I’ve been really busy, but I figured that right now would be a good time to tell everyone what I have been doing. Two weeks ago my mom started chemotherapy for breast cancer. I was assuming the worst that week but it turned out to be not as bad as I originally thought it would be. My mom was only unable to do anything for like two days, but after that first week she was able to go back to work. Last Friday my mom had her most recent checkup and the doctor said that the cancer is shrinking which is great news.

I didn’t really take the first week well though, at the end of each day I would just be really depressed in my room being unable to sleep because I was so worried about my mom. I know that I really don’t have a reason to worry because they caught the cancer early enough, but it doesn’t seem to help. But don’t worry I’ve gone to the doctor and they gave me some anti-depressants for that. I know they don’t completely solve my problems but they do just enough for me to get through the day without losing my mind.

But enough about that, let me talk about games now. The usual first person shooter hasn’t been doing it for me. So I’ve been going through my game collection and I’ve been going through phases where I will play only my virtual console games on my wii, or I will play a couple of the RPGs that I have for my ps2. I haven’t been able to just go play one game and stick with it. But just recently I’ve been really hooked on a game that I bought a couple of days ago.



I don’t know why I like this game, but I just dig it a lot. I thought I would take a chance on it after seeing the main page post on Destructoid on the price drop. I figured that since I got both Persona 3 and 4 based solely on the fact that I kept reading about them on Destructoid that this game has to be just as good, and god damnit I was on the money about that. I got the last copy at Gamestop too with the plushie. So I would like to thank the people of D-toid for talking about Devil Summoner 2 so much that it ended with me buying it.



I also downloaded Turtles in Time:Reshelled on XBLA. I feel really dumb getting it because I didn’t really enjoy playing it after the one time I completed it. It just doesn’t feel the same compared to the SNES version that I know and love. Oh well, there’s always Splosion Man to keep me busy if I wanna play some XBLA.


Again I would like to thank everyone in the D-toid community for their kind words and recommendations for different games or movies that I should check out. The next game I got coming in the mail this week is a new copy of The Red Star for ps2 so I’m hoping that will be good.

Going through the last week was pretty hard. I don’t know how but I know that I will have to do things differently. Right now I am doing fine because I have been keeping myself busy keeping my mind off of my mom having cancer and going through all of the doctor appointments. What I have been thinking though lately is that if I should go to school next semester. I am leaning toward not going this semester obviously to take care of my mom. I figure if I can’t focus on playing a game there’s no way I would be able to focus on school work. Also in my college life I have gone to the part where I can’t just take regular bull crap classes and actually have to major into something which I never really figured out what I wanted to do since all of this stuff happened. I think the most I can do right now is just get a part time job and work in between my mom’s doctor appointments.


My mother’s birthday is coming up next week on the 27th and I have been thinking of what I could get her because as it looks right now her surgery is probably going to happen sometime this week so she we will be recovering at home when that day comes. The best thing I could think of is getting a subscription to Netflix so we would be able to watch the streaming movies on my 360 with her. But I want to just give her more than that; I want to get her something real special. I’ve been talking with a lot of people; ask for suggestion from my friends and even people on Destructoid. What I have been thinking of getting my mom but I wasn’t really sure of was getting a certificate to a Day Spa. Someone also said I could like make something for my mom like a collage of pictures which I don’t think would be a good thing for her because I bought her a digital picture frame for her last Christmas which already has a crapload of pictures in it. *Sigh* I don’t know I think I will be able to think of something by the end of the week.

I haven’t given up on video games completely though guys they still can be fun for me. I played a bunch of Mega Man X and original Mega Man collections on the ps2. I am still surprised on how awesome Mega Man is still today for me. I’m going through fallout 3 a little bit but what I would like to make a couple more comments on is Ys Book I and II.



I never really played anything T16 related at all back in the day so when I downloaded Ys Book I and II on my wii I came to this as a brand new game. I was really surprised on how the music was, for me I think it’s just as good as any of the music from any of the SNES rpgs. The only thing I had problems getting used to in the game is the combat. There isn’t an attack button at all you basically just run into monsters which is beyond weird to me, once I got used to the way you fight I really got into it. I had a lot of fun just plowing into dudes and leveling up super fast. But ya, all in all though I am really happy that I got this game on virtual console.



I’ve received a lot of responses from quite a bit of people from Destructoid community and the one message I get the most is this “Be positive,”. I’m going to try whatever I can to get to an optimistic attitude and staying there. So I will leave you guys with a picture of me and my dog trying to channel some Chad Concelmo.


That's me about 5 minutes after I got out of bed.





(I also would like to add that I made a link to my previous post if you would like to send any well wishes to me or my mother on the About Me section, if you have already posted on there feel free to do it again if you feel like it I don't mind.)

