While I was contemplating an idea for my weekly blog entry, something dawned on me; I’m not original in the slightest. I certainly write with a lot of passion and angst, but none of my ideas are truly unique.

For starters, I’m not the only person dissatisfied with “Uncharted 3.” I’m also clearly not the only person who doesn’t like the current COD games. As such, I’m beginning to lose faith in my own abilities.

Day in and day out, I fail to think of anything other than video games. My thoughts are permeated with something relating to games, yet I have nothing new to say about them. There is only so much praise one can throw at classics like “Zelda: Wind Waker,” “SFIII: Third Strike” and “Metal Gear Solid 3” before you sound like a broken record.

Not only that, but I’m usually very vocal about my general dissatisfaction with lots of current gen titles. My friend, Jim, gets the brunt of my complaints with daily messages about how I really hate “inFamous 2” or “Gears of War 3.” My criticisms never change and that bothers me.

With as much as I can say to Jim, though, I feel completely opposite to my co-workers. Their lives sound a lot more interesting to me. They go out to places, have dinner together, hang out at parties and generally have a lot to chat over. I provide nothing to their discussions.

When I come into work, the only thing on my mind is work. When standing there and waiting for something to happen, I can never muster up any kind of thought that sounds interesting. Sure, I occasionally think about video games, but not every one of my co-workers plays games.

Even the ones who do, they don’t enjoy the same titles I do. I haven’t met a single other person who actually knows what “The Binding of Isaac” even is. For that matter, I haven’t met anyone else who has played “Yakuza 3.”

My co-workers then proceed to chat about films and they almost always pick the ones I dislike. Now the only babble spewing from my mouth is how I generally loathe modern cinema and we’re back to square one. I have nothing to talk about.

When I do leave my house, I still cannot think of any ways to approach new people. What would I possibly say to them? As much as I love gaming, it’s not the only thing I want in my life, but I don’t know what else to even possibly speak about. I know nothing else!

So, I feel like giving up. My blogs aren’t getting any better and I’m running out of ideas to keep going. I may begin chatting about films, but I don’t think that has any place on Destructoid. Even if that did, I probably wouldn’t be able to conjure up any originality.

One of my dreams was to become a writer in the gaming community, but life apparently has different plans for me. I abhor school and will not return, so I guess I’m just done. Until I can create something truly individual and unique, I will not be writing any more blogs.

Much like the setup for “The Darkness 2,” I am giving in to my own darkness. My own self deprecating thoughts and asperity have defeated me. One day I’ll come to terms with my own ineptitude, but today is not that day.

Until I return, I’d just like to thank all of the people who actually enjoyed my writing. I appreciate that I was able to lift some spirits and possibly even attract you to newer genres. I just wish that I could find more to say to you.