not want to fight her at all and it seemed it this fight she was fighting her feelings and it was just a sad battle. Like always Takaya and Jin show up and start spewing their bullshit and how that Chidori deserves to die because of what she did. Takaya pulls out a gun and aims for Chidori then Junpei takes the bullet for her.
I started crying again, I couldn't take another friend of mine dying so soon. The with the help of Chidori's person she brings Junpei back to life but with that she ends her own. During that dream sequence she starts talking about her she started to fear death because she didn't want to leave Junpei alone in this world. At this point the tears started rolling down my cheeks. That she loved him so much she gave up her life for him and he did the same but she wanted him to live on and keep her in his heart. I was so moved by that and from that point on in the game Junpei was more determined then ever to save the world and live on for Chidori's sake.
I really liked Ikutsuki since we all know someone like him that is always telling bad jokes and puns. He seemed like a very interesting guy and really wanted to stop the Dark Hour. He really knew a lot about the situation and always wanted to help out SEES. So when he betrayed SEES and killing Mitsuru's father, I felt betrayed and was so pissed that these guy was a complete jackass and all the jokes and smiles were just a front. What bothered me even more was he know all of these from the first time I meet him in the game, he knew what he was doing and didn't feel sorry about it. That he wanted to bring about the Fall and save the world, I just couldn't believe it at all. Then I started to think back and wondering if there was any signs that he was going to betray the team but there wasn't. He hid his plans so well you couldn't tell anything beside he was a happy go lucky guy and told some really bad jokes. When I started playing a second time and I meet him again, I didn't feel the same and knowing what I knew. That he was just bullshitting behind that smile, I felt upset and angry and he hadn't done anything yet. The only other character I strongly don't like beside him is Seymour from Final Fantasy X, these two share the top spot of most hated video game character list I have in my end.
Upon meeting Agis for the first time I really did not like her at all. She seemed like some creepy stalker robot and it just bothered me alot. Something I didn't like is how she was always saying I want to be by your side forever and various other creepy stalker sayings. Progressing through the game she did tone down the whole creeper vibe but I still didn't like her. Then pops in Ryoji and her on the brigde, I had no idea what was going on then after the battle she explained everything. I was surprised that she sealed away death in Toya 10 years ago and forgot about it since she was so badly damaged in their previous battle. That is why she wanted to protect and be by Toya's side is because she just wanted to protect him from death. From this point on I really started to like Aigis, she wasn't that creepy robot but a person her really cared for Toya and just wanted to protect him and be with him forever. She finally realized why she was made and she was so happy that she was now able to tell Toya in her own words that she truly cared for him and that this feelings weren't from a robot but from her "heart". In all honestly I never seen a character develop like Aigis did and now she is one of my favorite characters ever from a video game.
I am glad that I picked up Persona 3 FES and I now tell everyone I know that it is was one the best games I have ever played and that everyone should play it just to experience it's amazing story. For me I don't hold many game in high places but Persona 3 FES joins that select list with Ocarina of Time and Final Fantasy X. I love everything about Persona 3 FES from its amazing soundtrack, to the characters that inhabit Port Island, the emotions it evokes and it's deep story that had me thinking about many things after I finished the game. In all honestly I feel that Persona 3 FES helps that video games aren't just for kids, even games can have great stories just like books and movies and that games can evoke so many different emotions in people that make them think. I am currently in my second playthrough and clocking in around 200 hours and with the Persona 3 PSP just around the corner, I can say I am ready to jump back into Port Island with a new character and experience a whole new side to Persona 3.
This somewhat dumb and highly funny idea came out of a late night skype call I had with GenkiJAM. Seeing as I have a boner for all things history, especially Ancient History, I was watching a show on Net Geo about the city of Atlantis and how these people were trying to discover where it was and if it was real where did it go. Me being me, I absent-mindedly asked Genki if Atlantis was in God Of War,he laughed at me and asked why would it be. I told him that before he went bat shit crazy he could have took his daughter there for vacation, it could have been a theme park for all we know. So God Of War: Atlantis Festival Games was born, shoop done by Genki. Please don't hurt me.
