I don't know how you do it.. with your fancy t-shirt and colorful hats advertising this game and that console. It's bat-shit crazy and I commend you on your bravery.
Seriously though, is anyone else embarrassed by signifying themselves as a gamer professionally? I'm not talking about donning some game-related garb to high school.
I sat in my resplendent summer college course, my mind slowly being chipped away at a rehashed lecture. The person sitting beside me leaned in, squinting at my laptop's screen, and inquired, "Is that DoTA?"
Well, no it wasn't. It was Heroes of Newerth
– a Defense of The Ancients clone made possible by the good old folks behind the Savage series, S2 Gaming (shameless plug #2).
But I literally blanched; I hadn't realized anyone had been watching me browse screenshots, reading up in preparation for some game time coming my way that evening. A conversation sprung, undulated into a lengthy discussion about games past and present. Fairly enjoyable, I will admit, but at first I had been flustered. My initial reaction was to slam my notebook shut and raspberry, like any self-respecting wanker. I felt robbed of my secrecy. I had been exposed, but it wasn't like I was looking at porn. Well, actually... maybe it was– in some ways.
But now that I think about it, I have been relatively surreptitious about my fondness of video games. Why? Is it a fear of association with those who frequently don gaming garb or have tattooed sleeves decorated with the Triforce, companion cube or a squashed goomba or two?
If it is, that's strange as spend most of my time in the company of good friends who ARE those people. I cannot be THAT ashamed of my heritage– I play D&D god damn it. Every Saturday night I am clack-clacking some dice in hopes of natural 20's, or I am *gasp* DMing it up. That shit has become an abhorrent practice within this culture– people disrespect the great, old RPG grandfather. The table top concept of having a character and "leveling that bitch up" has fallen under the going too far
category for surprisingly quite a bit of people. The vast majority of my gaming cohorts ridicule the hell out of me, without even attempting a game.
(Which by the way– there is probably a surmise right about now that I am overweight, covered ache grease, utterly socially inept and wear full-framed black glasses. Well, you got me on one:
I am totally socially inept when I have a face full of delicious apple.)
Curious.. Generating a search for "What does a D&D player looks like" brought up:
But back to the question at hand: How overt is the average twenty-something gamer of their lifestyle?
I find myself rarely ever talking about the fact that I play games when I'm at college, yet I'll be the first to admit a distinct fascination with comics and fantasy novels. In hindsight, this is probably a terrible, terrible mistake.
Kind of the opposite of what you would want to do.
I just cannot help but feel that although gaming has been on the rise in popularity, some of the wrong aspects of things are getting the lime-light while other things are falling behind. To say I feel degraded when I strike a conversation with the average, casual gamer my age is a bit harsh... but when I slide in a reference to gaming and get a guttural, belligerent report about Call of Duty 4 or something about the Halo series, I cannot help but cringe.
Oh C'thulhu, what in the hell am I even babbling about? I'm guessing that certifies me as a miserable cock. But this is why PAX and conventions are so awesome to me, I don't have to hide shit. read