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[I'm pretty spent after a day of being down, but I've been playing the crap out of Warframe, it's good stuff. Anyway, with the not-so-stunning revelation that SE won't be bringing their heavy hitters; Kingdom Hearts 3 and Final Fantasy XV to E3 this year - Christ that's a lot of numbers - I figured I'd write up a quick blog on my thoughts about the company that rarely approach a situation with grace and dignity. Hold your mind buns wide open and let your brain-orifices relax, I'll be gentle.]

For those of you not keeping up to date on, well, dates; this is 2014. If you've heard anything about the development of a certain Final Fantasy game in it's fifteenth iteration, you'll know that it was rebranded from Vs.XIII and has been in development hell since the announcement in in or around 2006. Eight years, and other than some 'new' trailers and some very minor gameplay footage, nothing has really come to light about what this game is, what it's about, or why people should care at this point. Kingdom Hearts 3, the long, long awaited sequel to the 2005 predecessor, is having a lot worse treatment. Teased at last years E3, the internet was ablaze with ecstatic fans - who SE then cut down by remarking that it was early in the development process. Fan estimates put the game in the 2017 release bracket...but apathy started to seep in.

This, this was going to be a thing.

This same apathy is what many have remarked upon in debates about the company that, in eight short years, crippled itself financially, to the point where they had to refurbish an MMORPG they apologised for just to break even and finally, this year in fact, start making some cash. I read comments like 'people bitched for years, they don't bitch so much after the explanation from SE!'...well, your attitude is counterproductive, and your critical thinking skills need work, but you're on the right track. People have begun to stop taking issue with Square's awful treatment of its fanbase. Counting, in the last eight years; a complete deviation from traditional JRPGs for no reason with FF XIII, XIII-2 and XIII-3; Lightning Finally Becomes Her Creator's Wetdream, hyping The World Ends With You only to release an iOS version and claiming 4.5 million Tomb Raider sales was a 'failure', why would they?

If you listen closely, you can hear her creator furiously masturbating - in fact, it's the sound that accompanies her ultimate attack: Wish Fulfillment.

Let's face some facts here; Bravely Default was like a cold, hard dick-slap in the face of every SE executive, because people actually enjoyed it. Some would argue that it isn't a fantastic JRPG...well, once again, an application of critical thinking is necessary to understand why people loved it so. When was the last time that a company synonymous with JRPGs actually put out a traditional JRPG in those eight years? The World Ends With You was the closest thing the consumer got, and that was insanely hard to find. Being starved for a particular genre of entertainment only makes that genre more popular when it finally makes a return. 

This sort of game was deemed 'dead' by SE. Why? Paranoia? Stupidity? Who knows!

In those two instances, what exactly made all the difference? It was the attitude of the audience. Of course, SE executives were amazed at Bravely Default's success, planning, once again, to continue the trend they had long since abandoned for no reason. How does this apply, then, to Kingdom Hearts 3 and Final Fantasy XV's resounding lack of fan outrage? Well, apathy is a strong thing, and it's also a sword that cuts both ways. On the one hand, in the case of Bravely Default; the apathy the audience had for the companies rebranded concept of JRPGs meant that a return was met with a resurgent sense of hope and joy. In the case of the E3 announcement, however? It simply means that people are beginning to get wise to the way SE do business and, as a result, are starting to lose interest entirely - in many ways like Valve's Half-Life 3 situation. People only care so long as they aren't getting jerked about, but in this case? There's been a considerable amount of neglect thrown in the collective faces of the fanbase, and that neglect is making them disinterested. Sure, putting Final Fantasy III on Steam was a great idea, remaster it and sate their hunger, but all you're really doing in that case is reminding people of what your games used to be, versus what they are now. It's unintentional negative reinforcement, and while I've had my issues with the company over the last eight years, many of the more forgiving fans are starting to lose interest in the broken promises from a company that spends more time making expensive, limited game engines and announcing games, than they do actually making them. 

So there's the conundrum; how long do you put up with unnecessary neglect and confusing actions before you pack up shop and move on to pastures new? Has Square Enix really given fans the attention they deserve? Or have the recent developments with Bravely Default and the outright stunning apathy surrounding the lack of Final Fantasy XV and Kingdom Hearts 3 information shown that times are indeed changing, and that the most beloved JRPG creators of the industry are losing touch with their audience? One could argue that XIV's success says otherwise, but let's not forget the outright shambles that game existed in before it's two-million dollar revamp. Missteps on this scale throughout an eight year period have consequences, and whether or not you agree, you've got to admit; nobody really expects Square Enix to show anything at TGS that is in any way significant. Sure we can all live in hope, but the doubt eating away at the back of your mind? That's the effect of eight years of terrible decision making by a company who has more money than sense.

