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Hey gang! Last week, I challenged some community members to tell us why Destructoid's community is so important to them. Don't let them be the only ones! Tell us how you feel in your own blog. -- Kauza]
I still remember my first blog here because, at the moment of its conception, both it and I were an unfocused, terrific mess. Without any introduction, I wrote some slap-shod attempt-at-humor post about making
Red Dawn a video game. It was nonsense. I didn’t know what I was doing, but I did have the free time to do whatever it was. I had hurled myself at the city of Chicago after college with no money or plans and my stint on D-toid began in the throes of a three month unemployment death spiral.
My entire existence was a rusty sedan stalled in the center of an intersection. I knew two people in the entire city, had no employment, and my bank account groaned like an empty stomach. I was perfectly happy, but stagnant. One particular night, after heating up water in my coffee maker to stir into pre-packaged ramen noodles and watch reruns of Quantum Leap, I was struck with a sudden and desperate sensation. I needed to just
make something. My English major brain was atrophying and a call-to-action in the form of my first monthly musing was the solution.
I came back to the site a few days later, having forgotten about the article I poured hours into, and found it missing. I was enraged and rather slighted. Had my writing been so bad that an editor felt compelled to purge it from the Internet? I typed the title in the search function and, to my surprise, it appeared. But it wasn’t in my blog roll any longer. The link hurled me instead all the way to the front-page. A year and a few months later, I’ve returned to that hollowed ground twelve times.
My life is together now, more than I’d expected I could get it to be, and though I can’t give all the credit to the Dtoid Community, I can say that it was as much an element as anything else. After a string of months being only a person by technicality, having something I wrote ‘published’ was the shot in the arm everyone needs at some point in their life. Beyond that self-indulgence, simply being welcomed into Xbox Live friends lists and twitter feeds across the internet is just as triumphant of a reward.
In writing this post, I found myself repeatedly deleting statements like that. Everything I was writing kept ending up sounding like a backhanded boast. Even small anecdotes sounded self-congratulatory in a roundabout way. I tried hard to write around it for a moment, to highlight the site and not myself, but I realized something in resisting what came so naturally.
The sheer fact that I can’t talk about the D-toid Community without citing a steady parade of incredible opportunities I’d been given, the continuing recognition for my work, and the never-ending stream of writing support and criticisms I’ve received is a fact that’s telling in itself. You can’t talk about being a member of the C-Blogs without bragging about something. By simply being here, it’s inescapable that you’ll have something to humblebrag about.
Whether it’s winning a Dtoid bobble head simply for writing a haiku or watching 700 gamers silently try and set me on fire with their minds for getting to walk to the front of a line at an industry event, say “Hey, Nick Chester sent me,” and then stroll in to play
Marvel vs. Capcom 3 months before it’s release. Perhaps it’s getting strangers messaging you on nearly every form of social media to wish you compliments on a front-page’d article or the near equal-joy of finding a simple comment screencapped in an edition of Commentoid. It could be discovering your posts being discussed at lengths upon aggregator sites and forums or the utter joy of settling in for six hours of making quips and rap lyrics with earnest friends on a weekly Friday Night Fights.
These are my experiences - the triumphs Destructoid has given me - but they could be anybody’s. I’m no one special. I don’t know any secret connections or have any undisclosed tips. I’m just another C-Blogger who started writing simply because I wanted to write. I wrote for myself, for my own sanity, and to see something finished. Just doing so was it’s own reward, but the community decided that was insufficient. Destructoid whisked a year and half’s worth of success and achievement my way simply for being here.
Beyond presents and events, I can honestly say my writing has improved too, an acquisition that will go on long after the site goes down when Skynet comes online. If you climb on board, your writing will do the same. Be it through simple practice or the thoughtful comments of the other members. If you try and try hard, your success will be rewarded with front-pages and faps. Though it may seem like hurling your words into a void at first, stay with it, because the comments will come and the camaraderie with it. As CaptainBus said so succinctly, “… enjoy the process. If you start out and expect to get a wave of comments and faps, you typically end up disappointed.”
The Internet world sees Destructoid as a source of good news and original features with a strong current of personal humor. They’re right, of course, but there is so much more to it. The community is a welcoming place for young writers and advanced wordsmiths to cut their teeth and sharpen them all the same in one unified place, at an equal level. There are those disinterested in writing all together, who post blogs here just to share an opinion and that's just as welcomed. What matters above all is that you want to share something, because this is place where people want to see it.
If you’re reading this and you haven’t posted or haven’t found that reason to keep posting, know that it is something of immense worth. Once you’ve submitted that first blog, provided you haven’t butchered the basic style, you’ll receive a welcoming hello from Elsa followed by a virtual decoder ring courtesy of Occams Electric Toothbrush. Then, as you post further, you’ll have frequent critics and commenters like knutaf, CelicaCrazed, mrandydixon, garethxgod, Steezy XL, and so many others. You'll get a chance to read a constant flow of great blogs, from the likes of Stevil and Wrenchfarm, to name a few. With your name circulating, perhaps LawofThermalDynamics will arrange an interview with you. Maybe one of the Commentoid crew will feature your wit or a C-Blog recapper will feature your work. Even still, there are FNFs to be enjoyed, libraries of backlogs to be read, and things to be mused.
Here, we see success and we see friendship come from nothing more than participation. We play games, as do thousands of others, but here we make stuff just to see it made. We talk about what we do because by doing so we legitimatize and it and improve upon it. We are harsh critics and dedicated creators. We are resolute commenters and fanatical players. We are a community. We are Destructoid.
