I don't even know if this is going to be worth reading. I'm not going to mince words, I'm emotionally affected by the subject matter of this post. I'm hurt. And I'm going to use lots of colorful language, loads of hyperbole, and I'm going to try to be constructive about my level of upset. Please pardon my venting, I'll try my best to make sure it's at least an interesting read.
Over the weekend, IGN (in)famously broke the news that The Last Guardian
had been canceled. The game was done for, and the thing that captured so many imaginations (mine, too) was no more. Then, Scott Rohde, Software Product Development Head for Sony Worldwide Studios America, Tweeted how this simply wasn't the case. The stage was set for E3 to be the long-awaited next showing of a game that needed its day to come.
And for as great as the show was, and for all of the great things they showed...The Last Guardian
was not part of it.
Imagine the feeling of a kid left out in the rain, their parents forgetting them after soccer practice in a torrent that magnified the sadness with every drop, multiplied by every second passed. Or someone special to you completely forgetting your birthday. Picture the abject disappointment that person must feel, the loneliness, the isolation, the feeling that your wants, needs and desires just aren't fucking important enough for anyone else to give a damn.
Like I said, it's gonna get hyperbolic. But I feel like that right about now, or at least as close to those things as not seeing a videogame you've waited eight long years for can approximate. You could say the same thing for Half-Life 3
, and you'd be right - except for the fact that HL3
has never been officially announced or had footage shown for the game in question. TLG
had both. It's much more cruel that way, to be honest.
See, I think they missed out on a golden opportunity, here. This was their chance. This was the time to have shown off something that Microsoft and Nintendo just weren't capable of doing. This is the time to stop showing the remastered games and the sequels, and show off something that's been cooking for almost a decade. I mean, God Of War
fans have seen seven (yes, fucking seven
) titles in that series. Killzone
, four (on consoles). Shit, even Uncharted
just got a fourth game announced (at the point of the show where TLG
should have been, no less).
The Last Guardian
? We get reassured that the game still exists. Again. No video. No teaser. Nothing at all. No sign of life. Just a "sorry I couldn't make it, but I'll be there next year, for sure" from someone who's been absent every year running for almost a whole goddamn decade. And who wants to wait on someone like that, really?
Sony fucked up. Plain and simple. You can't even use the "we're waiting for TGS" excuse, because the Japanese are more concerned with mobile games than anything else. Consoles and their AAA titles are still alive and well in the West, and when you consider that wowing those audiences can provide fiftyfold (is that even a word - fuck it, it is now) the sales number compared to the Japanese market at the very
least, and not advertising something long-awaited and totally unique is a very poor choice on multiple counts.
I wrote a cblog a few months back about this game, and I had hope. I was full of it. Just this Saturday, I recorded an episode of Radio Destructoid where I talked about how The Last Guardian
was the only thing I was looking forward to from E3 2014, and then heard live
during recording that it was cancelled. I reacted with "that's hype, just give it a few minutes" with the confidence only reserved for some sort of religious zealot. Then, minutes later, as if ordained by heaven itself, the tweet arrived. I said something along the lines of "the true believer is rewarded for their faith." It was a joke, of course. But, like all jokes, there was an edge of truth that allowed that blade to cut the way it did. I felt utterly justified. Righteously so.
Then, tonight, Sony drops the ball. Again. On top of again. On top of again.
I don't know what to say. I don't know what to think. I don't want to give up on this game, something I have such blind faith in thanks to the previous games in the series and the profound effect they have had on me and my life. There are very few "experiences" that I've had playing games - I've had lots of fun, and I've got lots of memories, but very few actual moments that are indelible flashes of remembrance when the word "experiences" pops up.
and Shadow Of The Colossus
are two of those brilliant, shining moments. I was ready for this game. I've been ready for this game. My bags have been packed and I've been waiting patiently. And suffice to say, I've been disappointed for the last time. I will not allow myself to get any more emotionally invested than this point, right here. And to do this, I must cease to care about this game. I have to stop waiting on a friend who will never show up. I have to stop hoping for that moment.
I am officially giving up on The Last Guardian
. This is probably the saddest day I've ever had in this hobby
, and that's out of twenty-eight years
playing video games. This day, right here, is when I watched the purest of videogame hope die
. That's not hyperbole. That's very
And Sony, you giant, sprawling multi-national corporation, you. On the beyond remote off-chance that you're out there reading this, I'd like you to know one thing and one thing only about that hope: you killed it
. With your bare-mother-fucking-hands. Nobody else. Nothing else
. And I am sure as shit that I'm not the only one who feels that way right now.
"But Urrday, it's not like they canceled it." You might as well have, at this point. Stop dicking all of us around and just decide on whether or not you're going to put a bullet in it already. Now you're just being cruel for the sake of being cruel, and if you can't see that, you're far worse than your fans ever thought you were. Just shit or get off the fucking pot.
With that said, I'm going back to the week's E3 coverage. It's going to be interesting if I can muster up the energy to care anymore. I certainly won't get this emotionally invested in a videogame ever
again, that's for sure. This hobby used to be about inspiring that childlike sense of wonder...now, I guess they're more in the business of extinguishing it.
At least there's No Man's Sky
, that's all I'm saying. We know
But, hey, there's always room for some more fucking zombies, right? Right