Really, if you want to play a great JRPG from the previous generation, play Lost Odyssey. I love that game more than I can ever say, and it deserves to be praised for how it put every FF game this generation to shame.

[It's late, I'm tired and I've just finished gutting a blog I was considering putting up. I decided against it because it was nothing I haven't said already, so I've decided to do something a little different: I'm migrating some of my favourite reviews from the old site I used to frequent, to the blogs here. This is one of the best reviews I ever did, and it's for a little game called Sleeping Dogs. I hope you enjoy it.]

Sleeping Dogs: Don’t Let This One Lie

Sleeping Dogs is the spiritual successor to the True Crimes series. That’s all you really need to know, other than it was in kind of a development Hell scenario for years. Eventually, Square Enix bought up the right to the game, but not the True Crime name, this Sleeping Dogs, a gritty undercover cop drama set in Hong Kong, was born. Without further stalling for word count and time, let us dig into this most unique of dishes: an open-world crime-based game whose plot and characters are both realistic and worthy of your interest.

The story follows Wei Shen, an undercover cop who has recently moved back from California in order to infiltrate the Triad and take them down from the inside. He must gain the trust of the Triad, work his way up the ladder and obtain enough evidence to take the criminal syndicate down once and for all. Wei’s morals are challenged, however, by his loyalties to his new brotherhood, who, despite being criminals, are honourable and, for want of a better term, good people. This is a pretty simple set up for a story, a kind of classic cop drama that every procedural cop show gets around to eventually. However, what really breaks this game off from the trope is how it handles Wei’s integration to the Triad and how it impacts his instincts as a cop. As the game progresses and Wei is forced to do more and more morally ambiguous or downright violent things, he begins to be haunted with nightmares of the events. As he connects with his fellow gang members, you can feel the game starting to show off a certain duality to Wei’s personality. On the one hand, he knows that when all is said and done, he is a cop, one of the good guys. Yet the allure of this lawless group with their own set of moral codes begins to seep into his ideology, leading him to more readily take an active role within the Triad. The game straddles the line between what is truly right, in this case the law, and what feels right, in many cases, defending those who take care of their own in a cutthroat world. It’s an interesting experience to see a character go through a moral crisis that genuinely disturbs them to their very core the more they experience, and in my mind, the story adds weight by showing Wei’s constant attitude changes, along with just how easily he seemingly fits into this world.

Gameplay is centred on a classic sandbox-orientated game style. There are, of course, the main missions that you do to progress the game’s storyline. There are also cop investigations that take place as the story continues too. Although this does seem linear, the game has a tendency to mix things up an impressive amount. The world has, within it, activities that help raise your ‘Face’ meter; this in turn allows you to wear new, more stylish clothing, and throughout the ten levels available, gives you upgrades to your fighting skills or bonuses to certain things in the world, such as buying vehicles, clothing and the like. There are fight clubs littered throughout the four islands of the game, each can be entered and emerging victorious grants you cash and Face. As missions commence you will also get Cop and Triad XP which then allows you to upgrade abilities that show up in their particular trees, such as new ways to disarm an enemy, or the ability to steal a parked car without setting off an alarm. A slight issue that I have with this is that the Cop shield meter - which fills to three in total - starts off full but then slowly lessens the more property damage you do, people you injure, or, believe it or not: how clumsy you are free running. Oh yes, another staple in Sleeping Dogs is the free-running mechanic, which is actually pretty good. You can scale, slide or mount obstacles by holding down the ‘A’ button, then pressing it again when you’re close enough to the object you wish to manoeuvre. The system is extremely slick, though in some chase scenes it tends to get a bit sticky, which can be frustrating. There are also some noticeable glitches involving some face-missions, which require that you stick to the perimeters the game silents creates, leading to failure if you approach them in any sort of innovative manner. You can also engage in hand-to-hand combat, as guns are not in great supply in Hong Kong, which is all sorts of fun.

