Alphadeus's Profile - Destructoid

Game database:   #ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ         ALL     Xbox One     PS4     360     PS3     WiiU     Wii     PC     3DS     DS     PS Vita     PSP     iOS     Android

click to hide banner header
Player Profile
Follow me:
Alphadeus's sites

Good day, friends.

I released a new album earlier that I wanted to share (what else is new!? :p). It's called 2AD15 - I. I suppose it has an odd name if you haven't seen me post before, but since I'm terrible with names, it's what I call it to move the creative train along! It's basically the year the album is released, and the number of the volume it is.

Unlike my other albums, which are usually 13 tracks (some being 12 as an exception), this one is only 11 tracks. I was unable to come up with any new jams, and wanted to start work on Volume IV of Songs for Gamers. Speaking of which, I'm working on Volume IV of Songs for Gamers =p Here's a new track:

Onstro (Cosmonstropolis)

I have 17 confirmed people for this album, and would like to make it 20-25 if possible. If you're interested in a track, let me know. The sooner the better. I'm going to start with adding 3 more people, and depending on how the tracks go, I might add 5 more. It's important to note that it is extremely unlikely there will be a Volume V.

As always, I hope you enjoy something I've written. I apologize for not throwing around as many words as I usually do, but I hope my music more than makes up for that =P Thanks for reading, and listening.

Hello, friends. I wanted to write a somewhat personal blog. I used to write a fair amount of these, but I think they're all hidden at the moment (or deleted). I do not consider myself a poet, or a riddle-writer, but one day, I had one brewing inside me (could be considered a poem and a riddle). I was going through a very dark time, probably one of my darkest. It was a few weeks after Robin Williams died.

I'll be honest, I was on my way out. This poem was supposed to be my last words. I've been dealing with a negative voice in my head my entire life, telling me I should kill myself. Whenever I would find a reason not to do it, it would evolve, and flip things around until I agreed with it again. Even though I am on better medication now, I still feel the voice was right, that I should've killed myself, but back when I was 16. If I do it now, I'd be hurting too many people, but no one knew who I was back then.

I'm in a better mindset now without the voice chewing away at me. I actually look forward to the day, and I'm in good spirits overall. I don't care if it's the medicine making me feel this way, it's leagues better than how I used to feel, so I'll take it.

Right, the poem. I called it "The Riddle of Friend". It's a bit dark, but I think it's neat. I might've actually shared this already, but I wanted to share it again.



I am an object, created by man.

Designed to support, wherever I can.

I keep secrets private, or set them free.

It matters little what man thinks of me.


Open me up, and I just let go.

Fall to the ground, put on a show.

Take me off, and I can be more.

A tool most useful, in every war.


Free from my shackles, I am something to fear.

Designed to support, by making it clear.

I keep secrets private, by keeping them silent.

One end of me hurts, the other more violent.


Wrap me around, and pull on both ends.

My bark is loud, harsh warnings it sends.

Put me back on, and I can be more.

A tool most useful, behind the closed door.


It’s just you and me now, there’s no need to cry.

Come on, let me hold you, and show you why.

I keep secrets private, for I cannot speak.

I matter the most as the tears start to streak.


Wrap me around, and pull on one end.

Ignore the warnings your brain tries to send.

Take me off right before you hit the floor.

I leave you breathless, begging for more.


We’ve come to the end of the long road together.

I held you up, but there’s no getting better.

I’ll keep one more secret, for old times sake.

It’s the only choice now, and it’s yours to take.


I am an object created by man.

Designed to support, wherever I can.

Wrap me around, and secure one end.

Just lean forward, let go, my old friend.


Ignore everything this time around.

I’ll keep you up, you won’t hit the ground.

Close your eyes, and think only of me.

I’ll leave you breathless, and set you free.

If the answer isn't obvious, it's about a "Belt". During my darkest times, I would wrap one around my neck and pull on it. I never pulled too hard, I just wanted to see how it felt. I consider the belt my friend, in that it supports me, and if the time ever came that I would need an out from life, it would offer itself to me so that I can finally be free.
I didn't post this to be depressing. I just wanted to share something I don't normally do. I write music, I don't write poems/riddles. This will probably be the only one I ever write, and I thought it was worth sharing.
Again, nothing to worry about. If I die, I die. It most likely won't be suicide, based on how I've felt since mid-late September of 2014. I want to try to keep going, to see where this life takes me. I just wanted to share something other than music, possibly for the second time.
Thanks for reading.

