Growing up I had a pretty complicated childhood, mostly due to my up bringing by my mother and step-father. My step-father was very Christian and always wanted everyone in the family to pray and watch Church on television. If one of my siblings or I did something wrong my step-father would grow a fit and pretty much hit us with a wet rag pretty hard. My mother on the other hand was kind person for the most part and a very caring mother, but her she was a compulsive lier to now end. She would always lie about everything to me. I won't really go into what she lied about and how long that lie lasted.

From all the drama that happen in my childhood and growing up in a shitty neighborhood, I only had one thing that comfort me, video games. I'll give you a perfect example of how my Gameboy comfort me during a time when I was about nine years old. One night my step-father wanted my older brother to go get some Chinese food for him, and so my brother did so. When my brother came back he forgot the dumplings my step-father wanted and when he found out there wasn't dumplings in his dinner he had such a angry expression. So like the loving father he was he strangled my brother against the door and while all that was happening I cried in fear of how my step-father was acting. So I ran into my room with my GameBoy and started playing The Legend of Zelda: Link's Awakening with headphones on listening to song Marin sings to Link in the town. It made me feel little bette hearing the song and after hiding in my room all the fighting was over for now.

Even when my step-father and mother would have fights about money or other bullshit I would always shut my door and play something on my Gameboy,Nintendo 64 and PS1. Sometimes I would watch my brothers play video games for hours till I fell asleep. My brothers would do the same times when my parents would fight over something. I feel like thats pretty much the main reason why we all played video games in the house more than watch television. I mean back then the only reasons we played video games was staying in the house, fighting parents, and lastly it was fun to play.

I feel kind of sad writing this personally. I give the video games I played throughout my childhood a lot of credit keeping me sane all these years or somewhat sane. From the problems in high school to drama going on in the family it's nice knowing I can just play Zelda or Spyro for hours on end and clear my mind of negative thoughts. Not sure if I can say video games gave some morals, maybe good always kills evil and hard work gives a lot in the long run? On a final note I was scared of my step-father at one point when I was about eight years old because my brother told me he was serectly Ganon trying to kill me...ah good times.

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