Disclaimer: This post is kind of dumb. Don't say I didn't tell you so.

I really don't know what the hell is going on with me. The title of this blog is the absolute truth. I feel dumber all the damn time. It's kind of scary, although it's a slow enough process that I barely notice it most of the time. Although, that could just be because I'm becoming dumber. I'm not sure.

Anyway, I've noticed some stuff recently. Specifically that I am a totally different person now compared to when I joined Destructoid. In fact, I'm a completely different person from when I was a teenager. And I don't mean in the usual ways people change when as they become an adult and all that shit. I think it's more rooted in how hectic and fucking insane my day to day life is as a parent, and the fact that my parents seem dumb but really aren't makes me think I'm beginning to turn into them. I'm not dumb, but I sure as hell probably appear dumb to a lot of smart people. That's my parents in a nut-shell, at least in my view. Our minds just don't work as quickly as they used to. At least, it seems that way. Maybe it's hereditary or some shit.



Now, let's tie this into games so you all can stop typing your "Go the hell to livejournal or myspace" comments. I know I'd be typing that shit by now. Anyway, I realized something the other day. I used to be a big JRPG fan when I was a teen. I could sink 100 hours into the latest Square Enix masterpiece and love every minute of it. In fact, I even shunned a lot of shooters and action games back then for whatever stupid reasons. Probably just to be a bit different. Who knows?

But now? I don't even touch 99% of JRPGs. I don't consider them anymore when it comes to buying games. This is surely at least in part because of the overall staleness of the genre, but it's also because they're so fucking long and complicated. That type of stuff just doesn't hold my interest long enough anymore.

What makes this even more confusing is that I've tried recent JRPGs and enjoyed the hell out of them. For some reason I seemingly lose interest out of nowhere. I move on quickly to something else, usually something that allows me to instantly and quickly murder or hurt people or creatures of some kind. It's because of my limited time to play that I can no longer appreciate the slow burn of a good JRPG.

It's not just JRPGs. I currently have a copy of Brutal Legend in my possession but I have yet to play it. Whenever I think of the Stage Battles and other stuff I decide against playing it, as if it's not worth the effort to learn the game. Some of you may say that it is in fact not really worth the effort, but I haven't even tried it! It's stuff like this that I hate. I can identify that there is something different, but I'm not quite sure why. I know I should just play the fucking game, but I still can't bring myself to turn it on.



Instead I can only appreciate stuff like shooters and action games that provide instant gratification. These games also tend to have simpler and in my opinion crappier plots than other genres, but that's OK by me for some reason. I don't even mind bad stories and in fact sometimes I completely skip cut-scenes and plot-related bullshit just to get to the action.

Besides this, I find myself constantly at a loss for words. Lately I struggle to even write a decent comment after reading a blog on Destructoid. I want to say something, but nothing is clicking up there. I just say "fuck it" and move on, like it's a waste of time or something. It's not worth the 30 seconds of thinking necessary to figure out what I'd like to say. Instead I just say either "Good blog dude" or nothing at all.

I have no explanation and don't feel like thinking of a real one beyond what I've said, so I'll skip the expected "wrap-up" paragraph where I'm supposed to say shit like "Maybe it's just the stress in my life" or something like that. Fuck that, it's far too much work. So that's it, that's all you get from me. Sorry, but I'm too busy (and dumb) to come up with something better. My kids need to go to bed.

Also, I find it funny that I'm finally almost done with Fallout 3. I started playing it a year ago. Strange I actually stuck with that game all this time. At least that was a smart decision, huh?

Also, also, I know many of you are itching to drop a quick "You're becoming dumber? You already were a dumb-ass" comment. It's OK, I opened myself up to that with my title alone. I love you guys.

P.S. This isn't some retarded joke, it's just me rambling like an asshole. But it's somewhat serious. Yeah.