Hello, friends.

Today is my 34th Birthday. It falls on a Friday, just as it did when I was born. I always thought that was kind of cool. I haven't posted anything in a while, because I've been kind of tired. The snow has been killing me, making it hard to get to the gym to get in any sort of shape. But it's starting to melt, and I think I can go back on Monday.

I wanted to share my wish with you guys, which you may or may not already know. Of course, many of you know I write music, and I give it away for free. The thing is, and it doesn't upset me because I understand, is that it feels like no one is listening. Of course I see the comments in the posts, on YouTube, and on social media, and I'm excited every time. There are just a ton of days where nothing happens, which I imagine is normal for most people.

My wish is that more people would listen, and share their thoughts on my music, even if they don't like it. I know my music is not for everyone. I also know there's a ton of it (310 original songs, not counting remakes/remixes). Makes it very hard to find a good song, if any. I wish I had a way to make it easier to sort my music by genre, style, etc. Except I don't know what my music would be considered other than video game/electronic music.

I'm not asking for money, and I don't like too much attention. I just have all this music to share, and I want to continue writing music. What I need, is feedback, to help me grow, and explore areas of music I wouldn't normally consider.

With all that said, it's cool if you're not interested. There are at least 100 good songs out there by other artists :p Maybe if you could share my music with people that may be interested? You know, the old "tell 2 friends, they tell 2 friends..." and so on. These are my Bandcamp and YouTube pages. All of my music is free.

I wanted to share 6 new songs with you that I've created after Songs for Gamers Volume III. I stopped because of a headphone issue, which may or may not actually be an issue. It seems to come and go whenever it wants (the crackling on the right side on bass-heavy songs). I've been trying to work with it, since these headphones cost me $300. These 6 songs are going to be for "2AD15 - I", which continues the "2ADXX" series of albums, where I write jams, and send them out into the world.

Moonstone (2015) - Jam piece. Nice, slow, smooth piece.

Revered (2015) - Based on a song I wrote for my girlfriend's father after he passed away. I mean, it's pretty much the song, but not done on piano :P

Dynamic Punch (2015) - Going for something more upbeat, and with a piano lead.

Bubble (2015) - Really love this slow, spacey sound. Maybe I'll make an album of music just like this!

Quiet Explosion (2015) - Another attempt at a kickass Hip (Trip?)-Hop song that is meant to be rapped over.

Master Ruler (2015) - Should be obvious I'm pretty bad at naming songs. This is an upbeat, catchy tune I wrote recently.

As always, thanks for reading, for listening, and for being the best community on the internet. And I'm not just saying that! I don't share my music with any other website. You'll always be the place I go to share my creations.

Hello friends, I wanted to share with you the Bandcamp link to the album I had been working on since the beginning of January. I'm sure you've seen it before, but now you can download it! I highly recommend free. I encourage free. Grab it! Pay what you want? The simple act of downloading it for free is currency to me :p

Songs for Gamers Volume III

In case you do not know who I am, and what this is, I'm Alphadeus. I write music for fun. I've been doing it for a while, so I have a lot of music that I can share (over 300 original tracks not including remixes/rearrangements). These 20 tracks are the latest in a series I call "Songs for Gamers".

Songs for Gamers, originally called the Destructoid Community Album, was exactly that. I reached out to over 60 people from the various sections of Destructoid (Staff, C-blogs, Forums, Twitch channel, Front Page Comments, etc), and asked them if they wanted me to write them a theme song they can call their own. They would send me a song title, and music to use as inspiration for the track, and I would try to write something I hope they enjoy. It has worked out wonderfully. Everyone genuinely seems happy with their songs, and their love and support keep me going.

Reference: Songs for Gamers Remastered (collection of songs from Volume I and II remastered)

I suppose some of you are wondering why I would do this. The simple answer is that I love this community. The complicated, long answer, is that this community accepted me without hesitation into its wild assortment of unique and wonderful people. This was back in late 2009, although I had been browsing the site since maybe 2008. The people have always been supportive of me, even though all I do really is post very personal thoughts, and music, including piano performances and such. I wanted to give something back to the community, so I came up with this idea of writing theme music for people.

