I haven't been here in awhile, I have no idea what's transpired outside of what I talked about with Hamza, I'm not looking to add to the drama pile but I feel this is needed especially after reading the forums.

Yes I was dick, I make no excuses for my behavior, did I want to be a dick? Not, not really, I'm abrasive, I know that, my anger at times would come out in the wrong manner, see I like destructoid, its one of my favorite sites simply because its so incredibly unique, the community on the other hand tended to bring it down a notch.

I don't mean the nice, smart people, I mean the assholes would troll the place up.

The email I sent to Hamza when he asked me why I did what I did can word it better, here it is.

[b]My main gripe with D-toid is that its so unique, its a very interesting site compared to every other gaming site out there but the community, that's what gets me, you have very smart and intelligent guys but at times they seem drowned by the morons.

I see this incredibly well written blog about a particular subject, maybe 5 replies, someone like Heretic starts a blog with some retarded video, 60+.

I'd like to write more blogs more D-toid but I barely get any feedback when I do, I wondered if I had to do with the subject or people's attitudes toward me but I see it happen a lot.

Obviously D-toid shouldn't be a super moderated site, that would kill discussion, I just feel that too much of the community act D-toid is 4chan's /b/ and I hate seeing some new, smart newbie poster get pushed out by all the clowns.[/b]

I don't want to hate, I try not to hate but these idiots I talk about where so prevalent here, I hated seeing a good written blog get like 5 replies and Heretic starts one and gets 60 with 55 of those posts being stupidities.

It just soured my view on the site and everything in general BUT that's no excuse, I was a GIANT ASSHOLE, like epic asshole, massive gigantic, a blackhole of asshole if you will.

On the times I commented about the games, I did feel that way, I simply went to abrasive to get my point across, I insulted people and the like, that was wrong and again, I apologize. It got to the point where I came here and just spewed hatred wherever I went. It is possible to dislike something without sounding like a jackass.

Technophile's post in the forums really resounded with me, he's right, what does go through my mind? I mean I've been working through some difficult times but this place and its residents should not be my punching bag.

So I apologize to everyone, the community, the writers, even the people I didn't like and are now banned, anything any of you might want to say, go ahead because I deserve it.

I thank Hamza for giving this opportunity to express myself and this apology, I promise I won't act like a petulant brat anymore, I'm to old to be doing in the first place.

I want Destructoid to continue growing and being the most unique gaming site I've visited and I'd like to be a part of that.

And to finally put this to rest.

I AM NOT SHONUFF, I NEVER WAS SHONUFF

A simple IP search will prove this, I am not him or was him.