I'm personally going through a very wierd stage in my life right now. Massive changes are happening, some good and some bad. Some changes I've brought about myself and others are way beyond my control giving me no choice but to deal with them, but regardless, everything that i once knew as being my life is being turned on its head. As my life changes and I'm forced to mature and grow into something more than I already am i order to survive, I actually worry if the things i loved so much this time last year might be slowly loosing their appeal to me as a result.

Basically, i feel that gaming might be starting to bore me.... and that fucking sucks.



Its such a wierd thing for me to say considering that i still get excited about new releases, i still browse gaming blogs every day looking for new information and I still go out and buy new games when i can afford them, but my the problem is the stack of games sitting next to my tv which I've barely even touched. Far Cry 2, GTA IV, Dead Space, Battlefield Bad Company, Burnout Paradise, Crackdown, Fallout 3. These are all games that i've played maybe 20mins of, and just haven't had the patience to go back to since. Fuck, I even force myself to sit down and try playing more Fallout 3 whenever i read about how awesome it is, but I get bored before the menu's even finished loading!

I've thought about it and there could be a reason why this is happening. Time. As everything in my life changes, I just seem to be getting more and more busy. Its a good thing because i'm doing more of the things that I love and i feel like I'm getting more out of everyday than i ever have before.... but now when i sit down to collect some agility orbs in Crackdown, that little voice in the back of my head keeps quietly reminding me of all the other things that i could possibly be doing with this time, stopping me from relaxing and just enjoying the game. This means that when i rate everything that i could do with my day in order of priority, gaming seems to be slipping lower and lower down the list.

I don't know, maybe its time, or maybe its just a guilt thats been programmed into me since school. All those hours playing games with the niggling guilt reminding me of the assignments that i should be getting done right now instead of playing, but back then i was care-free enough to choose fun over being productive.

Despite what i've just been talking about, I haven't stopped gaming completely. There are still a few titles that will probably hold my attention indefinitely. Rock Band still rules my world whenever i've got my drink on, i'll always make time for Street Fighter IV (or any fighting game for that matter), and Left 4 Dead is holding my attention pretty well to. One thing in common with these titles though, is that i only really enjoy them when I'm playing them with other people. Its like my perspective on gaming changes when there are other people in the room, as all of a sudden it becomes a social event rather than just playing a game.... maybe I enjoy it more because it doesn't feel like a "waste of time" anymore once I'm sharing the experience.... then again, I never did feel as guilty doing something wrong if other people were there doing it with me.

And thats where I'm at right now. A social gamer who still loves everything about gaming yet doesn't know what to do with the practically new of Far Cry 2 sitting next to his 360 :/

NOTE: Not to negate my whole point, but there is still one game I can gladly play on my own for hours time and time again, Ninja Gaiden 2, but thats probably just because I'm a fucked up sadistic prick who love the power trip that game gives me every time

By the way, i'm still new here, so if you give a shit about what i write at all let me know. thanks!