The combat system is very Arkham City-esque; with the ‘Y’ button controlling counters, the ‘B’ controlling grabs and the ‘X’ button in charge of hitting things. There are a decent amount of initial moves which you can pull off with the right combos, using upgrades and finding Jade Zodiac Statues throughout the world can help you train and gain more powerful moves and combos. The statues can be handed into the martial arts club, where your sensei will teach you a new move, twelve in total, and allow you to take part in a training mode to get to grips with your new moves.  You can also take part in races, which are fun if you’ve bought new, more powerful bikes or cars. You can explore the waters surrounding Hong Kong and the satellite islands too. Some of the vehicles, however, do require some getting used to, with each having different speeds, handling and tricks to getting the motions just right, as to not mold with an oncoming wall and/or other vehicle. Karaoke is also a big thing in Hong Kong, as you’ll find out when you go on a particular date...which are also pretty important. Dates with important women you meet during the course of the game are beneficial if you want to find all of the lockboxes, statues, health shrines and hack all of the spy cameras to engage in drug busts throughout the city. You also get access to new houses as you complete sections of the game, starting with a small, unpleasant apartment in the less well-off area, to penthouse apartments with massive TVs and other nice things. It may seem like I’m rambling here, but honestly, there’s so much to do within the game itself that it’ll last you for a very, very long time. For example, Face-related missions come up as favours on the map in yellow circles, each with their own quirky objectives. One could have a character ask you to be bad at karaoke to make him look better to a girl he’s on a date with, while another could be helping a guy escape enemy gang territory. For god’s sake, you can even hijack trucks full of money by jumping from you vehicle to the back of that truck...I mean, in the car, the ‘A’ button is only used for that! This game has everything you could ask for, and more, as I think I’ve made the point extremely clear now.

Graphically, the game doesn't shine so brightly; I mean, there’s a lot of sheen that reflects light, but not purposefully. The character models don’t look terrible, but you’ll be fighting the same guys over and over again because there’s only really four classes of enemies: normal, brawler, heavy and boss. The world itself is actually very well detailed though, with big buildings off in the distance, to insanely beautiful skylines and some pretty amazing Hong Kong architecture. Still, the game looks good, just not fantastic, but given the sheer scale of the world map itself, I can see why graphics had to take a hit, it’s just a pity that some character models look semi-rendered sometimes, and the lip syncing is visibly off at very obvious moments. Still, it’s well detailed for the scale of it, and it doesn’t ruin the enjoyment of the game, instead giving it a few quirks.
Sound wise, we’ve got a strong set of voice actors and some genuinely incredible oriental scores, mixed with a variety of radio stations, which gives the game some of the most impressive sound displays I’ve ever heard. Seriously, this is coming from the guy who plays Skyrim with the sound turned off, listening to music and/or podcasts in the background. Wei’s voice is an excellent blend of Asian and American, with other characters sounding exactly how you’d expect them to sound as residents of Hong Kong. There are some amazing voice actors at work here, giving it their absolute all when it comes to their performances. Even little moments where characters become bi-lingual with even a few words is an interesting take on communication, and really adds to the atmosphere and story that the game is putting forward. The music reflects every situation, it hits the notes required for every gut-wrenching scene, or quite reflective moment. It just works as a soundtrack to a game that is so unique in its intentions...the soundtrack is resonant because it complements the world it’s part of and you can’t really ask for better than that.

Overall, Sleeping Dogs is a spiritual successor in every way possible to the True Crimes games of old. This more than makes up for the development trouble the game was having, and in the end, it was worth every moment playing. The compelling story, amazing voice-cast, the music, the gameplay and the world itself make a perfect blend of rich, engaging entertainment. This is a must-have despite some graphical hiccups, some control issues and vehicle learning curves.

The Verdict:



·        Compelling and excellent storyline
·        Wei’s moral issues are conveyed convincingly
·        Voice acting is top-notch
·        World is huge with plenty to do and plenty to explore
·        Soundtrack is excellent
·        Combat is slick and fun
·        XP and upgrade systems mean something in the scheme of the game
·        Collectibles galore


·         Graphically decent but not amazing
·        XP system for Cop upgrades leaves a lot to be desired
·        Face-mission approaches require to-the-letter progression, or glitches commence
·        Free-running, combat and driving can suffer due to some in-game input lag.

WTF? Moment: Mrs. Chu is one badass mother with a Cleaver.