Man yesterday was really rough on me and my mother. At least we really know it's cancer. Anyways I came up with the idea with making a designated post for anyone to post their support for my family. Feel free to send any Esunas, Remedies, World of Warcraft Paladin Cleanses, etc.... Or if you have any have any game or movie recommendations for me that can help through this really rough time I would very much appreciate it. I saw My Neighbor Totoro the first time last night because someone recommended it to me and it really made me feel better. I will try to just edit this one post as much as I can because I would hate to keep making a new post every day saying "I'm sad =( blah blah blah" I know I haven't really been that vocal in the d-toid community but I would like some more love from you guys because I really need it right now. =(


(I'll more than likely get around to putting a link to this post under my "About Me" part of my profile)

For people who didn't read my last post, my mom is going through a cancer scare. Today at around noon we're gonna get ready to go to the doctor to find out the specifics since we don't know really anything yet. I've been getting even more nervous, scared and sad with each passing hour. I hope that this will stay just a scare but I have to try to be realistic about it. Anyways, playing any sort of game isn't really helping me at all. I'd like to thank all of the people who have sent me their kind words. I even got a PM from Colette which really made my day. I guess all I can really do now is ask you the D-Toid community is to send all of their Esunas and Remedies (That's the item that can cure all ailments right?) to my mom.


Later in the day when we get back I'll edit this post to tell everyone what happened


Update: I thought I might as well just edit this post I'll tell you what I know so far.

*She has a cancer that is about 3cm in size
*It hasn't been been spread to her bones or anything like that
*It possibly went to her lymph nodes
*We don't know what kind of stage it is.


I don't wanna get to much into detail with it. Basically the low down is that what she is cancerous, but we didn't necessarily catch it early or late from what I understand.We have to wait til Friday to find out if the cancer is treatable with Chemo so it can shrink down before surgery or if it can't be. I think that it is the way I understand it right now. I think I might make a post or something specifically for people wanna send their Esuna Wishes or whatever to us. /sigh Jeez it has been a really rough day.

Well, a lot of things have changed for me since the last time I made a c-blog post on here. My mother has been going through a cancer scare for the past couple of weeks. It hasn’t been officially diagnosed yet but the doctor has said that her chances are 90% that she has it and as I understand it we will know the specifics later this week. I was planning on transferring to a different college and was trying to look for a job but I’ve put all of that to a halt. I have enough money saved up that finding a job isn’t that big of a deal right now so at least I got one good thing going for me right now. My mother seems to be doing ok with it right now, but I’ve become really depressed about it. I feel so helpless, I don’t know what to do. The only thing I do know if I keep to myself I’m gonna lose my mind, so that’s why I am making this c-blog post right now.



Many of the games I’ve played regularly don’t really do it for me because I constantly worry about my mom. I have though discovered a couple of games that I really enjoy that I probably wouldn’t have played due to my special circumstances.


1 vs 100 Live






Ever since the beta came out in the US, I have actually played this game with my mom. I’m so happy I got my mom into a game because the last game that she ever played that she got into was Tetris on the original Gameboy.




Tales of Monkey Island




I never was a big into the adventure game genre. But after hearing from a lot people especially on Destructoid about awesome and funny the Monkey Island series is, I decided to give it a shot and got my hands on Episode 1. So far I really enjoy it and find it to be quite funny. I feel like playing something like this would be really beneficial for me due to the situation I’m in and I will probably go and get the Monkey Island Special Edition on XBLA.





Other than playing these games I haven’t been really doing much of anything. I hope I can get some good news later this week because going through this stuff is really painful. I constantly worry because my father died in the 80s and I don’t have any brothers and sisters. I hope that no one else has to deal with this kind of stuff. All I know right now is that playing the games that are highly recommended by the D-toid or listening to the D-toid podcasts (especially RetroforceGO!) that I can at least forget my problems, even if it is for just a little bit.

(I've been hiatus for awhile and I wasn't sure if I should make another introduction post or just make another regular post I decided to go with the regular post. So to everyone who probably doesn't know who I am here is my original introduction here.)



Discovering the awesomeness of Atlus.


I’ll be honest, I never really paid attention to anything that Atlus put out. What got it started for me was when I got a copy of Persona 4 when I went to Gamestop and bought used copies of Okami and Yakuza 2. It was one of those buy 2 used games get one for free deals at the time. I was extremely surprized on how much I liked the game when I first tried it out. I definitely had one of those “WHY DIDN’T I PLAY THIS EARLIER?!” moments. So I immediately went back to Gamestop and got the last copy of Persona 3 Fes that I’ve been playing ever since. I just would like the thank D-toid community as a whole because if I wasn’t a regular on this site, I probably wouldn’t of played these games.



Finding Good Deals.


Games are expensive as hell, the last couple of games I payed the full 50-60 dollars in price for I’ve greatly regretted. But lately I have been doing a lot better finding some really good stuff on the cheap. Here’s the best deal I’ve found on a game.




Viewtiful Joe 2.99

It was the cheapest game I’ve ever bought that still have the case and the instructions with it as well. Other stuff I’ve found has been new copies of the original Katamari for $9.97 and FF8 and 9 $16.99 directly from Amazon.




Right about when I was done with this post I came across the newest Hyadain song on youtube. I present to you Cyan's Theme.