A lot has happened since the release of the first volume in 2011. I've been through a hell of a roller coaster ride, where one day I felt like I was pretty much at the end of my rope. When Robin Williams died, I almost lost my shit. No matter what has happened to me in this life, I've managed to (somewhat) keep my cool, and avoid going to the very dark place in my mind. But something about losing my "celebrity father" set me off, and if it wasn't for Tristrix, I don't know what would've happened.

A recent change in medication has allowed me to return to a somewhat normal mindset. I haven't given much thought to suicide in a few months, although if I'm going to die because of a disease or condition, that's fine. I feel I've lived a fairly long life (33 years). I didn't expect to live past 16, so technically everything I do at this point is a bonus stage.

I guess I'm being a bit too personal again, but that's just how I've always been.

Volume III is another big thank you to the community, and something I've had planned since 2012 (the release of Volume II). While it is only 20 tracks compared to the 30-35 of the first two volumes, I feel comfortable enough in releasing it, with the intent of working on a Volume IV consisting of 20-25 tracks. Will there be a Volume V? Probably not. I think 100~ songs is a good number :p

I'm very proud of these songs, as they represent growth to me. I've written music in styles I've never considered before, and I think they all came out amazing. I hope you find something you like in these songs.

Also, I have tons of other albums on Bandcamp. I recommend the 2AD14 series, as well as older albums like Walking in Circles/AD Infinitum I, and From Alpha to Omega. If you want something Nonsensical, there are 4 Nonsensical albums on the site. If you're looking for something dark/serious, I strongly recommend A Well-Known Stranger. I have tons of music in different genres, I don't even know what I'm doing. I just like to write music. And it's all free. I'm not looking for money (if I ever am in need of money, I will let you know, as I have in the past). I don't want to be rich. I just want to get through this life comfortably, preferably with a roof over my head.

I appreciate the years of support, and I love you guys. Even in my darkest moments, you guys were always there to pick me up, and now that I'm on somewhat stable ground, I want to continue to show my love, by releasing as much music as possible. Thank you.

Hello friends,

I wanted to share the next 10 tracks with you, but I also wanted to get some feedback/thoughts on something. I might be having an issue with my audio setup that may slow down or even prevent me from writing new music. I've written 20 songs for Volume III (1 hour, 2 minutes worth of music). Should I release the 20 tracks as Volume III, and save the 15-20 requests I have remaining for Volume IV? I normally do 30-35 tracks per album, but if there's going to be a delay in making music, I'd like to put out what I can in the meantime.

I don't plan on stopping, but if the audio issue persists (I'm getting a buzzing noise from the right side of my headphones), I may need to stop, and figure out how to fix the issue. These are expensive headphones I bought for mixing/mastering (I paid around 300 for them) since I do not have a decent studio monitor setup. I could probably contact the company to see what they say, but it could be an expensive fix, so it may cause a delay in making music. I'm not sure yet.

It's really great to be writing music, especially for the community. I'd probably go indefinitely until I couldn't think of a single tune to write (or ran out of requests). There feels like way more guitar work in these songs than I normally do, so it might be an interesting change compared to my mostly electronic style.

I'll embed the 10 tracks. Not really sure if I'll put descriptions, since I'm a bit nervous in regards to my audio setup, 9 out of 10 have been approved so far, and 1 was written for a person that no longer frequents the website. Tristrix was very supportive of me on the day Robin Williams died, and it felt like I was going to explode from all the emotions I was feeling. I wanted to thank him with a song. That's another reason why I changed the name of the album to Songs for Gamers, so that I could write songs for people I know that may not even have heard of the website. It's usually 99% community, though, with Tristrix being the only "exception", although he was a member in the past, and older members have left the site, so I suppose it's still 100% :P

So here are 10 new songs.

Ninjaneering (StriderHoang) : Kickass guitar music. Probably my fastest piece at 230bpm.

With What We Have Left (Tristrix) : Industrial song. 

Puerum de Tenebris (Nihil) : Slow rock song.