[left][A lot of big issues are finally coming to the fore in the Nintendo world. They seem to be pushing to create new ideas and develop older concepts more than they have before. However, something has been bugging me about the debate involving a playable Zelda, not that I’m against it, I’m 100% for it, but there’s a pretty big pitfall in the idea that I want to address. Shut your eyes and relax your facial muscles...I’m about to blow my load and I don’t want to cost you your eyesight. Goggles will not be provided...sorry]

So here’s the thing, Zelda. People want to play as her, they want to see what a game series would be like from her perspective. And I agree with them on that. But there’s something we have to be aware of, something fundamentally wrong with the title of ‘Zelda’, and something that, through an examination of a pivotal point in Wind Waker, becomes disturbingly clear about the actual name, versus the character: Zelda is a title that immediately gives way to a disempowering of the character.

I know people might not agree, after all, Zelda helps you in several games, including the Wind Waker during the final boss fight. The issue is this; in this game, Zelda wasn’t always Zelda...Zelda was Tetra, and Tetra was awesome.

Tetra’s first appearance shows her as being one of the strongest, most assertive and downright badass iterations of the character we’ve ever seen. She stands as a character who isn’t just on par with Link, she’s more than a match and somewhat more likeable than the Hero of Time. See, she commands and entire pirate crew, all of whom are afraid of her because she’s a force to be reckoned with. She’s got a temper and a sword, she’s powerful and commanding, right from the off. Hell, she outright saves Link. She inherited ship and crew from her mother, yet still earned the place of leader despite her age. Though she seems pretty self-interested, she’s actually a kind-hearted individual, so what isn’t to like about her, really?

You see, Tetra aids an inexperienced Link in assaulting the forces of Ganondorf when his attempt fails. She rescues him over and over again, and does it all using her power as a leader, not of a kingdom that, let’s face it, can’t keep her safe to save their lives, to help Link...and then this leads to the very moment where I found things take an odd turn. Zelda, as a series, had featured the game-titled character many times, but this time around, with Hyrule sunk and the kingdom in ruins, I didn’t think they’d pull the ‘Zelda-card’ quite as poorly as they did here. See, during her rescue of Link, we learn that Tetra is, in reality, a descendant of Zelda. As such, she’s the heir to the Hyrulian family...which is pointless, given the fact that the family is all but dead, and has instead used their talents to become pirates, which is a cool and interesting new take on the world in which the characters are living. However, this discovery leads to the utter and complete sidelining and disempowerment of Tetra, as she is magically transformed into Zelda.

No, I don’t just mean she’s wearing the classic, recognisable clothes...her personality is shattered as a result. The small expression voice clips become more timid, the dialogue becomes more refined and ladylike, her attitude changes to a more, albeit unnecessary, regal air. Why? Because shut up, that’s why. She becomes the old-school Zelda, despite the kingdom not existing anymore, the royal line being irrelevant and the triforce being the only connection to the family lineage that’s left. For all intents and purposes, Tetra is dead, wiped clean by the curse of Zelda...which contradicts what the game told the player: that she is a descendant of Zelda, a member of the royal bloodline, not the actual character. Which leads me to my point: a character who is a descendant of an important character, as hard as it is to believe, is not that character, especially when they’ve been shown to have more individual traits than a generic doll.

Tetra is an independent leader of sorts, to a gang of pirates through succession, as they followed her mother, who passed away, only to be moved under Tetra’s control. They’re her subjects, her army. While the setting may be drastically different, the same basic points apply. Her kingdom is her boat and the seas she moves upon. So why then, did the writers feel they had to shoehorn in the ‘character’ of Zelda, in place of Tetra, and effectively bungle their own message?

Well, as a person who rips on Nintendo any chance he gets, I’d say it was classic Nintendo, being as creatively bankrupt as possible, and shoving in the uninspired character because, hey, it’s the name of the series right? And this character is a descendent right? So that means, though the transition of properties, that Tetra IS Zelda...right?

