is a Destructoid intern who has trouble understanding how people emote outside of GIFs. She suffers from "multiplayeritis," that terrible disease that never allows you to progress on your backlog because you're too busy pew-pewing online. Paradoxically loves RPGs but hates the grind. Friends are convinced that there's she's actually big, burly, roided up man at heart. Spends free time indulging herself in K-pop. Likes: Persona 4, Fallout 2, Dragon Age Origins, Gears of War 2, Mass Effect 2 and Tales of the Abyss.
An introduction to the wide-eyed hopeful who gets off on yellow dresses and Rice-A-Roni! Hmm, should this be called 'Haze the Intern'?
Hello, Destructoid community. The name's Patricia Hernandez, also known as ashpanic in various internet circles, and I'm (one of the?) latest additions to the Destructoid team. I’m here to tell you a little about myself, to let you guys get to know me a little before I start posting to the main website.
I’m San Francisco native that thought it was a great idea to go to a liberal arts school all the way in MA to study marketing and video game design. At the time, I desperately wanted to get away from overbearing parents, but now I'm a tad bitter about choosing to go to school in the middle of nowhere instead of staying in the city. Alas, no other choice than to suck it up at this point, especially in the face of having only one more year before graduation.
To preempt the questions regarding my majors: the games I've made are all rubbish, but that's okay. Toward the end of that major I realized that I'm more cut out for either management or writing careers.
Anyway....games! I tend to favor shooters, especially if they feel--as Tim Rogers would put it--crunchy. To give you an idea of the extent of my love: I spent 100 hours on the Gears of War 3 beta alone. Who the heck does that? I'm not (just) a pew pew meathead by any means, though: tied with shooters are role playing games. I tend to become too “engaged” with character interactions. I'm serious. The Persona 3 ending credits song, 'Memories of You' makes my eyes start watering and Morrigan from Dragon Age might just be my dream woman.
Favorite games, somewhat in order: Persona 4 (it's better than Persona 3, DEAL WITH IT), Dragon Age Origins (still waiting for the 'true' sequel), Fallout 2, Gears of War 2 (soon to be replaced by Gears 3, I figure), Mass Effect 2, Wind Waker (only Zelda game I've ever enjoyed. Should I prepare for a crucifixion?), Metal Gear Solid, Tales of the Abyss (better than Symphonia), Heavy Rain and Shin Megami Tensei: Devil Survivor.
I spend a good deal of my time–almost ashamedly so, really–writing about, thinking about, and telling people about games. I'm fairly new to this whole 'games journalism' thing, though, as I only have about a year of 'experience' under my belt. Up until this point, I wrote primarily for my personal pet project, Nightmare Mode, in my spare time, though I've been published on Bitmob as well been on Gamasutra and Critical Distance a handful of times. And now I'm writing for Destructoid? Terrifying thing for me to conceptualize, that.
So, about my angle and style. I adore and frankly privilege New Games Journalism. Hence, my writing tends to be full of personal anecdotes and experiences. I suppose you could call me a critic, though, I feel odd saying that considering that there’s people like Leigh Alexander, Kirk Hamilton, Ben Abraham who occupy the label. Perhaps it is more apt to say that I aspire to be a critic? Yeah, let’s go with that.
I consider being informed my 'job', though less utilitarian than that, I consider games to have merit. Not in the ‘games are art’ way, but in the ‘games are cultural artifacts’ way. I always write with that in mind, and it often means braving to hold games accountable when everyone cries it's just a game, often means speaking about them in a meaningful way. I don’t think games should be fun above all–what the heck does that mean, anyway? I believe games should be engaging. Hence I don’t just play games, I analyze them, I dissect them.
Wow, that got all serious and kinda BS-like all of a sudden. Let's quickly list some really random interests of mine: Paula Deen, Cole Train, Balrog, and GIFs.
Eclipsing all of those interests are mah gurls, SNSD.
...erm, ahem. Well, that's about as much as I can really say about myself. In closing, here are the many ways we can connect with each other, as I'd love to get to know you guys. You can follow me on Twitter. We can play games together, if you'd like: I'm breeduh on XBL, ashthrace on PSN, and ashpanic on Steam. Or, you can friend me on Facebook.