Slideways (HappyDayWarrior) : A bit more upbeat rock song! :p

We Are As One (Rob Morrow) : I suppose this could be electronic/breakbeat? It sounds awesome :p

Split Future (Firion) : Heavier rock/metal song.

Static Shuffle (Mix) : A Smooth Jazz type song.

Murder, Solve, Save (Marche100) : Not sure what genre this is, but it's written as a song to be played in an investigation-type video game.

Science! (Darren Nakamura) : Electronic music? This is similar to my regular type of music, assuming I even have a regular type at this point.

Giraffe Coffins (long john) : Mellow tune.

As always, I hope you find something you like listening to. If I release the album with 20 tracks, please look for it on my Bandcamp. I won't make another blog post if I decide to do it. My next blog post related to Songs for Gamers would be for Volume IV when I have 10 more tracks ready to go. Thanks for listening.

I know, I probably don't need to put "Music Blog" in my title, since all I ever write about is music. When I'm done writing about my own music, I'm going to write about video game music, since it's my blood :p I wanted to share the songs I've written so far this year for Songs for Gamers Volume III.

I've written 9 songs so far since January 1st, 2015. Most of them are "confirmed" in the sense that they have been heard by, and approved by, the person I wrote them for. I'd like to share all of the tracks I wrote so far, including the unconfirmed ones, since if the person ends up not liking them, they would be a bonus track on the album regardless :)

There are 10 songs for the album total so far. I'm including the Jon Bloodspray song, since technically it was supposed to be on Volume III. It's the first song I wrote for the album back in 2013 I believe, when I tried to revive the project, even though I wasn't in a good state of mind.

With all that said, here are 10 songs I wrote for people that frequent this website:

[unconfirmed] A Knight and His Synth (GajKnight) - Sega Genesis songs were used as inspiration, and I wanted to try to write something similar to the sounds that could come from one. I recall reading that Genesis used FM Synthesis, so I used FM 8 (a Native Instruments virtual instrument dedicated to this type of sound) to create this track.

Caligulovely (Brittany Vincent aka Molotov Cupcake) - Some great music was sent my way, including 3s and 7s from Queens of the Stone Age, which is a great song. I can't do that kind of music, so this is more or less what I could come up with.

LSD Cat (Brightside) - This was quite a challenging song. I wanted to write something using 8-bit instruments, but I wanted it to be absolutely crazy. To me, "crazy" is key and tempo changes. It also has a crazier melody than I'm used to composing.

Pessimistic Optimism (arkane9) - Classic heroic RPG VGM! This is the good stuff right here. I was so happy to get to write something like this again :p

Radiant Umbrae (ShadeOfLight) - Darksiders 2 music was the inspiration for this piece. I wanted to write something dark, but somehow rays of light managed to sneak in ;) Maybe I can't write pure dark music! But it sounds great. I had to make an EQ change to the song, and the album version will sound different. I feel like one of the instruments in the second part is too loud in the high end, so I lowered it.

Rainbow Love (Usedtabe) - Another challenging piece I consider to be outside of my normal composition techniques. Aphex Twin was the inspiration used, and the track had a lot of warps and effects, so I tried to capture that with this track.

Surviving the Fuck Fight (PhilKenSebben) - Music from Spose was my inspiration for this piece, which would probably sound awesome with someone rapping over it. I tried to fill in a melody, but I still think it would sound amazing if someone would rap over it :p Can't be me! I only speak music!

[unconfirmed] Think of the Kids (Chris Carter) - Chris was one of the original requests for Volume III. Back then he was known as Magnalon. He sent me 2 songs to use as inspiration, but one of them was taken down (I think copyright infringement :P), so I focused on the second song in order to write this piece.

Toilet Duck (TheToiletDuck) - I believe a song from the Platoon NES game was used to inspire this piece. I like writing this kind of music as well. I like writing music in general, but pieces like this are fun!

And in case you haven't heard it:

You Know What Old Jon Bloodspray Says (Jon Bloodspray) - It even has the artwork I was going to use for the album! And apparently it was written in 2013. I put it on the Songs for Gamers Remastered album, and Nonsensicals IV, but it will also be on Volume III of Songs for Gamers, where it belongs!

As far as openings for track requests, I "might" have some, but I need to go through what I have so far in order to confirm. I will post another update, letting you know if I can handle more requests or not. Thanks for listening.