Wrong. This is why the series needs to change. This is why a playable character, a descendent of Zelda, would be pretty awesome; because Nintendo couldn’t cop out and move the player’s character into a state of non-agency. They’d be forced to make an interesting character, develop her, and not just make her another ‘Zelda’, through some pretty shoddy reasoning and magical crap that isn’t fooling anyone. You see, Link is the easy-way-out. He’s a blank slate, sometimes he has a family and friends, but he’s always the same, always with the same fate; to rescue the princess and stop Ganon or the equivalent evil-doer. This also makes him predictable, shallow and unappealing. We see Dark Link, but what does he really represent? How evil Link could be? How did something like this come to be? Does Link, as a character, have doubts about his fate? Does he, at times, feel cheated that his life is taken away so he can fulfil some frigging prophetic fight with an unkillable demi-god?  We never know, just that there is a Dark Link, and he’s bad, and because of...stuff.

That last example conveys precisely what I’m talking about here. Nintendo think players want a blank slate character because it makes them imprint personally on the story...but after dozens of Zelda games, who actually buys into that anymore? This is archaic thinking, it’s creatively bankrupt...it’s playing it safe. The same can be said of Tetra’s sudden and somewhat insulting character change. She simply becomes another person altogether, she doesn’t retain her traits, she becomes Zelda. This is not how you write a story, not matter what angle you’re using, eliminating the character’s personal traits and replacing them with familiar ones because you, as a writer, aren’t able to expand on an original idea is nothing short of playing it safe, and conveying how poor your writing skills truly are. Instead of moving the story forward with the new character they had, Nintendo flipped the default setting and made the game too familiar...and familiarity is doing more harm than good to fantastic characters and concepts.

So in summation, I hope that we get to play a Zelda game where the title character is the protagonist...so long as they don’t act like Zelda. Something akin to Tetra would be acceptable, but I think it’s time we let the stereotypical Zelda characteristics rest for a while. The series almost got it right with Wind Waker, for the time at least, and if Nintendo could just make a game where the descendent of Zelda, not some generic princess character herself, could be the protagonist, I think we’d be onto a winning formula. They’ve admitted that they need to change or die...this is the best way they can do it, by avoiding the pitfalls of the previous games, and making a character in the same vein as the character of Zelda, without resorting to pretty unappealing decimations of character traits that defined the character.[/left]

[Settle down, it’s not what it sounds like. Seriously, I’m not even joking, if you came here with your anger, ready to rumble, relax, it’s just a very dickish move on my part to try to draw in a readership that can look at what I’m about to write – also, worth noting that I brought lube this time, so the message can slide right into your knowledge holes...good and smooth]

Right, let’s get down to business here: female avatars in Multiplayer modes. I know the Jimquisition tackled these issues quite a bit, but I want to approach it from the perfect world view:
Female avatars in Multiplayer shouldn’t be an issue...and why is that, you ask, fists shaking in ever-growing anger to a possibly sexist answer? Well fear not, it’s because, when it comes down to it...we should really just have those avatars in the games. Yeah.

It’s simple, right? In a perfect world we’d all be able to choose our genders in videogames, customise them to whatever degree we wanted, and make them our own. Assassin’s Creed has been doing it for three games, so why is it so hard to do it for other games? The latest comes from Battlefield 4, where the developer mentioned that female characters wouldn’t be available in the multiplayer mode, despite the fact that there are rumours of an alleged female character in the gripping (trying to keep a straight face) singeplayer mode. So why not just migrate it to MP, add voices, fiddle with the hitboxes (of which BF has had issues before) and ship the game?

Well I have an issue with this, mostly because people are calling it ‘unimportant’ that in a first person setting, it doesn’t matter who you’re shooting, gender-wise. I’d have to disagree there. A little diversity goes a long way, and given EA’s inability to actually garner any fan-love or favour over the last couple of years, the little things in a game this big would make for some interesting changes, even aesthetically. This is to the benefit of a series that needs, now more than ever, to differentiate itself from the pack of brow-gray, gritty and ‘realistic’ shooters on the market (since I’m not seeing a BF 2143 on the cards).

People have also put it down to discomfort with violence against women...eh no. Given the reaction to Tomb Raider, that’s not the issue. Besides, as Jim has covered, Blacklight: Retribution can offer gender swaps...they’re not ideal, but they get the job done. Halo, since I believe 3, has offered the player the ability to swap genders, only really introducing model changes in Reach. In the AC series, all the models are virtually the same in terms of height, hitboxes and the like, so there’s no issue there.