As always, thanks for sharing!
I don't want to be accused of overshare, but I was considering leaving Destructoid. I have no aversion to writing -- in fact, I'm an avid author -- but I felt as if I was trying to join a closely-knit circle of people which had already been officially sealed to all newcomers. I felt, in short, like an impostor -- like I was trespassing on property I had no right to be trespassing on. This blog post has filled me with a certain quiet optimism. We'll see how it goes from here.
Sorry 'bout the overshare, guy.
Don't be afraid to overshare. That's definitely not frowned upon around here. At least I don't think so anyway.
You better stay. You're one of very few people who actually is part of the community - You don't post a blog, then leave for a couple of months. I always enjoy reading your comments.
I don't want to alarm you Ben, but you have a way with words. Any overflow of confidence you experience is completely justified. Here's hoping you get a writing job soon. Great blog!
Also, not to humblebrag, but I totally built that Mr. Destructoid Halo map. It's pretty rad.
And possibly make outs.
You are a true blacksmith of words, forging blogs fit for kings in your smithing smith of smithy.....ROCK ON!!!
That was a compliment! Don't hurt me!
Er, yeah. Also, if all these (much deserved) compliments enlarge your head and you find your hats no longer fit, I would, from the benefit of my experience, recommend fashioning a jaunty cap from stretchy sweat pants. In fact, if you're interested, I have tips for a full sweat pant ensemble. Let me know.
This will be front paged.
This should be cannon.
A human moment in the vast digital sea of anonymity.
My transcendant man heart is near bursting. Thank you forever for this.
Continue your writing, and I will continue on reading. ;)
I love D-toid. I'm not always the most active member, but rest assured I am always lurking. Lurking like your creepy neighbour who lives in that bungalow down the road and doesn't have any kids but still hangs a tire swing in his tree on the front lawn.
This post resonated with me. I was (still am) doing the post-grad limbo thing and as weird as it may sound, having my first monthly musing promoted meant a lot to me. It was like "hey, other people get me!" and that is not something I get to feel very often. I love to read the C-blogs and absorb the brain drippings from so many awesome people that somehow, against all odds, are tuned to the same cosmic frequency as me.
You're the best writer (that's not getting paid for it) on the site. Destructoid wouldn't be as interesting without your writing, especially your 'experiments' in playing games in the most painful manner possible. Dtoids a wonderful place to share it.
I still hate you for meeting Kim Deal though. Never gonna let that go, I'm afraid. ;)
"Much love, bitchfags! xxx"
@mrandydixon - Haha, I enjoy that statement is beginning to become a meme. But, seriously, let's not forget the real important issue. GIVE YOUR INTERN A RAISE, HAMZA!
@Elsa - I concur, so much. You're a lynchpin of this community! Keep it up!
@Lord Death of Murder Mountain - I think the response below says it all. I have terrible comment discipline myself, and sometimes forget to post things even after I've already composed something in my head to say. But do know that I've read nearly everyone of your posts, fapped when I could, and it's for good reason. You've got chops, my friend. Don't leave us!
@Corduroy Turtle - I concur your statement about feeling welcomed. Even though I'm ashamed of my nonsense introduction to the site, I still quickly felt at home following those two and their benevolence. Thanks for the support, dude. It means a lot from someone with good taste in practically everything.
@Hamza YO YOU RAD TOO, BRO.
@Jesse Cortez - I so completely want to go to PAX Prime. I'm making a strong effort this year to make it happen. I've written up a hug/make-out IOU in advance.
@LawofThermaDynamics - Ja! Wunderbar!
@TonicBH - No time better than right the hell now! If you check out the popular blogs sort, you'll find that there is such a spectrum of blogs that get fapped. Serious analytical stuff, reviews, opinion rants, comedic write-ups, parodies, what's happening in my life blogs. People don't like to read one thing in particular, the like it all as long as it has one thing in common. Whoever wrote but in the time.
I took a short read through your blog roll and I recall your work! It's good! And now that I've called you out on the fact, I WANT MORE.
@manasteel88 - That's the sexiest thing anyone has ever said to me.
@The Sama - Haha, that's a true story. We trash with some wit. You should hear what we're like on FNF. In fact, you SHOULD. COME PLAY.
@HandsomeBeast - LAME BRO FIST
@Beyamor - Beyamor, coming from one of the most complimented blogger on this site, that is a major compliment. Seriouly. Upon reading this comment, I nearly high-fived a stranger. It's best I didn't. His palm would have exploded from the enthusiasm.
@Occams - Expect a bountiful USPS package of nonsense and gifts soon, friend.
@SteezyXL - Oh, please. Mr. Pony was my father.
But, man is that something great to hear. I sure like when people like my stuff, but if my self-indulgent ramblings have get your imagination jump-started, well that just feels...
@Wrenchfarm - Wrench! I love your shit. I'm always pumped to see one of your posts find itself on the blog roll. It's akin to the feeling of spotting a new issue of Thunderbolts on the comic shelves on Wednesday's new comic book day and- oh, fuck. TODAY IS WEDNESDAY. /comment ends abruptly
@CelicaCrazed - Your presence is certainly noticed! I love people that just take the time to read and respond, since I can be pretty bad at the second part. You're a vital, vital part of this site.
@garethxxgod - BEST? PSSHAW. But, seriously, thank you. I love those No Clip experiments. They are both a blast and a complete pain-in-the-ass at the same time. I can't wait for the next one to be online.