Slaying the Gods getting you down, need a place to have a little fun, well then come on down to Atlantis and enjoy the many games and rides that Atlantis has to offer. Think your faster the Hermes, try your speed at Hermes's Race Around Mount Olympus. Think you have a better shot then Artemis, try you aim at Artemis's Shooting Gallery. Smarter then Athena, test your knowledge at Athena's Booth Of Knowledge. Want to see how good looking you are, try Narcissus's Hall Of Mirrors. Did you bring that special someone with you, float down Aphrodite's Tunnel Of Love. At Atlantis there is something for the whole family!
I wasn't here in the beginning but when I did join and look back to now, this is a great group of people. I have met so many people and made lots of friends through Destructoid. Niero, many thanks to you for making one of the best gaming communities ever, here is to 4 more years of awesome!
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When reading about this month's topic I thought it would be hard to write about since there is a whole mess of topics you can pick about sex in videogames. Writing about how sex is portrayed, the sexualization of characters in videogames, well you get the picture. Then it came to me, how about writing something about the lack of male eye candy for females, hey we need to loving to. Follow me in this blog and you'll see what I am talking about.
Since the videogame industry is still very male-centric it seems that producers and companies sometimes forget about the females that also partake in the awesome hobby of gaming. With that the lack of man- candy has occurred, with the trend of videogames as it is, it seems the majority of males are that of space marines or manly man that are the size of houses and to be honest that sometimes in not very fun to look at. I will state that with a games story and tone man-candy would be somewhat out there, for example Gears Of War. I would be a bit shocked to see a pretty boy, running around chainsawing aliens in half, while still have his lovely locks in place, not going to lie that would be awesome but that is just me.
Now that I think about Leon Kennedy did something to that affect in Reisdent Evil 4. One of my favorite games ever from the last decade, to me did it right. Leon in every way is just a normal guy, doing his job to recuse the president's daughter. Nothing was really special or stood out about him, his character design portrayed how more games should portray their male leaders. Leon is just normal, no muscles the size of texas, he's manly but not the over the top manly that has males oozing testostrone and he's good looking. I mean just look at the jacket.
Now this brings me to my next guy, the total badass Travis Touchdown. The thing with Travis is some girls most likely wouldn't think twice about Travis well I am not one of those girls. Travis is another normal guy, has an obession with anime, loves pro-wrestling and carries around a pretty kick ass beam sword. Minus the whole assassin job, there are guys out there just like him, this is one of those good and bad things. Even though most if not all the females in No More Hereo's are over sexualized and just there to please the eye, I find it interesting that they made Travis normal and not a female fantasy version of a guy.
With characters like Nathan Drake, Leon Kennedy and Travis Touchdown it seems that game developers are getting there it having some very nice eye candy for females and not overdoing with the sex like many female characters are but there is one genre of games that fills in the spot perfectly for every females, including mine, version of the perfect man. A guy that is amazingly gorgeous and will do anything to protect the ones that are close to him, including the girl that he loves. That my friends is the wonderful world of JRPGS.
Oh JRPG's where do I even begin with you. I have such a huge weak spot for bishounen's and really not afraid to admit that. I could talk about the various JRPG's I have played and go on about the males from those games but I will chose Persona 3 as my game to talk about. Since to me Persona 3 is a JRPG in every sense of the word, upon playing it from the first time last year I was overjoyed to find that the game was filled with bishounen's. I mean upon getting to see Akihiko the first time made my inner bishie fangirl go insane or meeting Junpei a complete opposite to Akihiko but was still awesome in his own way. To me JRPG's will be the games were females can get their male eye-candy but with JRPG's it's you hate them or you love them.
To me sex in videogames isn't just about characters having sex, it can also be the way how males and females are portrayed in games today. In the future I hope to see both male and female characters portrayed in a realstic way but without losing the fantasy that videogames have given us. I would like to have half naked, big breasted women replaced with normal sized women with some decent clothes and have the manly men that are big as a house with extreme power replaced with more character like Nathan Drake. Until that happens I'll just have to wait.