The monetary value has also been raised against this...no. Just no. Right now, EA cannot afford not to gobble up the scraps of good will flaking down around them like the dandruff from an old man’s unwashed, crusty ballsack, they need something, anything, to show that they’re willing to play ball. (not my best explanation given where that sentence went) EA have no issue pouring money into pathetic attempts of games – I’m looking at you, TOR – and if anything, the simple fact remains...it’s 2013, and we’re having a discussion over something that, by all right, should have been in the multiplayer from the getgo. So it requires a little more work, a bit of extra cash...it’d be worth it in the long-run...which is seemingly a term lost on publishers of this generation.

I guess what I’m getting at is: placing female avatars in a game’s MP mode like BF4 shouldn’t be that big a deal, because it should have been done already. The situation in the industry is dire, and someone needs to take even the smallest steps forward into the puddle of female representation in order to begin the ripple that will lead to the big wave, breaking the banks of poor, anti-female ideologies that have pervaded an industry which has been paralyzed by a fear it wrought itself.

I’m by no means a feminist, I kinda have plenty of those influences, but people are starting to talk about these kinds of things with raised eyebrows and questioning tones – I think it’s about time publishers step up and start representing for the female avatar, lord knows, we’re overdue getting back to the early 2000s.

[This is my first D-toid blog, I'm not quite sure how to do...things and stuff, but I'll learn eventually; so grit your teeth and bite the pillow, I forgot the lube and this might cause some discomfort! Also; any tips on how to add images would be appreciated, I'm not exactly good at this stuff, which isn't entirely my fault, I personally blame my college assignments]

Recent events and the growing debate over Nintendo not just as a company, but as a developer, have thrown me back into my youth, where I was bright eyed and full of optimism and ready to believe that Nintendo could do no wrong.

In 2005, I was reading any Nintendo-related magazine I could get my hands on, lapping up information on new games and the newest consoles that were coming out so damn soon that I was giddy to get my hands on them. The Nintendo DS was just around the corner, with previews and specs showing that this would be one of the greatest handhelds ever created - with two screens, one of which was a touch screen? Holy shit, I was close to wetting myself...it was a great time to be a Nintendo fan.

The Early Years & The Honeymoon:

You see my love affair with the company started when I was five, and we have a SNES and a Gameboy in the house. I loved playing Zelda: Link's Awakening...hell; it was one of the first games I had ever finished. Killer Instinct on the SNES was another one of my favourites...though I was young, I still understood that this was all fiction, it wasn't real (take that 'videogames corrupt the young' fuckers), but I still loved what these consoles were giving me.

As I got older, I really got into the Pokémon series...for god's sake; I had a Pikachu Gameboy Colour. Pokémon Silver, to this day, is still my most loved game of the series. After that it was a Gameboy Advance, and a GameCube, which locked down my love for the company forever, in a way that I never thought, could be broken. The GameCube was on sale in a local Smyth's Toys; it came with a free copy of Pokémon Colosseum, but I slowly built up my collection...I say slowly, because getting games was difficult. Here in Ireland, the best you could hope for was a small game shop that sold them second hand, or a local GAME or Smyth's that had a limited stock of the 'platinum' titles. I hunted down as many titles as I could; the Metroid Prime series, Star Fox Assault, Star Wars Rouge Squadrons 1 and 2, X-men Legends 1 and 2, Super Smash Bros. Melee, Legend of Zelda: Wind Waker...god damn they were some awesome games. I even got to play Metal Gear Solid: Twin Snakes. I honestly had nothing but devotion to the company I loved, I was under its spell, and couldn't escape, I was bordering on obsessed...I was a fanboy.

It was on the advent of the Wii launch in '06 that I really felt the anticipation growing in me. I had always wanted to see gaming climb to new heights, and it was my side, Nintendo, that were taking the world towards the next generation of games. Motion controls were going to change everything I could ever think of in gaming. We were going to see games become more interactive, more precise and better than they had ever been. I was on the verge of seeing history change.

My parents had gotten me one for Christmas, a present I thought I'd never get, seeing as the consoles were selling out everywhere. It was amazing, and I was happier than I ever thought I could be. I stayed up late at night to play it, and when I couldn't, it was the DS that grabbed my attention. (on a side-note, this makes it sound like I spent all of my time playing games...I didn't. I had other things going on; these are just my deluded happy memories)

Love is Blind...Marriage is a Pair of Glasses:

It was late '08 then, when the rose-tinted glasses shattered, of which some of their remains lodged in my eyes that I finally realised just what I had supported. Now around this time, I had tried to get a copy of The World Ends With You for my DS and my Wii hadn't seen that much use (story of my life, right...see what I did there?) in a few months, with No More Heroes tickling my fancy, but Super Smash Bros. Brawl doing nothing for me that Melee hadn't done better. TWEWY was nowhere to be seen, but I still liked the games I had, but something in me started to rebel against my love of Nintendo. It was around that time that we had bought an Xbox 360, and though it had given me a greater insights into games that I could play (having owned the original Xbox but having few games for it) I thought it was pretty neat bit of hardware, with Crackdown and Burnout Revenge being my preferred games at the time. I figured I was just looking for a better game on the Wii, something that really made me feel like I'd enjoy it all again.

Although Wii Fit was given to me as a present, and I thought it was fairly fun seeing as I enjoy being active when I can, it never really filled the space that had begun to open, you could say, perhaps, in my soul. While the games still came for the Wii in dribs and drabs, Mario Kart Wii was pretty entertaining but rarely seen much action given my new college timetable, I still felt that nothing had made me feel the same way as when I first cracked that console box open and was nearly overwhelmed by my joy.

In '09, my hazy feelings were made clear by the release of the Wii Motionplus controller attachment. It broke my heart and made me feel so betrayed that - looking back on it now - it may have been an overreaction. Still, it pissed me off to no end. This idea, so pure and so amazing, the future of fucking gaming...needed an extra thing on the end of it to make it 'work better' - like it should have worked in the first place? At this stage, the Wii hadn't been used for a little over four months, I was at my wits end with it, and I had finally started buying some 360 games, and some for PC, to sate my need for entertainment.

...Ok, so maybe I was going through  pretty shitty time too, and this betrayal was some sort of hate-anchor I could cling on to so that I wouldn't go crazy, but given the feelings I had at the time, and the life spent defending Nintendo; shielding them from any and all criticism...to feel left out in the rain while they dined on fine foods, drank the most decadent of wine and laughed at the misfortunes of their loyal fanbase they had refused to invite in, as their cool, new friends; the casual market chuckled and threw money at them for entertainment, dug into my heart like a fucking knife.

Other than The Last Story, a game by Mistwalker who I support as best I can, given that Lost Odyssey is possibly the best game I've played this generation, my Wii hasn't been touched - yet again, left to collect dust next to the original Xbox. It was on that day that I realised: Nintendo didn't care about me. Or anyone that wasn't buying into their ploys to make money. Metroid Prime Hunters, the game that had a fucking demo on the DS, came out a little over a year following the DS' release. TWEWY was never stocked in my local stores, was too expensive online, and forced me to seek out a friends copy. It still remains a damn fine title, but one that holds a bittersweet place in my heart. Xenoblade Chronicles wasn't stocked anywhere I could easily get to, or buy for a humane price. Skyward Sword...I never touched it, Motionplus support was a deal-breaker, for myself and many of my friends, who were die-hard Zelda fans. Murumasa: The Demon Blade? Couldn't find it. For all intents and purposes, Nintendo has abandoned their consoles for get-rich-quick games like Wii-Fit, or Rayman Raving Rabbids games, Mario Galaxy or Mario Party...I hadn't a hope of collecting games that I really wanted anymore, because Nintendo had seen fit to wipe the table clear of any interests I may have had, forcing me to look at them in a light that made them seem ugly, petty and wrong.

The Nintendo that I had grown up with, had aided my creativity and my imagination, the Nintendo that had given me hope for the future of games, that they were going to be leading the pack in terms of innovation and fun...have produced two consoles that will only ever sell well if they drop their prices. Times are tougher now than they were back then. We're all feeling the pinch...I just know that no Nintendo console of this generation will enter my home, today, or in the future, unless I see something, anything, that gives me hope in their vision again.

What Have I Learned?

I can't think of a good way to collect all of my thoughts and conclude with some insightful, optimistic message that might lead to a brighter future. I cannot. This is, seemingly, an irreparable situation, there are no happy endings here...perhaps it can be put down to a learning experience, and insofar as I take that train of thought, there was some point to this. The Wii and DS treatment don't erase the past and all the good times I've ever had...but they feel, in a way, tainted. Who knows, maybe one day there'll be an olive branch extended to bring me back into the fold, but until then, this just seems like a situation that became wrong for me, relationships are, after all, two-way streets, and if it's not right for one, it sure as hell shouldn't be right for the other.